I used to be over 300lbs. I'm 5'7 and I lost so much weight. Down to a normal range of 150s. My dad died, I lost my home, my entire family, most of my possessions. My partner and I fought alot. had to move across the country to a hellhole, spent so fucking long depressed and suicidal. I believe in an afterlife/devine justice or I'd end all this bullshit right now. Ended up gaining. In three years I'm back to 189.
I'm stuck here in this suffering of existence. But I want to be fit.
I cut out all sugar and most carbs hoping to boost my mood. It helped some, but not nearly enough. Outdoor activities used to give me life but now I can hardly find the willpower to do anything. I don't like browsing my phone, even tv requires too much sometimes. I can do nothing for hours.
I cut out all onions products. It helped some. Not enough
I took the iodine bait. That honestly seemed to help the most.
I don't smoke weed, drink coffee, don't drink alcohol or do drugs.
But the only boost of joy I get is from eating.
If you don't care about anything, how can I find the desire to snuff out this last bit of happiness I have?
Being active is easy. But I can always eat more than I can workout
Do i look like a fucking therapist to you? Go talk to someone in real life about it.
Aiden Perez
I'm loser who continues to fail because I cant feel the wanting and caring I need to do this. I want the mires. I want the long hikes uphill, I want to be strong and run. But it's like my brain has literally lost every feeling. I can't even seem to feel the anger at myself I felt the first time.
Has anyone been this lost and know how to find your way out?
As far as minerals go you should definitely start take Magnesium, copper, zinc and vitamin A, preferably real retinol from animal source like beef liver. You might feel worse in the beginning because it works, just stick to it.
Julian Hill
>But the only boost of joy I get is from eating. >If you don't care about anything, how can I find the desire to snuff out this last bit of happiness I have? unironically find another addictive behavior, just a tamer one. Get really into a computer game, and I mean really into it for example. Might I suggest EUIV?
Jonathan Sullivan
Eat shit you whiny faggot. No one wants to read your sob story.
Nathaniel Garcia
"Someone wants fitness related help on a fitness board. OMG ITS NOT ABOUT MOVING AN OBJECT THOUGH. SOMEONE HAS TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS"- you probably
Faggot, therapy is your only option now after you tried everything else. Just find someone who doesn't push meds. Or you could just take that bright idea of yours and kill yourself fucking waste of life
Thomas Diaz
>My partner and I stopped reading right there. you need to go back.
Alexander Moore
eat vitamin D supplements lift weights and post on /adv/
Jayden Ortiz
Hmm am girl. You'd have hated it if I said my boyfriend bc we arnt supposed to exist. Sooo fuck you either way I guess?
Henry Bailey
>My partner
Logan Adams
Wow I was going to say how I can mostly relate to you, but at the end of the day you just have to man up and keep taking the abuse. Now I'm less inclined to say anything else really. No need to advertise your gaping hole here and you won't post tits either way - not that I really care. After having half my family die off within a month, losing my ability to procreate, having my mental issues increase in magnitude and now sitting alone in an apartment that has had no running water for over 3 days it really comes down to just accepting these things. It's simply the role you're given and there is no great wisdom behind it. Sage
I know that feel. Sometimes I don't eat because I feel like I don't deserve it. Other times because I'm agonizing over every bite lessening my progress for the day. And other times yet because I feel so disheartened that I just want to roll into a ball and be left alone. Last time I started a diet, I saw a girl that evoked a strong reaction in me. And I don't mean sexually alone. But I could never approach her and that made me sad. I skipped food that day. The next day I realized it and thought "I made a start so let's continue". I've made great progress so far. Still in anguish over other matters though. I guess you gotta find what works for you. Or to get even more hollowed out. Sucks that you went over that stuff.
destroyed dopamine receptor, porn addiction and prone to loss of will/motivation to do something you aspire to be or want to improve without drugs/meds > "My new diagnose from the brain guy whos hired to make sure that people are hooked up on drugs, dosile, ill and likely to die early into retirement once theyve served their purpose in society"
