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Nobody deserves or has a right to anything, user if you don't want to feel guilty for receiving love become more "worthy of love" in your eyes.
Is it normal to have literally no idea what I believe in or how I'm feeling. I just lift because I look at the vague cloud of what I think I should do and I kind of make out lifting. Wtf is up with my brain I'm not even depressed really.

I've never had a female friend in my life. I've been this way pretty much since I was 13 or so, avoiding women a lot even in high school. It became worse in 2018 when I began university and at the same time discovered incel/blackpill bullshit continuing to regress further. After a year or so of indulging in lookism bs, I had enough and stopped indulging further. However, deep down I still have an inability to communicate with women and have normal friendships with them. I could talk to guys with no problem, but women were alien to me. I gave up on having a gf pretty much but I still would admire women and have crushes on them.

Fast forward to early 2020, this girl I had a crush on was coming onto me strongly but I sperged out and completely ignored her for the entire semester. I didn't know what to do. In my mind I would constantly wonder "why does she like me?" "what does she see in me?", to the point where I completely avoided talking to her. I still can't help but reminisce about those moments and how hard I had messed up back then. I wish I learnt to talk to females earlier on and got over my shyness. Lately, this shit has been eating me up so much, realizing that I'm about to be graduating in a year and have made no significant progress in my social or love life. I dedicated a ton of time over the past two years into working on being financially free and I'm at a very comfy spot for someone my age but I have lost all drive as of late and I keep asking myself "what's the point" as I have no one to share my happiness with. How do I get myself out of this rut? It does not help that campus has been shut for so long and I don't really have an outlet to get comfortable talking to females, when I really want to.

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You have to make the move though bro. You'll drive yourself insane if you don't. She sounds like she does enjoy your company, so the odds are good. If she says no, well, you've got a head start on dealing with the month of depression you'd have to get through either way. Whatever happens, happens man.

I’ve got a decade plus of depression and fucked up thoughts and loose skin after dropping 180lbs. I just can’t imagine letting anyone grow close to me let alone intimate. I’d scare them away so quick

Is it too soon to confess? I’ve only known her a couple months

How do I get friends? Like friends who actually want to do shit together often instead of just once every two weeks?

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College student btw

You see, i always wanted to wake up and have someone to say "i love you" to (apart from my families and relatives of course) but honestly im kinda scared, yes you heard that right - relationship scares me. Now you might be asking why? Well, there has been multiple instances of people who i know that got cheated on, to name a view: my father cheated once cheated on my mom, a man whom i respected the most did something sooo despicable, till this day i can't really forgive him. a year ago my brother's GF broke up with him due to her wanting to "take care of herself and fix her mental health" or some shit, turns out she cheated, now that bitch is pregnant - she was kicked from her house and NO ONE from her family wants to talk to her (even her brother, who's still hanging out with my brother) and lastly this just happened recently; my mate just got "cheated" on, im not sure what to call this but basically my mate GF (lets call her...idk 'lay') confess that she has been getting close with someone else, this someone else apparently is well aware that lay and my mate were together so fuck him! Anyway, lay said the stupidest shit ever, it goes something like this "if you want us to still be together then good, but if you wished to break up - i'll go with that someone else" this really pissed me off because lay caused all this and yet he's making my mate to figure this out, she doesn't even want to fix the mess she made basically.

Anyway, yeah, i don't wanna get inna relationship soon, i dont wanna get cheated on - i dont wanna be hurt

Sorry for scuffed writing, typing this from mobile

I think so dude. Make the decision of your own accord, but I've heard girls say that they want a guy to ask them out sooner rather than later.

But if you're already hiking places alone together? You have to dude. Just be a man and do it, and don't take it personal no matter the answer. I believe in you.

thats why you never get in a long term relationship you simply fuk n dump untill you find 'the one'

bump

Finally. Haven't seen these threads in ages.

I'll have a can of Monster Ultra, any flavor will do.

Life is going pretty well.

>sort of mended my relationship with my dad (didn't talk to him for almost 3 years and still don't trust him completely)
>started doing 100% remote work and on my last day I asked my co-worker out, she said yes
>she "hasn't found the time" but I used that confidence boost to fuck 3 girls from my gym in 1 week
>other co-workers have been texting me asking me to hang out
>had to rejoin Facebook because of a passion project I'm going to do, ended up reconnecting with a girl who used to work the front desk at my gym and had a huge crush on me that I didn't capitalize on because of my strict "no drama in the iron temple" rule (read: I was too much of a pussy)
>I called her like a boomer and we talked for like 30 minutes before making plans to meet on Thursday
>after 2 weeks of gym closure and 2 weeks of being sick, my lifts have actually gone up
>money & living situation is decent
>some kid called me a fast walker to his friend, felt good

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