be me >browse Any Forums for hours >read at night for hours >read in sunlight for hours repeat for days > go downstairs >"omg pixel! you look horrible, your eyebags are so swollen" - sister > o haha maybe i should put on concealer, i never do but since you say they look a bit dark > "no no its not just the color, you look physically tired" > o
why do people think it's okay to comment on people their appearance, i thought these comments would stop when i left high school teacher when i come into class >"omg pixel! you look so bad did you even sleep last night?" > no > everyone stares at me > "okay class lets proceed even during the pandemic and FUCKING ZOOM CLASSES THATS ALL I WOULD HEAR YES I DONT SLEEP FUCK YOU GUYS i would never make a comment about someones appearance like i give a fuck how people look im gonna pull all my hair out, put it in my mouth, chew, swallow and hope i choke >7 am i hate myself
why do you think its okay to post in my board you fucking attention slut? post your tits and kys already
Zachary Kelly
picrel is the artform cosmism its a russian artstyle its made as a response of the need to explore they believed a man needs to explore that is its purpose since most of it was explored there was only one option left, explore space this was made around/before the cold war
Dominic Gutierrez
i have no where else to go
when i was young i used to draw pictures of selfharm and dead people, when my father saw them he was very angry and made me swear not to become a mentally ill freak
Those dark circles under your eyes are supposed to be a predatory feature designed to block out the sun kinda like sunglasses
Ryan Powell
>i have no where else to go >used to draw pictures of selfharm and dead people perhaps an asylum
Owen Reyes
>i have no where else to go perhaps r*ddit or just stop being a fucking attention fag
Gavin Moore
when my mom found out about my favorite romance she confided in my sister saying she thought i was very mentally ill for liking that movie and haven seen it so many times she said i act like harley quinn and shes embarressed to walk next to me she hates me i know she hates me they know of my sleeping problems that i see and hear things they hate me
>or just stop being a fucking attention fag ironic coming from you gay boi
Landon Stewart
Do you like, need a friend or something?
Asher Bell
is that so? because I'm using the name field to let you know I'm saging this discord faggotry? what the fuck is the point of coming here, stay in your gay ass groomer playpens ffs
Camden Gray
i got killed in minecraft im crying i just want to feed people and give them flowers its such a beautiful app i love seeing the sunrise theres almost a sunrise i havent been somewhere where you can see the sunrise only sunset I once woke my sister up at 5am to go to the sea with me because i was suicidal im not a good sister i never asked her again
i want to get better i wanna be perfect i want to buy my dad a ferrari they promised me i wouldnt still be mentally ill when i grow up they promised they said survive and after 18 you will get over it
Getting better is a process. It doesn't happen overnight. I don't think that the people who told you that really understand how mental illness works. Are you in treatment?
Jace Gutierrez
>Are you in treatment? It's what they call "Any Forums" therapy. Deemed ineffective for most people. Commonly associated with suicide.
Colton Garcia
So this must be what its like having a daughter
Carson Gomez
why do i have to be like this no big trauma happened to me all my old friends told me they also felt depressed but when i told them they never understood their illness never lasted more than those words if they know me to be mentally ill since age 12 why wouldnt they confide too? why dont they have these thoughts too? all all in the past for them, only a season during a cold month nobody can care when they said they cared i knew they were lies they said they would care if i killed myself but what if i just decide to go to brasil for the next 10 years without any contact? would you care then? no they wouldnt because then i wouldnt be their problem id be brasils problem
Therapy is about learning the tools you need to help yourself. There aren't any cures when it comes to mental illness. Do you have a diagnosis? Lack of sleep can make it hard to keep a grip on reality, but I think it does help with depression sometimes. I don't think you should stay awake for 4 days straight though.
Oliver Jones
i once told a girl that over vacation i would try not to sleep for a whole week she was disgusted by me
i showed a therapiqt a sleep scheduale she made me made and she was in shock when i only slept 10 out of 30 days for no more than 4 hours she will never understand the whole session she was talking about herself when i asked her if future companies would know i go to therapy she talked for 15 minutes saying no she made me miss class i was 10 minutes late i felt so shitty i cried all day
But for real, why the fuck are you posting your blog on r9k
Kayden King
>But for real, why the fuck are you posting your blog on r9k Because it's fun to watch, that's the only reason she needs.
William Sanders
can i add u on discord and see what you look like?
Connor Reed
i should be perfect i almost am
i told my friends, i have all the perfect qualities for a guy they laughed and said "arent you forgetting something" and i remembered im mentally ill no guy should deal with that and i want to give this world so much good i have so much love to give
yes i filled some forms out, doctor called me something depressed and gave me a therapist he was a man i didnt like him
i always put this front old people love me parents love me my sister said i could make any guy fall for me
they say take some pills to heal but what if i dont know how to live differently? ive been like this since 12 ive grown up like this i grew up crying, suicidal, losing hair, scratching my skin open
The pills can help, but they aren't a cure. They just stabilize you so you can learn how to deal with your illness. You can still give the world a lot, mental illness makes life hard, but it's not a death sentence. I grew up in a similar way. I'm doing well now. Change is possible. You don't need to know how to live differently, you just fall into it. Did something happen to you recently?
Nathan Turner
i dont have discord
ive sent pictures before to people theyve called me beautiful
i lied here my sisters and parents always hated me i always hear them
i remember when i was 10 i used to cry and pray to god, jesus, mary, the angels to make me lovable, to change my sister so they wouldnt call me names and abuse me
my parents used to call me cinderella
my dad used to tell me to never trust someone, especially my sisters, to not give or share, to become cold
he said a few years ago he realized he fucked me up and created a monster
