Time flies so fast, since all i do is jack off and browse the net

time flies so fast, since all i do is jack off and browse the net

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Same Satan. Same. I started drinking and tried weed when I was 16. I'm 39 now and I don't know what happened. Still sitting here gettin drunk and high. On a work night.

what's your job bronon?

kek this is me almost 30 now fuck my life dude why does life have to be like this for some of us, why the fuck is it so easy for some people to just swim through life without depression, nihilistic and existential dread
i want off this gay ride and earth, but im also too much of a pussy to kms wish i was never born

It's basically glorified admin. Like admin stuff, but also some high stress shti with the phone going off all the time. It's stressful as fuck and pretty dead end, but I'm good at what I do and it pays more than a basic admin job. ANd being unskilled and autistic it's pretty much as good as I can hope to get really.

>i want off this gay ride and earth, but im also too much of a pussy to kms wish i was never born
Exactly the same user. I think it's autism for me. I just don't seem to belong here.

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who knows what it even is anymore
right now im getting those existential dread thoughts, you know like no one exists, it's all an illusion, which makes me feel extremely depressed, one rational part of my brain says it's basically true necessarily, another part tells to kill myself, another part tells me things do exist and people are real but it doesnt matter because it's all meaningless
just fucking kill me pls end my misery

> admin / autism / dead end
Damn, this sounds like me.
Except my job is probably not as stressful, or as well paid.
It's the deadest of dead fucking ends though.

hah i'm here getting drunk on a work day aswell and feeling just like y'all.

I wish to just die in sleep to some natural cause

Yep. I see things on TV or hear about kids with cancer. Or the kids who just got shot in America. And I think to myself "why couldn't that be me?" If there was a god or any justice, why would a waste of skin like me get to live a long and unfulfilling life while some kid who wants and deserves a wholesome, fulfilling life not get to life it but for some cruel twiat of fate. If I could trade places with any of them I would. I don't remember being happy since I was about 11 years old.

life sucks, then you die
life is suffering, with some fleeting moments of happiness and joy, but ultimately it ends forever with nothingness, in a way i can't wait for that bittersweet release either

if there's a god he's a cruel asshole and a prankster, whether it's the kids with cancer, or forcing someone to endure an existence that feels completely unreal and lonely, in darkness, just anguish and suffering all around, worse making it so people have such a strong desire to reproduce, forcing them to multiply and spread the misery
god i fucking hate life

this is why we just kill the time by getting fucked up. hedonism s the only way

It's a shitty life, in a shitty world, surrounded by shitty people. I hate every second.

start trippin

never met a depressed person who used mushrooms or dmt frequently tho id start with like dropping acid and then like a few weeks later trying it again and then start using mushrooms if you've never used shrooms

yeah it's why i do too, user, for me it's not drugs at much, but i'm an addict too, we all are, just distracting ourselves from the inevitable
im basically just an internet addict looking for my dopamine hits, sometimes video games, sometimes a laugh, sometimes family or friends, it's never enough, i've done some drugs, alcohol, etc. before, but i realized at least i can live a mildly healthy life and find some healthier sources of hedonism, not because i care about the meaninglessness of it all, but i just basically dont want to be in physical or mental pain for the rest of my life, since the drugs wont cover the mental anguish i already have, taking them only adds to it, so i mostly just try to stay sober hoping it all goes by faster, it sucks that what will be nothing in the measure of eternity feels like eternity to us at times me too :(

try phycedelics

try shrooms

already have, over 10 times, doesnt help
some of just arent right for this world, no amount of drugs fix or mask it either

idk you guys recommending psychedelics now and all that gave me on my already miserable life was a psychosis and bad trips

thanks drugs

I've done acid and shrooms a few times. I'v never had the awakenings or enlightenment people so often speak of.

At least you got trips

some drugs are good some are bad try to learn something different or have some divine moments of truth if ya catch my drift just stay away from opioids and for the most part stimulants

don't use them everyday that will just give psychosis and don't trip in high stress environments(except for dmt and salvia just make sure you're in your bed or another place where you can't hurt yourself by slumping down or laying down