here is how to tell if you are agp
AGP isnt real.
How do I determine if I’m AGP or not? Like can you question me about it...
damn I wish I had this low inhibition
Yeah. Tons probably, I don’t remember them though.
If I get envious from the way another Woman looks nowadays, it’s not from just seeing them and thinking “I want to be her”. It’s from seeing them and my inner voice saying “hey don’t you want to be her?!” Basically I almost have to force myself to take notice of the fact that I’m supposed to be dysphoric.
You’re right but I think what I fear from being AGP and what most people fear from it, is the possibility of coming to the realization years down the trail that you could have just stayed a male and you aren’t a real woman more than you were when you started out.
Classic agp
Doesn’t matter tho, you can still benefit from transition but consider it carefully first
I told you there is no AGP. Everybody worries about that. It completely rearranges your life to change your sex. Not to mention you join a hated group.
>You’re right but I think what I fear from being AGP and what most people fear from it, is the possibility of coming to the realization years down the trail that you could have just stayed a male and you aren’t a real woman more than you were when you started out.
I'm not that user but I had SRS too and I still don't "feel like a woman", I still just feel like me, just like I always have.
I just don't really understand gender identity, but ever since puberty I just really wished I had a vagina, because the idea of masturbating with one kind of just resonated with me, and I felt like sex would be much easier too, similarly to what you describe as well. Personally I was really into anal masturbation since I was 12 years old, although I felt rather insecure about it, and I always felt like the preparation needed for it was such a hassle and I wished I could just have a hole that is easier to keep clean.
Even just minor things like being able to wear cute underwear and being flat down there, or having boobs, or wearing cute clothes, made me feel really excited. In fact, the idea of being a girl excited me so much that it went far beyond mere sexual arousal, into mania.
And you know what? The excitement never went away. Even though the pain after SRS was so intense that I can no longer recall it as it exceeded the capabilities of my imagination, I was smiling elatedly the whole time I was at the hospital and then some. I show my husband my boobs at least 12 times per day, and it never gets old for either of us. He fucks me five times a week, and it feels like something deep inside of me heals a bit more every time. Every time he compliments my body, I can't help but tremble because of how excited I am.
Do these feelings mean I have a female gender identity? I dunno, what even is gender anyway? But regardless of my identity, I'm just so happy to finally have an innie and a sexy body. It's like my adolescent dreams came true!
>Yeah. Tons probably, I don’t remember them though.
What do you remember of them, if anything?
I am the user OP was responding to and yeah I feel the same way. like I said there's no reason for dysphoria your brain just wants your body and social position to be a certain way.
if someone has a concrete reason they probably aren't transgender
I was always interested in anal but didn't really like it for much the same reasons not to mention it kind of highlighted the penis to have access to the hole. I always masturbated by tucking and grinding (and later vibrators) so I wouldn't have to see it. and it is such a relief to be able to just take all my clothes off when I masturbate. or not masturbate being able to just stand in the bathroom after a shower without any distress is amazing after all these years.
but I'm still insecure about my female identity even though I'd never consider giving up my female body. and I know it sounds like a TERF cliche but I don't know what feeling like a woman means beyond having that body. (or wanting that if pretransition).
I can relate to disliking how it highlighted the penis. So when my dysphoria was at its worst, I came up with a different way to masturbate: I would enter a trance while gently grinding against a pillow, while visualising that my bf was lying down below me and that I'm riding him. The more I did this, the more I began to vividly feel it as vaginal sex, and eventually I could have numerous orgasms that way in a single session even without physically grinding anymore, just lying down. Eventually I started voice calling with my bf during it and he would likewise enter a trance and visualise the same things as I was while jerking off. It was very precious, and I felt like it healed me to the point that my dysphoria just completely disappeared, because the horrible feeling that I was missing something important finally went away.
I still had surgery anyway because I knew I'd be even happier if my body is like that physically too. But because I was so proud of overcoming my negative feelings about my physical body after all these years, I jerked off almost every day during the month leading up to the surgery, as I wanted to embrace my body regardless of its shape and make good memories. And yet, although that was fun, I've never once felt like I miss having a dick. Because somehow, this just suits me so much better. It just feels so right on a level that goes even deeper than my emotions or sexuality.
As a bonus, my ability to have orgasms without any physical stimulation also makes it much easier to enjoy and climax from physical stimulation now. It helps that the shape is so similar to what I was used to visualising. My surgeon's assistant actually complimented me for that when she asked me some questions and I mentioned it. She said she's been trying to explain to her patients for years that sex happens in the mind, and that I exemplified that perfectly by being able to do it in a trance, just as one might in a lucid sexual dream.
i'm happy for you but reading posts like these always makes me insecure about myself and why i'm trans lol