I dont like to use my fingers

i dont like to use my fingers when masturbating. i have never came before. i have vaginismus. i think i have a normal sex drive and this is a living nightmare.

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Have you tried using a single finger?
How about some one else's fingers?

no i havent and no i havent. i would a guy touching me there and trying to but i would have to tell him about my problems which seems impossible,

Just buy a tiny sex toy "baby's first dildo" or whatever the fuck.
You're using lube, right?

So you can't put in a single finger?
I was gonna say you could maybe find a guy with a pencil dick but smaller than a finger doesn't exist to me knowledge.
But I'm sure you can find someone who will be okay with other means of pleasure.
Btw, does vaginismus mean you also don't loosen up when aroused? Cause as far as I heard thats how its supposed to work.

i live with my parents without a job so i cant buy a babys first dildo or lube at the moment

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sharpie+butter?

no i cant. i hope one day i can fit a pencil dick in but its not looking good for me. im unsure about how vaginismus works to be completely honest. my assumption based on what my body does is we still loosen up but theres still a mental block.

thanks for the advice. maybe lotion like guys do will help.

Is there any chance you were circumcised/infibulated when very young?
Does your pussy look like the ones in closeup porn?

So does the mental block prevent you from enjoying penetration or is it just painful to force something in?
Do you get wet when masturbating?

I wouldn't put that in your vagina. It could have some adverse effects. I think most lube is especially made to not interfere too much with the natural vaginal bacteria and such. Lotion might fuck that up and make you susceptible to infection.

Sounds like it's usually caused by fear or anxiety. Does penetration scare you? Or have you been assaulted before?

i want to dick you in the butt while fingering your puss

>i have never came before
What? Rub your clit, you stupid foid.

i really dont think so. my pussy is an innie but it most likely doesnt look like porn. i only watched porn with normal vaginas desu.

i get very wet. i am just very scared to penetrate myself and cant get my finger into me.

oh ok thank you sm for telling me

yes it does scare me but ive never been assaulted

Ok so you physically could put a finger in but you're too scared to do so?

i know its just weird

i dont think i can. i tried and couldnt. i am very scared to go harder though.

It might be that what's blocking you is the hymen. Afaik a lot of girls are in a bit of pain the first time, but eventually that passes. Is your vaginismus a diagnosed condition of something you feel like you have?
And do you use tampons or pads?

I mean like you don't need penetration to cum. Just play with your clit.

just something i feel like i have. i only use pads.

i used to think i was normal. i just didnt want to penetrate myself but when i have sex, ill be just fine. then someone told me i probably have vaginismus and now my life is a nightmare.

somehow i cant cum. id have to jack my clit for so long to cum or something bc its not working how im doing it now. i figure penetrating myself would help.