Hey guys do you also sometimes feel like crying but you don't because you're alone and it doesn't make sense because...

I know that you are right, but how can I translate that into feeling happy about being a normal person? At the moment an abusive relationship is the model that was shown to me, and that's what I subconsciously associate with happiness.

I guess I am going to die all alone then, because I can't see myself ever being enough of a senseless brute to go through with abusing another man or anyone really.

>how can I translate that into feeling happy about being a normal person?
Don't take advice from a self-proclaimed broken person, but your validation must come from within. I understand your desire to have people affirm your worth but we both know opening yourself up quickly is a fast way to ruin and repeating the cycle.
It's really difficult to affirm yourself when you know the worst things about yourself. Part of our journey in life really is exploring ourselves through others, if we become isolated for too long without social interaction then it becomes easy to be manipulated/seduced by our own devils.
Unfortunately, the way to recover yourself mentally is to put in the effort on yourself and give yourself a reason to be validated. What is your hobby? What interests you? Do you have a topic that you're deeply interested in that you could talk about for hours?

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>because I can't see myself ever being enough of a senseless brute to go through with abusing another man or anyone really.
Do not define relationships by this. Life sucks. Life inherently sucks and a good portion of us just want someone to have our backs

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Fuck love feet...That being said I get it. Dude you need to put yourself out there I am sure you are totally worth it and someone will like you for you. We all feel inferior all the time.

You're right. Still. It's hard to trick myself into getting up out from bed in the morning. Also getting harder and harder to see myself being that "special someone" in another man's life and I don't see why any man would want to be with me when there are bigger, tougher and stronger men out there.

crying makes sense especially when you are alone it's not about showing off but about your deepest feelings and emotions

Well I'm a man so I don't cry from sadness, fear or pain. I may cry from laughter, joy or seeing someone who deserves it succeeds at something meaningful to them, which I guess is just being proud of them.

That's gay as fuck dude

why?

My deepest feeling and emotion is that you're a gay bitch and your dad is disappointed in you, should I cry now?

where does this stereotype come from that men are not allowed to cry? it deprives us of our emotions

Whenever I do get to the point of crying, I try to make it as quiet as I possibly can so no one else has to be disturbed or annoyed by hearing me, simply because I don't want anyone to know that I am doing something so deeply unmasculine, selfish and shameful.

ouch

I'm not gay, op is gay as I understood (I don't mind) you should cry because you've cut half of your being away by neglecting emotions

I literally just listed occasions it's acceptable for a man to cry. Are you fucking dense?

it's just a simple expression of emotion there's nothing to be ashamed about

So according to your mentally ill ass I should spend a decent chunk of my time wallowing in sadness and self-pity. Jesus Christ you're fucked in the head man

you've listed your acceptable reasons to cry, don't speak on behalf of all men

I feel like you see yourself as an "amateur" in a world of "professionals." People are amateurs too, surely there is a man who will love you as you are even though you should put the effort to develop yourself each day so you can be the best version of yourself. Just as said, you do need to put yourself out there and engage with a group of people that share your hobby/interest. I found my ex this way by writing porn, I'm sure you can find someone by picking up an interesting/fun hobby and going to a group full of like minded people.
Being alone, it's easy to think of ourselves as the worst person to exist. As long as we have only ourselves and no one around as reference to help us "balance" ourselves we're only going to define ourselves by the parts of us that we don't forgive even though there are people with worse traits

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If you cry for any other reason you weren't raised a man and you're emotionally unbalanced

I didn't say anything like this

If only that were true. And on a related note: as someone who is not proud in the slightest of being burdened with having emotions, I wish I could just get rid of them all forever.

and again it's only your personal opinion

No it's factual opinion. You are a gay man

You literally did. Are you an idiot?

He never said that, you need to learn to release your emotions. Either it will come out or shorten your lifespan user. That's a big reason why guys die earlier than women (That and we do really stupid shit.) That being said I have been emotionally stunted since childhood and still have a very hard time crying..So idk.

according to this conclusion you are stupid

I don't see you denying being a faggot

None of that is true you new age pseudo science believing moron. Also the fag straight up said that by not being sad I was removing half of my being, the means the prick is saying I should be a little bitch like himself

Even when I feebly attempt in vain to try picturing the "best" version of myself... all I see is an empty void. In my mental image, nothing is there except pitch black darkness. I guess that means I will always see myself as unsalvageable and deeply undeserving of the passion and affections of another man. Even if I put in the time and effort to attain peak physical, mental and social "perfection" there will always be a firmly rooted, nagging sense of self-doubt.