Yeah to be fair I got a very mild case of HPV due to too much sleeping around which has since gone away and I also went and got vaccinated for that shit. STIs are fucking disgusting. Herpes I have managed to avoid but is fucking disgusting and apparently never goes away and you can even get it with a condom on. I guess it's better to just have less partners that are more regular rather than a new girl every other week.
What is it like to be an incel?
Cant really say I am full blown incel because I had women into me at one point. Yes, even me. I won't say I am the ugliest guy around but definitely not turning any heads, I am not a model, just a 4.
I was very insecure, anxious, nervous, sad, etc. I was immature, egotistical, selfish, still am to this day but want to change and just acheive inner peace.
At this point, I dont even want pussy, sure it would be nice, I have paid for it, I just want to be sure of myself. Not arrogant, cocky, or pretentious, just peaceful, and a changed man.
I am not ready for a relationship, even if I was it seems to me like unnecessary drama and problems that could otherwise be avoided almost entirely. I know I must be retarded in some way, socially I definitely am. Make of that what you will.
I also think that if you get tested that they cant tell you if you have herpes or not, so you could get someone tested and still catch it.
Nah, in fact, what you described is normal. You need an ego death. Try shrooms with a trip sitter.