Help me kill myself

For how long? Did something trigger it, like a _really_ bad argument, getting fired from a job you needed, and so on?

trust me, it does
if you wanna die bad enough, just fucking wait it out and die if whatever kills you
in the mean time utilize your strength and discharge it: make the world your oyster as God intended for all red-blooded humans like us all. if that means dying in a fucking forest with nothing but a thick skull and a machete, I wouldn't burn all your matches on the first day.

get engorged and cut your dick off.
>balls and all.
>big knife

>livestream it
>you won't, pussy

>no: the cock and balls are what make men, and testosterone is what has built this entire world by fucking whores and keeping them inside

since i was 12.
had no real friends growing up
spent my life alone
25 neet with no life accomplishments, got diagnosed with schizo and social anxiety and I can hardly get up to shower in the morning.
I feel bad.
not meme feelings, i mean like my brain chemicals are messed up because I feel like shit 99% of the day.
Im trying one more medication and if that doesnt work then its gg for me.

Fuck that, Jack off and go to bed bro

If I am being honest? Keep trying. Just a little bit more.
You have until 30. If it doesn't work by then, kill yourself. I'll fucking do it for you, if you want.
Until then, please try. I know what you're feeling. I'm crying right now, feeling the same feelings, you're not aloned. I unloaded my AR-15 yesterday that I normally keep next to my desk and treat like a baby (firearms are one of my biggest hobbies). That was fucking huge for me - I had to unload it, so I wouldn't pick it up in an instant and just shoot myself.

you need pot, like a little of some good shit tbh
t. sperg
aspergers and schizo are related, and are sometimes treatable with pot, unless you're schizo because of that
most medications don't react with the same way you need to interact with the world
stop not taking your real meds
if you don't want to smoke pot, you can make brownies or decarbonate the flowers and eat them plain, too; just open a window while cooking.

>decarbonate
wrong fucking compound
decarboxylate*
I've never done it but have read quite a lot about the chemistry

sounds exactly like me
except im 32 now with no accomplishments and major mental issues that i never got checked out
going to be an heroing tonight with a extension cord
i wnat to say give it some time cause around my late 20s things got a little better
do you live with your parents or roommates?

Above user telling OP to not kill himself. You can vaporize cannabis in a dry herb vape - and then, you can use the flower that's left to make edibles. You ultimately get more THC, CBC and the other minor cannabinoids.

live with mom

nitrous oxide perhaps? or hanging but to hang yourself right you need to tie a proper noose, knot must be to the side of your head not behind, and then drop a distance roughly equal to your height, not enough drop and the noose will just choke you, too much drop can rip your head off which of you die you should have some dignity. a proper hanging with break the neck and youll die immediately. or dont kill yourself because everyone has problems in their lives but arent such pussies as to kill themselves but rather to deal with them

There's a large number of fags on Any Forums who've reported back through years that smoking pot is usually what kept them from ending it all in high school or college
tbh sometimes, nonetheless it's a weirdly useful substance that makes days a lot brighter, just don't pot out and ignore your problems though

post mom feet

is she causing you issues?

I've gotten "high" once in the last few weeks since this depression has kicked in. Otherwise, it's been weak stuff (small tincture, or CBD flower with some distillate), just to calm me down and stop hyperventilating.

Don't use drugs while depressed, for pleasure.
Use them medicinally in a proper capacity.

It's incredibly fucking hard to follow through with that, but if you use drugs as a coping mechanism rather than as a medicine... you'll be fucked. The drugs go _along with_ a healthy coping mechanism.

To hell with heroin, helium and all that jive talking. You've got to go on a vision quest.

>The drugs go _along with_ a healthy coping mechanism.
now you get it
one that has helped me is describing my depression is that I live with it, not that it's something I have. perspective can ease the load from your out-of-pocket, so to speak.
some days are good
some days are bad
if you don't have a job you enjoy, just find the shittiest one and grind your way to the top
>they don't call them "bosses" for a reason

Yep. I decided to get high on the day I was feeling nice and not depressed. Not only elevates that day, but associates being high with happy times.
I hope I never reach a point where I feel like my choice is to either abuse substances to cope, or killing myself. I really do.

Fentanyl

You should time travel to the future where the atmosphere has burnt off and the earth is dead. You wouldn't last long if you did that.

Not op
But I want to stop these thoughts, they always come back, I'm starting to doubt if I want to or not