>be me
>father dies
>going through father stuff
>find old xp laptop he was still using
>sadsmile.jpg
>decide to boot it up
>slow as molasses
>finally get to desktop
>XP_startup_sound.wav
>that sound
>start playing around with it
>find 3D Pinball for Windows
>immediately start playing
>get blasted with memories from my youth
>remember all the good time spent with my father
>when he would surprise me with a pack of Pokemon cards
>when he would take me to work with him and let me play with all the cool electronic tools
>when he would tell me stories to make me sleep
>when we would play card games and inevitably beat me
>when he would do magic tricks to entertain me
>when we would play crosswords during summer
>when we talked for hours about everything
>when we watched F1 together
>cry my eyes out all night
Miss you dad.
Be me
...
i'm gonna lose my damn mind when my dad dies someday
F
weakling
Went through something similar right before covid hit. I lost my old man when he was just 51. I think about him every day.
he sounds like he was a good dad, op.
thank you for sharing.
The tough is worse than the thing happening. You'll cry a lot. You'll wonder how you could go on without him. If you live with him like me, everything will remember you of his passing. Need to buy something? now you need things for 3 people, not 4. Where there was 4 chairs, now there are 3. Having to move all of your father stuff out of the way. Seeing his jacket on the coat hanger.
Then, you'll slowly go on with your new life and adapt to the change. He will live in your thoughts. When I'm doing electrical work, he's with me. When I'm fixing something, he's with me. When I'm heating something up that was fridge cold because "you can't eat it that much cold, you'll get a congestion" he's with me.
Man, 51. He was young. Must have been really hard. Sorry for your loss user.
He wasn't the best. He could have done so many things differently. But he tried, and that means a lot. He was there. We had a good relationship. For me it's more than enough.
You made it obvious that you had a great relationship with your father and he really loved you. I tried to imagine all those memories and placed my absent father in place of yours and I was kind of touched.
It will get easier by time. Take care and thanks for sharing.
Found the trans
I love you, OP.
Found the dadless
Okay, sappy shit time.
OP, it will be okay in time. Remember, he will walk beside you if you keep those memories close at your heart. In a way, if you assume his good characteristics and your fond experiences, he will be part of all the things you are going to do during your life. Take part of those warm memories and share them through your actions during your lifetime. Thus, he is not never truly gone as his attitude and spirit lives in every choice you make.
I lost my mother to liver cancer last year, in three months from diagnosis till death. It was a weird feeling and I learned, that I was so honest with my family all my life, there was nothing to add or to tell, everything was said and done. I am grateful to have such a wonderful mother, without resentment or hate, only support and belief in me. I have chosen to carry that optimism forward lift others up. It sounds like you had father, who was close to you and did all the good things in life with you. That is the true gift what he gave you....he did care. Take that experience and all the feelings what were especially meaningful to you and spread it out to the world. Maybe you touch someone during your lifetime, who lacks these happy memories.
Remember: don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened
Bring it in user.
I lost my father years ago.
It's ok, have a good cry.
This user
One day you'll be a ghost alongside him.
>Seeing his jacket on the coat hanger.
The jackets of my mom are still hanging. her scarf is still laying there how she left it... her clothes she wanted to wear the next day are still laying on that little chair... it is already 4 1/2 years ago that she died all the sudden... every day i pray for her, every day i am thinking of her, nearly every day i am crying
may your dad rest in peace user.
Ok user, it's time to move on. Make time for the living. It's ok to cry, i still cry for my mother who died suddenly, I also pray for my dad, however there is a time we have to move on.
They would prefer that. Yet don't forget them
Same thing happened to me only yesterday man. Lost mom to cancer within only a few months. It was a crazy awful time, but now that she is gone I am actually struggling to feel sadness, because she just honestly was so great that I have zero unspoken words or unfinished wishes. I'm just proud as hell to be calling her my mom, and nothing this shit world can throw at me will take that away. Love you mom, I hope I can be half as great for my own kid as you were to me.
Seriously though, do reply to those threads or it will happen to your mom as well.
Revive the dead.
Not a day goes by that I don't see something that reminds me of my dad. It's almost impossible. I've pretty much become him.
Take care and hang in there, user.
God bless you, user.
Yes, i know. but it is so damn hard... i took good care of our cats, thats what she wanted.
i know i am not alone, and you are not alone, too, OP
Found the nigger
>poor relationship with father
Oh gee i wonder what kind of person was behind this post?
Be glad you had that. Mine was a drunk and in the end indirectly blamed me for it. Egoistic bastard, I hope I don't have to go near him anymore.