Do you understand why girls dislike you and what your problem is or are you at a complete loss as to why you're alone?

>Do you understand why girls dislike you
Girls don't dislike me, I just have no interest in them anymore.

Girls never used to have romantic interest in me, but I always had female friends from age 14. Eventually I learnt to stop acting like such a cuck, not in a redpill way, like in an adult who doesn't act like a child sort of way. All of a sudden I found more girls having interest in me, actually approaching and telling me they are interested. It still honestly surprises me when it happens. For instance, I am currently traveling back to my home state, one girl I haven't seen for years heard about this and asked a mutual friend if I'd be interested in going on a date. Feels good to have something lined up. But I will be going speed dating with 2 mates when I'm back in town, I used to think speed dating was cringe and had no idea how anyone could get practical results from talking to someone for 5 minutes, but I understand now how to qualify someone in 5 minutes and honestly think speed dating is awesome because you get to meet so any girls then ask the one you like on an immediate date because you are both already out.

Anyway OP, I came to realise the reason women didn't used to be attracted to me is because I was acting immature, essentially.

>Eventually I learnt to stop acting like such a cuck, not in a redpill way, like in an adult who doesn't act like a child sort of way
What does this mean

He stopped watching his wife have sex with other men

I am ugly, short, mentally ill and with low self esteem. Not having a million dollars in my bank account and not being famous just complete the "you are a good friend user! someday you will make a girl very happy!" vibe.

I'm incapable of accepting myself to be loved and as a result I hinder anyone from ever getting close to me. I do it all the time and I always recoil whenever I find myself talking to someone for too long or someone starts to get too close. I talk to people all the time and I'm always social, and when someone approaches me and we hit it off I always end up telling em to fuck off even if I really like them.

I at one point believed it was just that I didn't like them and that I needed to find someone I myself really liked, someone I chose myself to start speaking to and dating. This didn't work out either as when I've basically got them on the hook I always end up ghosting them after a couple of months. Don't know what to do about it if I'm honest. Guess it's embedded in my brain that it is better to hurt than to be hurt and if I let them be in my life for too long it increases the risk of me getting hurt by them.

i`m boring and don`t have much to say

You have a different apostrophe though

I mean don't act like a needy little dog who begs for attention. Be cool. Anyone who walks to the beat of their own drum confidently, without being an asshole, is intriguing to other people. Be passionate, be yourself, be an inspiration to others.

Hell, one time I was sperging out about psychology in remote mines for FIFO workers and a girl approached me after ease dropping on my 40 minute autism lecture. She came on to me because she was interested in my knowledge on the subject and my passion, she actually told me that after I asked her why she was talking to me (i was drunk as fuck).

And before anyone says
>ok chad
>great looks
I had put on 10kg after recovering from surgery, I also had a scruffy beard and too long moustache that gets in your mouth when you kiss. I was also wearing a Cambodian bath robe with 80s Aussie short shorts and a dirty wife beater with a cheap boat captains hat. Presence is everything, but it has to be authentic.

oh you get that? I have all that and money AND im still the guy with leprosy in the room appearently. female friends are a pipe dream for me. congrats on getting that far user I wish I could relate

"authenticity" and "passion" are very sharply circumscribed. You have to be authentically the correct kind of person and passionate about acceptable things. Consider if you'd spent 40 minutes talking about an MMO, do you think a girl would have been interested, no matter how authentically passionate you were?

I once had a girl come over to my house, we went to hang in my room and my housemate was playing smite. I needed out cheering him on and coaching him on his builds and strats, I then turned to her and gave her proper context so it wasn't just gibberish to her. She had never played a video game in her life at that time. One week later we went on a date and she became my gf for 8 months.

You can be passionate about anything as long as it isn't the fucking KKK lunch mobs or something else retarded and antisocial. Yes you need a level of charm, but most people are charming in their own way and the main thing is not to be a combative retard that makes other people feel bad. As I said, be cool.

I'm at a loss. I socialize more easily with women than with men but I'm unable to pass the romance barrier