I can't take it anymore. Been off oxys for a few months but it's like everyone has their thing. My friends are all drinking or smoking weed over Discord as we play games. My ex dumped me months ago and started smoking half her body weight in weed instead of working things out.
Why is it so hard to be sober? I'm not surrounded by anyone who isn't a stoner, or alcoholic. I'm really trying to fight it tonight but if everyone else escapes their pain, why do we choose to sit in it fellow sober anons? Weed doesn't suite me and I'm staying away from alcohol with how much I overdid it weeks ago. Maybe this break up's just got me fucked up.
Give me some advice, tell me to off myself; I don't care. Just be genuine for us bros in a rut.
I'm quitting alcohol and weed with prescription stims, they keep me happy and aroused so all cravings go away
Jonathan Gonzalez
sup, 3 days ago I stopped smoking cold turkey, I still feel loss of appetite but it'll recover soon.
James Baker
Almost a year sober
Hunter Jenkins
Be thankful, I'm off them after two years but nor by choice. Just can't find another fucking plug.
Michael Hall
Prescription drugs NEVER end well. You will be much, much worse off quitting them a year or 2 from now than you ever would be quitting whatever bs ur talking about
Aiden Gutierrez
find new friends loser. just ditch everyone if you want your life to be better.
Thomas Ross
From the tone of your post it sounds like you are approximately college aged, 18-22. That's the age of partying and getting fucked up but it tapers off after that as people get real responsibilities. >Are you going 100% sober no drinking? >what is your opinion on the 12 steps etc >Did you get arrested
Liam Butler
Go to a meeting. I have 15 months off of a nasal problem. Before that was a tar star. I wait everyday till like 5pm and have a couple beers. never daytime drinking. Find a new crew. Get away from the drugies or you will relapse.
James Allen
My drugs are neuroprotective nootropics
>300mg Fluvoxamine - sigma 1 agonist and SSRI (protects against Parkinson's, Alzheimer's, multiple schlerosis and covid) it increases neurogenesis and decreases rumination
>4mg brexpiprazole - pic related (reduces stims tolerance via a2c blockade, a1 adrenergic and dopamine receptor upregulation) also increases neurogenesis
Nicotine gum, 70mg ritalin and 250mg Armodafinil - psychostimulants (increases wakefulness, arousal and elimimates depression from drug withdrawal)
Hey man your post killed my boner so I feel like we have some kind of connection . Well done for staying sober for so long most don't get that far, keep on it. Oxys will ruin you more than anything you're currently going through, you've gotta deal with you're s/o leaving and move on otherwise you'll be stuck in this rutt king.
Gabriel Peterson
26, everyone is a college graduate or dropout all working from home.
I was way hooked on oxys in college that's why I take em "responsibly" now. Lower dosage and only every now and then. I've been trying to stay off em but since my break up it's been so hard.
No arrests or criminal record
Man it was no problem until my girl dumped me. I always thought people who fall for women were fags until I became a fag myself. Fuck is my life.
Michael Sanders
The rehabs and shills push those anti-depressant meds with the SSRI onto everyone. Skeptical to say the least.
Samuel Campbell
I just can't seem to stay sober. It's pathological. Theres always alcohol, then benzos, class a like coke and crack, meth, acid, prescription drugs. I often wonder what the fuck is wrong with me. It's like another side of me takes over and buys all this stuff and then once I have it I feel guilty but consume whatever it is anyway, say I won't do it again and next thing I know I'm at it again. It's not just the drugs etx , it's the double life, the lying, the fakeness, the delusion and the weakness. I feel very alone and my days are miserable and all I look forward to is getting high somehow and going to bed for as long as possible. It's sad, im pathetic but I'm sure the drugs etc are a symptom of something very wrong in my life. Until I can identify that i just dont see an end to this cycle, this waste of life, time, money... Everything. Just a massive waste that achieves nothing and threatens to, and often succeeds, in ruining everything.
Jackson Perez
SSRIs aren't for everyone, I find on their own (without a psychostimulant) they cause sexual dysfuncion, apathy, fatigue and anhedonia.
Luis Williams
I've been sober for like 18 hours OP. The longest I've managed in the past 5 years or so has been 3 days on my own, a couple weeks if I'm forced into it like when I go visit my parents for the holidays (they don't allow alcohol in the house).
I just get so fucking bored sober. Video games suck, TV/movies suck, when I do outdoor activities I get pretty agitated - at least when I'm at home, I can coast through the day knowing the liquor is right there in the freezer if I need it, but when I'm out it's harder.
Ethan Jones
This is just today's selection. Meth, crack and 10mg diazepam I don't know what to do with myself
>I was way hooked on oxys in college that's why I take em "responsibly" now. Lower dosage and only every now and then. I've been trying to stay off em but since my break up it's been so hard. Best of luck with that bro. It's hard to manage this sort of thing "responsibly". Not to mention the expense of the hobby. >be me >be law student under pressure >started doing blues and had a sort of friend i did them w >I become middle man for this friend and he's buying like 200x twice a month and im marking it up >my habit grows exponentially and i become hooked on >snorting like 300-360 mg oxy a day on top of partying, smoking weed, doing molly with my GF >due to large amount of oxy consumption, had to take cialis to counteract side effect >oxy dealer is now also my cialis dealer
Hunter Ross
>It's like another side of me takes over and buys all this stuff and then once I have it I feel guilty but consume whatever it is anyway, say I won't do it again and next thing I know I'm at it again
this is me. Not the hard drugs/pills though, just alcohol. Almost every morning I wake up firmly resolved that I don't want to wake up like this anymore and I'm done drinking. Sometimes I even dump what I have left down the sink to start the day.
But inevitably, I start working and getting stressed out (the hangover plays a big role in that tbh) and next thing I know I'm either out to the liquor store on lunch break or placing a drizly order.
I think drizly was actually what made things so much worse for me. Before, there were days where I was just too hung over to safely drive or go out in public without fear of vomiting or passing out. Now I can get any liquor I want right to my door within half an hour. They're pretty predatory though, always spamming you with ads every couple days. Like I just ordered 3.5L of liquor from you guys, stop telling me it's time to order again after 48 hours.
Jason Phillips
>Meth, crack Nigger Drugs >Until I can identify that i just dont see an end to this cycle, this waste of life, time, Yeah man until you pay high enough costs you're going to stay on this trajectory. So far you haven't had to face severe enough consequences to try and change your behavior.
>Yeah man until you pay high enough costs you're going to stay on this trajectory. So far you haven't had to face severe enough consequences to try and change your behavior.
Yeah, it's rough when you face no consequences. I mean, I guess my deteriorating health is a consequence, but not one I really care about. Like sometimes friends (when I still had them) would tell me I'm taking years off of my life expectancy, but all I feel in my mind is "good".
At work no matter how bad I get I just keep getting promoted and raises. I think getting fired for it might be the only thing that works, but I'd be so fucked if I lost my income (40k+ in high interest credit card debt and my parents aren't open to me moving back in even temporarily)
Kayden Wood
Yes i know, it's bad. I think I've paid a high cost but it can definately get worse. I need to sort something out, not sure I can do it in my own. Thsnks for the truths user.
Anthony Adams
Well you have the foresight to see the potential hazards ahead but whether you do anything about it is the real question. Perhaps it might take being forced to go to rehab or some other shit happening for you to stop. But it doesn't have to get to that. I tried doing the 12 step AA shit for years and I found it to be torturous. I eventually found a very good addiction medicine psychiatrist and got onto buprenorphine / suboxone and it literally changed my life and turned me back into a 95% normal sort of person. >The "recovery community" / 12 step groups are so opposed to suboxone that I was legit brain washed against trying it in spite of the reason that AA did not work for me >AA LOGIC: >You go to AA and stay sober. AA is a wonderful program keeping you sober. See the Steps really work! >You go to AA and relapse. AA is not to blame. user wasn't working a strong program. If only he worked a better program and went to more meetings
Ian Barnes
have you tried not being a faggot
Lucas Cox
I paid close to the ultimate cost for my addiction to blues. I did not pay the ultimate price because I am still here today to tell the story but I was on the precipice of greatness in all facets of life and in a split second, I was set back careerwise, socially, money, everything. I had to pick between a loving GF and my family. I chose my family but it took 5 years to rebeuild the relationship.
Sebastian Barnes
First thing to do is to identify the problem and tell yourself you want to fix it and get better. In the early stages of recovery it's important to avoid the shame aspect because that has a multiplier effect where you just keep feeling shittier and shittier.
