If It makes anything better I only drink at nights. I have an entire bottle of 1,200mg gabapentin which as I understand it, works roughly the same as alcohol without the drunkenness' as alcohol T. my mother, and former alcoholic Uncle.
Should also mention I do have health insurance from my job, even have the "telephone doctor" that I can call/video chat with but I'm not sure what to say to not come off as an fucking crackhead.
It started about 1.5 years ago...
Brandon Peterson
Matthew Fisher
the liquid jew has me in its thralls too man. And every time I drink I get down with the nicotine jew too. I've been pretty good recently but tonight I decided to drink tonight and now I'm regretting it. I have something special happening later and now I'm gonna be hungover for it.
David Bell
Going to hit 3 years sober this July - I was like you, I would drink a pint or 2 of makers on the way home from work every day for about a year. Your options are as follows, assuming you don’t want to have a seizure:
A. Taper with beer. Yes this will be disgusting, but you’ll avoid medical costs. Drink only the bare minimum to feel like you aren’t going to die. We’re talking 5-6 the first day, 3-4 the second day and so on. Takes an ungodly amount of willpower - I was unable to do this.
B. Find an emergency department that has a detox program. Taper with diazepam under their supervision. That shit is magic and will work against the electrical storm your brain is now producing to keep you alive.
As mentioned, the hard part is really the maintenance rather than making it through withdrawal. I’ve been tempted numerous times, but I have a good buddy who was a heroin addict and we check each other. You don’t necessarily need to buy into the AA koolaid wholesale, but I do know some people for whom that has worked wonders.
Find Christ, nicotine, and a hobby (gym/lit for me). You will be tempted again, but remind yourself that the off button is the pussy’s way out for those who cant deal with discomfort. You got this user
Easton Ward
Sort of ironically I've never tried Nicotine, hell I've never even tried weed or any THC based drug.
I drink every night. Every single night, and I'm not talking a simple buzz. I get hillbilly blackout moonshine FUCKED. It's a nightmare. Every single fiber in your body tells you it's wrong, I gag sometimes just drinking a shot. I have just ~12-16hrs of alcohol-free, useful cognitive thought until the liquid Jew overwhelms my reward system. I should have paid better attention to what it did to my ancestors, I should have never drank it as per typical 21 year old American "tradition". It's a hell I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, not even the kikest of kikes.
I WANT OUT GOD DAMNIT. I WANT FUCKING OUT.
Kevin Collins
go to buffalo, shoot.
Wyatt Thomas
Eventually catches up with you, you'll notice its harder to get out of bed, or you'll gain weight, or have other physiological stuff, like light sensitivity, weird feeling in your kidneys, cankles. Trying to keep the habit in your 30s just fizzles out and all you really want at that point is nutrients, good exercise, and sober rest periods so you can feel better.
James Fisher
wait, would you say your alcoholism was directly caused by your job and your employer failing to employ enough workers?
remember it is clown world out there, you could benefit from it for once.
Isaiah Wood
Is your wife a heavy drinker as well?
Try praying for help while at the cemetery visiting a relatives grave, then go cold turkey. Do this at the beginning of a 3 day weekend so you have some time before going back to work.
Charles Bailey
You are going to realize years later that you aren't getting "~12-16hrs of alcohol-free, useful cognitive thought" per day if you are getting "hillbilly blackout moonshine FUCKED" every night. That was me when I was in my late teens and twenties. I never really got hangovers or the physical effects. Now in my thirties I can look back and see that it totally dominated me physically and mentally even back then when I couldn't really perceive it. It makes you someone that you're not.
In one of my several court ordered AA meetings over the years one guy said something that's always stuck with me: when a person is really drunk and you look into their eyes it looks like there's a different soul in there. You can take that spiritually or pragmatically, but it's true. It really takes you over. It might as well be a demon and you should try to tame it now that you're young so that you can enjoy all the good things life has to offer. Don't be like me bro, still wrestling the same demon in your thirties.
Samuel Brown
1. Substitute alcohol for benzos.
2. Take the dosage religiously slowing tapering the dosage to zero over a course of couple months.
Literally that easy. But you have to be very careful with benzos DO NOT fuck with them. You have to constantly remind yourself that you're only using them to quit alochol.