Molestation

One thing I don't see here talked as much as it used to be was molestation.

were you as a child molested by an adult, particularly a family member?

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I was a victim of a childhood bullying which if applied to a female would easily classify as sexual molestation.

Boys will be boys, i guess.

>were you as a child molested by an adult, particularly a family member?
Yes and yes. Not just one family member tho. but the memories are mostly repressed so I'm just miserable as fuck with no real answers.

how many was it? were they in on it together?

I think I was as I have a complete lul in my memory from the age of 8-9. I also have a great uncle that my grandmother use to tell me to be careful of because he used to be a cop in a buttfuck no where town and got let go suddenly. She said rumors were that he molested a retard kid but no charges were ever made. She didn't start warning me about him until I was like 12 though so I don't know. I also lost my virginity at 13 to a 19 year old who got me drunk.

From what I can tell most of it was from my dad's dad and my mom's brother. There was also my dad's younger brother. My mom's sister(s). My dad's grandma. My mom's dad. Probably both grandma's. And a teacher's assistant at school. Really makes me wonder if my parents also molested me. I really fucking hate them and they've always made me extremely anxious. My mom definitely groomed me tho. I know this sounds hard to believe...

>I have a complete lul in my memory from the age of 8-9
This is a major sign of repressed memories.

While I was still a kid, body and soul, I skipped a year and was relentlessly bullied on a transit vehicle and would manhandled by both girls and boys at least twice my size. Not sexual but if I was a girl it certainty would have, all it did was nurture extreme apathy and paranoia.

What kind of things. I was bullied heavily as well, but it was the verbal/psychological stuff that had the greatest impact. Most of the physical stuff didn't leave scars. I could sight some things of plausibly sexual nature, at least by the standards used with regards to women, but they didn't bother me. Most women who complain are just weak as fuck. Which is understandable. Men can't get pregnant.

Not in any way that gave me PTSD. Some women complain about being forced to hug family members when they were kids. I didn't like this either but I don't live in fear of being raped because of it either. There is this really persistent delusion among liberals that children just raise themselves and that all social maladies are caused by sexual misconduct. Commie blank slateism, that is.

I don't know if i was molested but my father is kinda weird. I'm a guy but ive seen my dad looking at my dick in the shower several times. Also one time when i accused him of staring at me he got ridiculously angry and overly defensive, even though it wasn't really an accusation or anything.

He's weird, he also slaps my ass sometimes.

I lived pretty far out in the country, the only doctor around was an old man and his younger daughter, when I was young she would have my parents leave the room and tell them she needed to do a development check, this started out with her just asking me to drop my pants and looking at my dick but over the years it turned into her sitting on a low stool, pulling down my pants for me and with no gloves grab my dick and get me hard basically semi jerk me but stop right after I got hard then examine it from just about every angle, if it started to go down she would grab it again, if pre got on her hand she would just say it's nothing to be embarrassed about then go wash it off, this apparently wasn't uncommon at all and other guys in town had it happen to them to, I always felt weird after appointments with her but I never thought anything of it til years later when they were shut down for unrelated malpractice

>What kind of things
There is this funny little trick called Molerat, it basically boils down to fingering someone's asshole through clothes as hard as possible.

A bunch of nasty guys did that to me throughout the elementary school, it was at its most discomforting whenever they used their shoes instead of hands/other objects. Your legs are much stronger than hands, so whatever you think to be a light pressure may actually be much more impactful than that.

For men standards this is pretty much nothing, but if anyone did that to female they would get thrown into a psych ward or juvenile hall

>I was a victim of a childhood bullying which if applied to a female would easily classify as sexual molestation.
After my dad dies, I found out from his journals that some older boys sodomized him with a tinker toy.
It really is disturbing how much sexual abuse there is among children. I question conventional wisdom that it can always be traced back to adult offenders molesting the perpetrators (or molesting other kids who molested other kids and so on).
I think kids can just be very creative in finding ways to be cruel.

>After my dad dies, I found out from his journals that some older boys sodomized him with a tinker toy.
That's fucking rough, i hope he got over it at some point before his death.
But yeah, kids are really cruel, and the worst part is that they don't even recognise their own evil, cause their moral compass isn't even beginning to form in the earlier ages.

What if I can't remember more than a handful of things before the age of 13 or so? I didn't realize people could just recall their childhood like that.
I grew up with a dad that was distant and I hated him without ever really having much of a principled reason why. It wasn't teenage angst. After my mom died he turned into a full-on sex pest with these old cunts he'd find at the Waffle House and shit. Even tried to engage with me about sexual topics, but I just assumed that was mid-life crisis of a desperate old man.
I hate the stupid human brain, evolved for survival. I'd be much happier knowing what really happened to me as a kid that fucked me up so much. I'm a walking corpse of a human with no life and no friends and I want an answer for why I have never felt real joy.

God. So many things you say are the same with me. From what I gather from looking into hardly any memories my entire life it's all rooted in intense traumas. I've always hated my dad and left a therapy session a couple years ago and called him up and asked him if he molested me. He said no. Then as I was trying to ask him who did he hung up on me. He won't respond to a text or phone call. Almost like he has lots to hide

I wish I had the courage to ask, that was unironically brave to do. And I'm sorry you're going through this shit with me, I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

TFW too ugly to be molested

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is it molestation if theyre only 4 years older than me

My life turned into complete shit right at the moment I realized I had repressed sexual abuse. Maybe some back and forth will bring us to the answers. Typing this is making me cry. This is very telling....

>is it molestation if theyre only 4 years older than me
Not usually. It's all about the power dynamic relationship

I wasn't molested but one time I asked a doctor to give me a testicular exam because I'm autistic and wanted a "complete" physical and now everytime my balls move or I think about touching them my stomach drops out and I have a small panic attack. I assume that's a similar feeling to the aftermath of being molested.