I have brushed my teeth maybe 5 times in the last 2-3 years

Well ive already lost one tooth so im past that point.

i get physically uncomfortable when i dont shower, brush me teeth, or wash my face

I get physically uncomfortable at the thought of polishing a turd so i dont bother

Yeah but it can get way worse. Really just take care of yourself just to avoid extra avoidable suffering in the future.

Got any black yet? Kinda looks like you got some. You can save some before that I think.

You forgot all the drugs and alcohol you did.

Of course i know. I just dont care. My therapist already says all the right things and points out the obvious, no offence intended. I cant even keep steady appointments with him because its just pointless and the advice is starting to just piss me off because i hear it so much but i fail to register it. This is just one of a mountain of health issues ive been ignoring for years. Ive made peace with the fact i will be a suicide. I live life on auto pilot, a lot more numb than i used to be. Whatever happens happens and when it actually becomes too much will be my day.

Bad but not nearly as bad as I expected.

The one that rotted, the one next to it, and a few other. I dont look at them tbh but i can feel them getting fucked up with my tongue.

Alcohol, cigs, weed. But yea fair enough.

Me neither really, even i thought i would be close to toothless by now, but ive only lost one. I expect it rams up quickly though once it gets bad. Plus i cant even show you all the damage, thats just the front part man.