Hi Any Forums, I never understood why men opt to be castrated or mutilate their cock. Or even CBT

Hi Any Forums, I never understood why men opt to be castrated or mutilate their cock. Or even CBT.
I recently have been considering FGM (Female Genitalia Mutilation) / Female Circumcision and think I finally understand. Any anons struggle with any similar feelings?

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i find watching someone else destroy themselves to be strangely arousing but the idea of doing it to myself is a complete no-go. i think it gets its intensity from being an irreversible one-time-only thing. Someone who gets off on cutting his dick off can literally only ever experience that one time and is trading the use of his penis for the rest of his life for that one experience. As an observer, I get the vicarious thrill with none of the consequence and can repeat that vicarious experience as many times as I want (or as many times as i can find appropriate videos).

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Yeah, I don't really feel like its a sexual thing for me. I want to no longer be a sexual person at all and feel extreme sexual guilt and anger toward sex so I want to mutilate myself.
I wish

I really enjoy captioned sissy images that suggests castrating because ether doesn't deserve balls, or is encouraging.
I also sometimes imagine to be castrated with my balls in a jar, but in no way I'd like to feel the pain of it happening, it is very much better an oddly arousing fantasy for me of permanent feminization or emasculation.

Sadly many images portraying captions as such that actually fulfill this stuff is much harder to find, at least for me now.

Do you ever blur the line and test boundaries or are you okay with it being just a fantasy?

No, that's another one of those one-time-only things that would deprive me of future experiences. If you'd like to kill yourself, though, I'd be happy to watch.

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