>be at 12-hour engineering shift job
>told to do Job slowly by boss, deliberately drag it out
>do half of it quickly and get side tracked with other work that needs immediate attention
>boss appears again as I finish writing update in log of work
>"user, ya taking the piss or something??" With a flushed red face
>"I did what you asked and had to do other bits"
>"Go and fucking carrying on and get it done" (In a polish accent)
>immediately angry beyond comprehension, also scared and also ibs kicks in and need a shit
>act uncaring and relaxed as possible
>still seething now after work and imagining scenarios where it inevitably ends with him calling me out to fight or assaulting me
>ive trained multiple years MMA and boxing
>still imagine my punches will be weak and pathetic in a real fight and I'll get overpowered in a clinch (despite tapping people higher grading than me and rarely getting tapped)
>try to imagine being brave and taking a beating and then reporting him to the police
>All of this is massively blown out of proportion and unlikely to happen
What would you have done, Any Forums?
Why am I such a scared pussy and envision everything as life or death, getting a beating heart and panic attacks from heated conversations or debates?
Scared all the time
YOU SOUND like a bitch.
Maybe man up and stop thinking everything is life or death, confront him and hold yourself in higher esteem and maybe you'll be treated with more respect.
Unironically see a good therapist
Checked.
What do you think is the most likely outcome in these scenarios? Do you feel like a fight might ensue and you'll be fighting for your life/pride and possibly get hurt or KO'd and look like a bitch?
unironically imagine him getting fucked by twinks, which is probably what he does get in his free time
>told to do Job slowly by boss, deliberately drag it out
>get side tracked with other work that needs immediate attention
why are you deciding what needs immediate attention? talk to the boss before switching jobs.
Based and redpilled
He does fuck escorts, he showed me one the sites he uses, basically like looksmaximus just shorter and fat. His missus does work in the same company, I could anonymously grass him up about his affairs...
It's the nature of the job and you're expected to go to priority jobs if asked to by production. He even said we were unlikely to finish the job he put me on, and that we just chip away at it whilst tending to more immediate tasks.
If a machine went down for example, and I ignored it and didn't restart it, I'd be "in trouble" for it.
Maybe take a little vacation my man, you sound stressed out. Both me and Jesus love you.
so now you are saying you didnt think you were doing anything wrong based on whats expected of you so why dont you just tell him that
Well yeah, that was exactly that but as I explained in the OP, I am scared and think things will devolve into violance and my heart beats and my speech gets erratic when I try to confront people, like I am poised to suddenly fight or flight. I worry that if someone who so brashly and confidently speaks down to me like that, then they must be be prepared to back it up and will probably attack me if I retaliate.
I have a cousin for example, whom is out of shape, much older and never trained to fight who ALWAYS gives me abuse and mocks me. I have little to say back and if I challenge him he will detail how easily he'd knock me out. I don't press him or stick up for myself, because three times he has bottled or hit his brother around the head with an object when his back is turned and will resort to violent action with use of tools to further his effectiveness. Some people just look for these scenarios it seems and I am a perfect target being a pussy.
I don't want to go somewhere alone and I haven't a friend who'd go somewhere with me atm. I'd just be alone anywhere else, these problems have followed me since childhood. I couldn't even argue back to teachers in highschool otherwise my voice would be all broken, my heart beating and I'd be on the verge of tears. My dad hitting me, throwing me around and calling me pooof and waste of space and fucking idiot all the time and never talking to me otherwise (unless trying to tell me to stick up for myself ironically with violance, ironically) probs has something to do with it.
Sorry for the blog. 12 hour shifts ain't fun.
Unironically wait for when he leaves his office and take a big shit on his desk.
I would love to see what would be the solutions for this case. I have very similar issues. The anxiety, the ibs, which might just as well be caused by the anxiety... My mind calms down only when I am training, at least most of the time. Quiting stimulants such as caffeine also helped a little. An issue might also be a low testosterone level.
It seems like going to a professional would be the best solution.
He's more a team leader than boss, and we work on a factory shop floor.
Do you get scared to walk places on your own and take certain routes to avoid potentially rough roads/streets and areas? I have always done this, especially at night.
When I read about people going on nightwalks here I am dumbfounded that they do so, freely and without fear of being attacked or robbed.
Yes. I might go on a nightwalk if I am with friends. I do feel quite anxious when I have to go back home alone on foot in my neighbourhood at night so I avoid it. When I do I am constanly on the edge and prepared to fight.
Do you work at a certain pharmaceutical company in the Netherlands?
Perhaps...which one?
Search another job. Never accept anyone dominating you it fucks with your brain.
MSD?
Listen OP, I have worked with agressive Polacks as well. One jumped in my face for legit no reason and wanted to kill me on the spot. Ignore these sub-humans at all costs. Dont fight or you will likely become a cripple it is not worth it to waste life on these people. Go to upper managment and report this faggot, tell them he is intimidating you for no reason and that you will not tolerate this. If he becomes even more agressive then buy a fucking gun or pepper spray or someshit, never fight when there are better tools for self defence.
>Asking for daddy's approval before doing anything.
You've got to be 18 to post here, you know.
Bro tldr. If you don't like your job find a new one. Also, stand up forself.for self. Self worth comes from the SELF
Tell him he reeks of rotten potato's and that it reminds you of his mums unwashed used pussy lmao.
Als je een Nederland bent dan moet je al helemaal niks pikken van die kanker pollacks, minder dan de stront onder je schoen, hedendaagse neanderthalers.
yeah. do martial arts for the discipline and training. in actual fights do you wanna risk dying or sent into a coma? no, fucking shoot/stab the cunt
>pussy
>you’ll go to jail
yeah but i’ll be unharmed and they wont. cope.