Listen to Barbie Girl on repeat and then unironically take your meds.
Question for GATEbros
Mason Cruz
Jack Sullivan
do you journal? this sounds like the normal phase of development and in a healthy society would be encouraged harnessed directed channeled. name your emotions and they stop being emotions and become thoughts. write shit down and you'll get your brain organized. could take like two years but you'll be fine
Dominic James
and read philosophy that interests you until you develop your own that aligns your shit
Jeremiah Carter
I cant imagine having this much of a soft gayass life where i would fantasize myself into problems
Easton Peterson
Stop trying to focus against it, focus on it and try to lead it. It will take years of practice.
Lincoln Cruz
Good morning
Sunday morning.
Levi Campbell
Have you been to the doctor?
Tyler Edwards
"Overstimulate" yourself. Or keep a higher than usual level of stimulation. While I'm typing I'm listening to some jewtube shit. Or when I'm working I've got music blasting in my ears.
But I always assumed it was an adhd thing not a GATE thing. What makes you say its GATE?
Justin Gomez
>Do you journal?
No, I don't do anything to channel creativity. I don't feel creative and never have. Trying to write or draw just draws up blanks. If I just wrote my thoughts down it would be schizophrenic tier.
But I should do that. I need to do anything that encourages neuroplasty. Maybe getting out of the gay school system was actually bad for me because I unlearned how to focus. My short term memory is ass. I've got lots of wisdom and knowledge stored but my actual computing speed/power feels like ass and a half. Life has just been about surviving and trying to stay sane so that I can support people I care about.
The huge hurdle for me with resuming any kind of studies or learning new skills is that focusing is hard so that initial hurdle feels extremely hard to get over and I get demoralized and feel retarded.
The other issue is, maybe the key one, I just, don't care about anything.
I'm so apathetic. It's a defensive response to demon world. I can't bring myself to care about anything so I don't remember shit and can't focus. I hate being here so maybe music loops in my head to keep me from spiraling into worse turmoil.
I have done this already. I took the Mark Passio natural law pill and delved into the occult a while ago but all of that can be boiled down to "be a good person, fight for good". And that doesn't help me a lot with my raped brain.
What do you mean by lead it?
I always have background shit running but... I dunno nothing helps.
>What makes you say its GATE?
I am worried I somehow developed or gave myself ADHD somehow, but, it ties into GATE because one of the features of the GATE thread OP was pointing out an inner monologue run amok. People in them always spoke about having some kind of nonstop music in their head, ADHD or otherwise fucked up monologues. I have this too.
Thoughts loop, I talk to myself in my head to keep myself occupied, music plays, etc
Basic shit becomesimpossible
Jordan Rivera
>pretending to have schizofrenia for upcummies