My experience being rapped (18f) I need to get this off my chest.
At first I was very excited. I was so turned on, just from being so close to him – his breath, smell and taste. I was wet - my nipples were hard – it felt like every nerve in my body was tingling. I’d never experienced such arousal before. Even so, all I wanted to do was kiss him passionately, but he put his hand up my skirt and slowly into my panties. I told him to stop. He said “but your pussy is wet?”. Yeah, so? I just said no! This wasn’t how I pictured my first time. I told him “no” again pushing against him, but he was stronger, and he pushed me hard against the wall pinning me there, kissing me. I closed my eyes and waited for him to stop. I felt him penetrate me with his fingers. I zoned out, but could hear myself, as if in the 3rd party, moaning loudly, waves of pleasure washing over me - my pussy tingled with feelings of satisfaction that until then I didn’t know I’d actually been longing for. I bucked my hips towards him. He started massaging my clit with his thumb and my legs started shaking. Even though I’d never orgasmed before, I knew right then, I was cumming and I couldn’t stop myself. I tried to stop it, but I came - for like a minute. I felt very sensitive between my legs, but he kept rubbing my clit and after a couple of minutes my knees buckled and I came again. My body reacted to my assault in a way my mind could never have imagined. My mouth and mind were saying no, but my vagina was screaming yes. At my most distressed, at a time when I wanted to imagine I was someplace else, I orgasmed. He was smiling when I opened my eyes believing my orgasms proved to him that I really did want him, despite me saying no and pushing him away — that it wasn’t an assault. “You liked that” he said. I guess I believed him. It’s hard to believe, but I actually put my arms around him. I kissed him. I felt pathetic and useless throughout the ordeal. I hated him.
