I have a relatively pessimistic view on life and the world. Some might call me a nihilist. But I do have dreams and ambitions, it's just so hard to obtain them. I won't bother you with the tl;dr of my life's experiences, but I am constanly in a negative mindset I can rarely escape from. I'm used to smoke and drink a lot but quit all that long ago. I just feel like I'm used up. I don't want antidepressants because I've already tried them all and the side effects aren't worth it plus I know what that shit does to you brain long term. Idk. Any non-drug advice from you anons?
I have a relatively pessimistic view on life and the world. Some might call me a nihilist...
Easton Gutierrez
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Dominic Allen
Any medical or security experience/ training?
Zachary Ross
>it's just so hard to obtain them
divide and conquer
Nolan Martin
BLS training, was going to be an EMT at some point but decided against it. I do actually have a decent job in IT, working towards network engineering with a cybersecurity discipline. But still attaining a higher position is proving very difficult and almost hopeless.
Carson Rivera
Damn, user, I’m hurting for medics. Lucky you’re in I.T at all. Literally the future of our entire society. You’ll get there. If there’s one thing that’s isn’t shrinking its cyber threats.
Dylan Gomez
What area are you from if you don't mind me asking? Also is it primarily a transport company or are you a first response provider.
Luis Howard
Arizona, but I got a thing in Memphis and am fixing to need some medics next year when I relocate. More of an advisement position, but I need first response as well eventually. Why’d you decide against EMS?
Asher Adams
A few reasons. I rode along with a local outfit for about a year. I liked it but I didn't get along with some of the medics. I was also a volunteer firefighter. Eventually I realized even though I enjoyed it it wasn't my true passion and the wages weren't really sufficient at least in my area. If I were to take it further and be an RN/Medic I could probably bust six figures but it would have taken a lot of time. But the biggest thing that turned me away from it is I was accused of something I didn't do. I was later exonerated but the humiliation never went away and I never got any kind of apology. Those people claim to be close like a family but I didn't feel it. I was an outcast. Even the fire department treated me that way even though I did it all for free. It was a really discouraging thing to me.
William Bailey
Based innocent user, yeah I’ve talked to a paramedic and she said it was apparently sexist, full of drama, sex, favoritism, and awful treatment of patients. Apparently in this city there was a street where druggies congregated, and when the ambulance rode by they honked their horn and tell them to flash tits and call them whores. Apparently they get the dark humor and awful personalities from all the dark shit they see but still, shits fucked yo. Definitely don’t blame you for choosing I. T, truthfully, much better in pay and experience. I’m sorry you got accused user, I know that feel. Fuck em.
Luke Clark
If I could sum it all up, the truth is I am just overwhelmed by guilt and shame and embarrassment to the point it's suffocating. I wasn't a very good person in my past life. I never did anything horrendously bad it's just stuff that is frowned upon. But I can't forgive myself. I don't know how. Just as well, I probably deserve to suffer. But I don't get off on it or anything. I'm no masochist. I just want to be free from this pain.
Anthony Cook
Burn out syndrome just do light adrenaline boosting exercises as hobbies motor biking etc
Ian Nelson
Meditation.
Study the Taoist or Chan Buddhist practices. Get The Secret of the Golden Flower, Cleary translation. Read it. Then read it again. Then put it into practice and wonder what was with all the whiny faggot muh nihilism posting on a cartoon porn image board.
Jose Wood
Yeah I can definitely see how medics can have bleak outlooks on life as well. I've seen a lot of shit but dealing with that every day for their whole career... I can't see how they can stay sane. It takes a special person to be constantly exposed to the literal worst of humanity on the daily. I respect those people.
That being said I am trying to give the local FD a chance but they seem to have cold personalities as well. They don't like to talk... Makes me feel unwelcome.
Jose Thomas
You're stuck. Do something like travelling. Try new things on those travels. Experience it.
Landon Jackson
World of Warcraft
Gavin Garcia
I've always wanted to go to Japan but I want to learn the language first. I know only basic phrases at this point. No I'm not a weeb but I am interested in the culture.
Adam Robinson
I’ve looked into group settings and “new arrivals before”, granted, not as FF, but as it pertains to small military units. There’s parallels I think, and Shawn Ryan makes a great commenters on it.
Acceptance in those areas will always be an uphill battle. Things are going the way they want it, they’re with their friends, in their comfort zone. As a newcomer to that environment, they single you out as unnecessary and a hazard, which you may be. In any dangerous job, a new guy doesn’t start as a pro knowing all the trade tricks. When they started they definitely didn’t.
Except hazing, humiliation, but as you grow with them and experience that hardship and traumatic experience, to be accepted as one of their own. A good measure is once they start asking for you opinion (guarantee as a new guy they won’t ask you for it) you’re pretty much one of the pack.
Henry Cruz
Japan in next on my list, right after Singapore. Currently working and putting money away for that.
Nathaniel Wood
Not OP but I had an experience in a small group like that in a certain type of work I don't want to disclose. It started off fine but I couldn't handle it after a while. Corruption, negligence and a boss that just doesn't give a shit about you. Drama, picking sides and a terrible leadership. It was like dealing with adult kids after a while.
I felt like I was wronged. And I'd say I was, though to some fault of my own. And I got some scars from it that keeps coming back from time to time when I get reminded of it. Either it's just blind rage or crippling insecurity and fear. Can't imagine how anyone would want to work in a "close knit" community like that after. If I ever were to work anywhere it would be either alone or in a large community.
Elijah Rogers
Dominic Hernandez
Have you considered medications?