Confession thread, I don't know what to do with this knowledge and I can't afford an actual therapist so I want Any Forums to help me cope.
Basically I have 3 sisters, when we grew into our intimate phases I slept with all 3 of them. keep in mind I was 12. The other 3 were 11, 13 and 15. Its something that has deeply affected my life and I can't get into normal relationships, I can't even bring myself to get hard with anything except you know porn.
I feel kinda fucked up and thought about killing myself for taking advantage of family members, but thats not the worse part.
The worse part is I was also molested by my dad, who was secretly gay despite fathering 4 children. He had come into my room to smack semen on my face while I was sleeping and blamed it on random shit like "you played to many video games today, you didn't take out the trash, your grades are dropping" and the furthest he went was slapping his dick on my ass instead of a regular woopin for breaking his Plasma TV.
Obviously I have moved out now, but i live alone and don't talk to anyone. I regularly browse here and I want your thoughts.
you confessed, you got it of your chest. now rest easy user. Repent and Forgive yourself and carry on. Do not think of the past any longer because it will cause you depression. Let go of that ball and chain and try to better yourself. Yeah this wasn’t your ideal therapy but you gotta let go man, and move forward.
William Clark
Man, It doesn't matter what you did in the past or what was done to you. Now every single day you have chance to change your life for better future; plant the seed of better you in the future right now. Don't try to change all of the things at once because it will overwhelm you. Small steps and i hope things will get better to you. Just let it go.
James Butler
That sounds bad. I think those kind of monsters go into ETERNAL HELL.......
Your dad probably also molested your sisters. Nighty night
Jose White
It's alright user. At least you get to live in the greatest era of the world. Just think of all the opportunity you have and all you have accomplished thus far. As inflation goes up, things will cost more, but surely you have the grounding to be able to brace that. Just focus on the home you own and you'll be okay in time.
I'm sure you can loose that weight.
Julian Parker
> slept with elaborate
Charles Flores
I'm also not doing well.
I'm suicidal for other reasons.
My mom threw away my panty collection.
I know it sounds stupid. But it was 10 years worth. I kept it at her place because it was my most prized possession and I was between places.
Dubs confirmed. user needs to recinect with them and do pic related.
Logan Taylor
user I would know, what part of him being secretly gay do you not understand?
He also didn't delete the gay porn off his computer and had a huge fight with my mom over it. They divorced but that was 15 years ago. I want to do something with my life before I go. I have a vacation planned to go to Hawaii and going to college this year.
Shit weights heavy on my mind, but suicide is the last choice ( lol ) i would like to make
Dominic Lewis
I had sex with them in threesomes, sometimes dous and sometimes by themselves for 3 or so months before they decided it was fucked up.
Im a bit sped so i didn't see anything wrong with it until my later teens and now I pray to god they forgot.
I don't know, I wouldn't be able to get over the fact I molested my siblings just like my father did to me doing irreversible damage. This is in response to you answering my question of why haven't you killed yourself btw
Jonathan King
dude that all sounds fake. like who would walk in just to slap a dick on some kids ass...like thats only a thing in some fags wet dreams!
I was molested by my mother from the time I was an infant. Some of my first memories are getting a hand-job in the bath tub as part of a game my mother called "Got Your Dickybird."
My advice is to keep all of this to yourself. I'm middle aged and my mother is safely dead. I kept her secret for my whole life. The few times I revealed what had happened to me to people, I started being treated very differently. For example, I once admitted it to a social worker and he always acted like I was a fragile China doll who might shatter if he said the wrong thing from that point onward. You could tell by his pitying expression that all he could think about whenever he saw me is the fact that my mother molested me.
People will try to convince you to "do the right thing" or that you need to "live in your personal truth" or whatever dumb phrase is currently in vogue. Unless you enjoy creating massive drama and ruining not just your life but the rest of your family's, keep it to yourself and learn how to accept the world's imperfections.
