I just took my first shower after 3 years of being homeless...

I just took my first shower after 3 years of being homeless. I just sat under the water and balled like an infant for 20 minutes straight. I had to shave all my hair off. I bought a trailer in a trailer park for $500. I'm washing all 4 clothing items I own, well drying them in a drier. I'm laying naked on a mattress on the floor. It's so quiet. No random screaming. No police presence... Fuck I can't sleep. But man I've never felt so good. How's everyone else's Monday mornings going?

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Nice. A shower is the best.

Me? Not so good. Still lonely, still a loser. Took sick leave today despite having good bosses and a good job with fair wage, just to fap twice in the morning. I don’t know why I’m such an asshole. Probably busted my sick leave quota this year already. Thing is I even got promoted and a 10% raise recently.

I’m also constantly sabotaging myself - bad diet, frequently visiting hookers and going for happy endings, not exercising, not giving my all in my job and not carefully planning my financials despite being 30 already. Not bothering to improve myself so that I can get a date.

I hate myself so god damn fucking much.

Good for you tho. At least someone on this degenerate board is having a nice day.

Check your sugar you might be diabetic. Start by eating better and making positive choices in life. The more you make good choices and start living for yourself and others, the better you'll feel overall. I was in this rut feeling sorry for myself. I just went and applied for a job and at the church for help. They found me this place. I had the money in my bank account, that I would use for food but they gave me food. I'm going to get clothes tomorrow. I had the power turned on in my name. I've never been so thankful for anything in my life. I mean yes my bank account is empty now but I have a job lined up on the 8th. No matter how bad life seems, it can always be worse in every way. Being homeless made me unbelievably sick all the time. I was on antibiotics constantly. My teeth started falling out. We're not meant to live outside.

Glad to hear it user. In a similar but inverted position. Had to walk home from work in the rain (thankfully with an umbrella, got out a bit before midnight), and I kept resenting the world/universe/god for making me poor. Smoking now, feel a bit better but my mood is just shit in general. I'd give a hell of a lot, and I mean a hell of a lot (besides actually trying cause I'm a lazy mental-illness-riddled piece of shit) to be rich. How are your mornings going? Hopefully better than mine kek.

I'm 31 and I kind of wish I wasn't engaged, for gods sake man go out and get some pussy for me. Fire up tinder, it's easy. Dates and meeting new people is fun go do it and get laid

It's been so dry and hot here in NY state. I'm just glad I don't have to stuff my clothes with newspaper and sleep in the snow for yet another winter. Everyone has mental illness these days. Try being homeless. It'll put life into perspective really fast. You need to learn to be thankful and stop thinking the world owes you anything. You don't have a mental illness, you have a self pity party going on because you were handed rewards for showing up to school. You didn't have to do anything to earn it so nothing has value to you. As the bible says, you need to count the cost and count your blessings and focus on the good instead of the negative all the time.

The Bible is for useless sad sap fucking idiots man. Get a personal philosophy to guide your life not a mad man's extremely flawed ravings from thousands of years ago

Where tf did you find a trailer for 500 dollar?

Also I'm happy for you, really. I hope this positive momentum continues building for you.

This. I briefly looked into Christianity because I do like the idea of having some positive guiding principles, but quickly realised that there is just too much bullshit for retards.

Try looking into stoicism instead, GOAT philosophy for these trying times we live in. Practicing it has greatly benefitted my mental health.

It needs a lot of work. I might take pictures of all the damage and upload it here if anyone's interested. I got a free 80" tv with it. And a couch. The couple broke up. He just wanted to be out from under it. Instead of changing the faucet he let it rot, and instead of changing the bath tub, they duck taped it. I'm going to fix it up. I got a free bathtub on Facebook. It can't be hard to replace. I have some people who are going to help me. It's like the moment I stopped feeling sorry for myself and started to live, things just started to happen. I had to change my attitude first though. It started with me.
Tell me, how happy are you?

Amazing if true. Great stuff.

I cant sleep. Were having our first child (on purpose. Yup people still do that). Woman and I are well established, in our 30s, mature, ready, the pregnancy is going well.

But I am absolutely mulling finances. Something tipped me off the other day and caused me to deep dive, and I learned (ready for it, young adults who have jobs and live with their parents?) That as little as $500 a month into the right investments, like s&p 500, barring an apocalypse can become 1,000,000 much easier than you think. That amount for 30 years would become a million at rhe average rate of return.

Anyway, we can afford that with what we got, more even. So basically trying to figure out how to become a millionaire in 20 years through the investment route so that my kids covered for life for unforeseen bullshit.
I have done extremely well for myself but I was so.fucking delayed getting here by lifes stupid random bullshit, and a few times almost even ended up homeless myself. Ive spent a few cold nights in my car for sure.

My child as long as they put in honest effort and show responsibility will never deal with that shit. Fuck em if they do drugs unless its for rehab or job training, but if theyre doing it right, chaos wont be a problem.

Im not worried about drugs n shit anyway, apparently that stuff is big part genetic and temperament and there is no drug abuse in my family really. Were high functioning alcoholics for sure but other than that were high achieving individuals so hopefully that holds some weight.

Anyway, just ranting because im bored and csnt sleep. Congrats.
Young working anons, get a financial advisor and start saving and investing. You dont have to be an economist there are firms for this.. I wish i knew this long ago.

I'm pretty happy with my life but what's worse is seeing the damage Christianity and other programs have done to our society. Health Sharing Ministries and tax dodges, it's all a scam. Religion in the program running their minds and anyone who wants to just loads their own software

Good for you, man. Nothings free in this world, but it's usually worth the effort. Just keep putting that effort in and you'll continue to enjoy life more every day.

Good on you man, it's your own little spot that you have earned. You sound happy, which is the most important thing. I hope you can build it into whatever you want it to be and continue forward.

Hey im not the biggest fan of religion myself but food for thought...
The advantage of christianity isnt the guiding principals or philosphied or god shit.
Its community. Humans NEED community, and nothing like Church provides such community. What Im.saying is dont focus so much on philosophy or beliefs by digging through philosphy books. You want the belonging and to feel in the right place.
By all means educate yourself, but youre not gonna find that in a philosophy book. Thats not where christians get their joy. Its from each other.

Religion preys on that need for community, that's its power. Just find a hobby with cool people, church people are weird and someone is always using the situation to do something fucked up, always. That's also unfortunately human nature

I'm 38. I was buying a house, rent to own. The roof caved in and the town of Corning ny forced me out. I was trying to move my stuff out that got destroyed, I was calling roofing places. Someone tipped them off, they came by and said I am not allowed to live there and I can't even go back in to get my stuff out. The sheriff let me get a few things. I lost my job because I no longer had an address. One day turned into a week of trying to rent, but with no job, nobody wanted to rent to me. That week turned into a month, then winter hit. I lived in a tent in the woods. It was fine until it got really cold. No amount of blankets will keep that kind of cold out. Everything got wet and molded. Got kicked out of a homeless shelter before even getting in because I didn't have welfare, food stamps, or medical coverage. When you're 35 nobody wants to help you if you're a man. The summer was fine, I couch surfed but wore out my welcome, got another tent for that winter. I put it on plastic pallets I got for free. That helped substantially. Made due with what I had. Washed up in the creek etc. Grew food, bought what I needed. COVID hit so I stayed in the woods last winter, and this summer I decided to make my life better. You never know how quickly shit can go downhill until it happens and you're 3 winters deep wondering what to do next. It wasn't for lack of trying.

How does it feel to know you'll never amount to anything?

Currently drunk and sweating through my shirt. My apartment has AC, but I can't afford to run it. I'm being relocated at my work this week so they can reduce labor costs in my department, so a lay off is probably in store soon. Just sitting here trying not to think negatively, and to drink enough so I can get some sleep...

I never pretended to be anything special. I also don't feel the need to put others down to feel better about myself. I'm very content with what I have been given in life. You enjoy that anger? How's it make you feel? How's your memory?

Get some solar panels, a battery, and a pure sine wave inverter. 1kw inverter. 100ah redodo lifepo4 battery. 400w renogy solar kit with the mppt. Attach some brackets, hang the panels out of your windows, and use that to run your ac for free.

Good on you, man.
I've never been homeless myself, but I was never happier than the first night in my shit hole apartment after finally leaving my abusive childhood home. Nothing but sun on the horizon now. Hope the best for you

In the last 6 months, my brother got cancer, I got cancer, my brother's cancer returned and for an agonizing several months they thought he might be terminal... then my mom died.

I had surgery last November and had my second cancer screen last week, which came back clear - so right now, I'm just thanking the good Lord my ass is in one piece.

I don't smoke, never done drugs, and a very light drinker. No significant cancer history in my family either, until my brother was diagnosed.

Get your asses into see your doctor periodically, particularly after 40. Saved my life, for sure.

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No anger, just wondering what it's like. What do you live for, other than fulfilling immediate needs?