How many of you are like this or turning out to be like this? What personally made you become like this?

>Never hugged or told that I was loved as a child
>Every probably I ever had always became about how awful I was
>Kicked out and forced to work in the ghetto
>Get harassed by sheboons
>Get robbed
She's lucky I still talk to her at all

>feeling like a piece of shit doing nothing at all.
Interesting. Why did you feel that way? External pressures?

Not really, just the knowledge that I wasn't pulling my weight at all and only surviving off the generosity of parents while all my peers went out and lived life.

Retarded self destructive alcoholism and a no self esteem or confidence. Thank god for amphetamines desu

I'm actually a semi chad but have severe adhd. I can't focus on anything for longer than 2 minutes unless it involves large amounts of dopamine and adrenaline. It doesn't matter how much I "want" to change. There's virtually nothing I can do.

british are thugs
by the time of 24 id written 4 corporate systems
ive been beaten up 25x here i was even beaten up twice by another employee in job of people . thug beritish who call themselves 'angel investors'
the britisha re animals
whatever you do here, to try to elevate them, they will ruin. they are violent uneducated thugs, the british. liars. people with no honor. thieves.

very interesting thread keep it up

Im too afraid of change.

I didn't have sex until I was 23, that was with a 28 yr old. Since then every girl I've fucked has been younger than me, one was even a tight 19 yr old with perfect g cup tits who I was with for 2 years. Now I'm 28 and id prefer a 30+ yr old who has their shit together. People in their early 20s are dumb as fuck. Plenty of 30 yr olds look like early 20s. I think only Americans think you miracously age when you are 30. I've watched hoarders and it's insane that the parents in their 40s always look like they are 80 year old grandparents. Even the kids look really badly aged when they are only 16-20. American food standards just make you look like shit.

me too
because the pain of failure, disappointment and regret is so great, but I know I can tolerate it. Am I happy?
No. I'm insanely miserable. But it's familiar territory. I can endure it.
The possibility of moving forward and possibly confronting my demons? Realizing and acknowledging all the time I've wasted? All the people I've disappointed? No. That, I cannot do.
So for now.
For just another day, week, month.
I will continue to fap my life away

I was a coomer, uni failing, lazy fuck with a mcjob in 2017 but was actually on my way to Turning it All Around in 2018-2019 then over a year or so my life actually imploded for real

>find out I've fucked up my course progress at uni, already years late on graduating
>legs are feeling really weak often, heart starts spazzing out,start to think I'm dying, go to hospital eventually, get diagnosed with a muscle wasting gene disorder, borderline heart failure, muscles rapidly start atrophying from then on
>gf dumps me, tells me she checked out two years earlier "and I dont want to be your carer"
>starts dating her neighbour two weeks later
>coof hits, quit my mcjob because people were acting crazy/muscles too gone to work there anymore

been NEET and sexless since then, no woman is even vaguely attracted to frail weak men, literally not a single one, cant even imagine getting a job again my life is already miserable enough without being a servile wagie again, worst is it isn't even my fault now even though it was before

Literally me. 32. NEET of 13 years. I have an elaborate inner fantasy world that I withdraw into. Yesterday I spent 18 hours and 20 minutes just writing my fantasies. The stuff I write is stored in my mind and become indistinguishable from real memories.

I think I was just too sheltered and made to feel like the center of the universe growing up, so when I became an adult and had to take responsibility for my own life, it was all too overwhelming.

flippin heck lad. is that kind of thing terminal?