I'm a 23 year old loser who's heavily addicted to porn, and have been addicted to porn ever since I was a child because I was raised by alcoholics, now ex-alcoholics, my two parents lost two children to different causes, I am the last one left alive but I'm a total autist so basically my parents lost their only two children.
When they started drinking, I, much like I am now, had no one to talk to or hang out with, no PC to play on (I was a console peasant, I spent most of my time playing inFAMOUS and The Bourne Conspiracy on my PS3) so I turned to pornography and masturbation to cope with my absolute hell of a life.
Almost everyday since then, I have done nothing with my life up until now but masturbate and masturbate and masturbate.
When I turned 18, I discovered nootropics and stimulants, I researched neurology on my own freetime using my little smartphone paid for by my chain smoking alcoholic dad (whom still smokes like a chimney to this day, his lungs are healthier than mine somehow, possibly because he's not inhaling the excessive cum fumes that I ejaculate on a daily basis) I discovered neurotrophins and neurogenesis, familiarized myself with neurons, and the structure of neurons, I forgot most of what I learned though, because of my decayed lump of a brain, because of porn addiction.
I started working out at 18 to fix my problems, nothing changed, I did only leg day, my workouts were extremely half assed and inconsistent, and now, at 23, all I have to show for 5 years of "hard work" is these barely noticeable muscles on my thighs, and no where else.
I don't have a job, I am still a virgin, I still live with my folks whom no longer drink but whenever I bring up how much they ruined my life with their alcoholism, they act like it never happened, and that it wasn't even that big of a deal when they act like it did indeed happen.
But that's my backstory just so I can ensure I've won the "woe is me" Olympics... this post is about caffeine...
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