I constantly feel anxious about my future and I feel like i'm a failure. I have major insecurities that none of my friends like me and I'm always worried people think i'm weird, ugly, or annoying.
I tried meds briefly but they didn't really help or had bad side effects.
I know i'm a whining bitch and like, personal blog, whatever. I just wanna put this out there and ask how you guys deal with constant anxiety and depression.
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Hit the gym
I don't know how to work out and i'm scared i will embarrass or hurt myself
tell yourself that you are not a failure, and that people like to be around you (and trust in the reality that if people didn't like to be around you, then they wouldn't be).
your real problem is that you're too invested in the game. you should meditate on the nature of being, and bring yourself back to a more playful state of mind, such as you had when you were a child. (note that this doesn't mean to be childish or to shirk responsibility; if you are underachieved, that is a serious problem, but you won't solve it by feeling sorry for yourself)
Just do push ups and sit ups in your room and go for runs around your block, please stay somewhat fit OP
>I know i'm a whining bitch and like, personal blog, whatever.
I think the issue starts here. You're collapsing into self-awareness/criticism to try and get the edge on others, but more importantly on yourself. Anxiety is very game-like. You nestle arguments inside of arguments etc., and get pulled deeper into it because, well, you're digging! There's no simple solution, but you have to understand it is impossible for anyone else but you to think as deeply as you about yourself, so aim for clarity in your day-to-day conversations. Try to remember, for example, what exactly you were going to ask the person and follow that path
Thank you for the kind words. Could you talk some more about what you mean about the nature of being or a playful state of mind
As someone with an anxiety disorder, I unironically recommend Jordan Peterson' stuff. You don't have to watch his stuff on the Bible but the self authoring suite is a good tool for example.
Also baby steps user. Too afraid to go to the gym? Look up a bodyweight routine and start from there.
And communicate with people: if you're really anxious about what your friends think of you, ask them something along those lines "Hey X, I know it's going to sound stupid but I'm self-conscious about this body part, is it just me or is there something actually wrong with it?".
Out of curiosity, what kind of meds did you take?
Also, you're not a failure, you're probably not very successful either but real failures are the kind of guys who are completely decrepit yet think they are hot shit.
there is a game, and you're in it right now.
in this game, a man walks into a room and thinks to himself: what must be done?
you walk into a room. what do you see? years of living and biology have pushed you towards seeing what must be done.
a kid, walks into a room. his brain is, in a sense, mushier, it hasn't been hardened by years of experience and normal, aging biology. he thinks to himself: what do i want to do? for him, anything is possible in the room.
you walk into a room. all you see are things that need to be done. you can't help it; part of it is biology, aging having de-mushified your brain. another part of it is simply the realities of life, which demands you notice the things that need to be done; ignore them at your own peril.
there are two factors here: the room with things that need to be done, and the person viewing the room.
I took Olanzapine and started Prozac this week but stopped Prozac when my nose started bleeding (i have never had a nosebleed in my life)
The olanzapine helped a lot and its not an SSRI so i think i'll probably start taking it again. I know if you look it up its an anti-psychotic but my psychiatrist just recommended it cause i have trouble sleeping, eating, and anxiety etc. I'm definitely not psychotic.
I have been reading a lot of self help stuff lately so i guess i'll do a deeper dive on Peterson.
oh look, it's captain self-righteous here to save the day yet again
>I know if you look it up its an anti-psychotic but my psychiatrist just recommended it cause i have trouble sleeping, eating, and anxiety etc. I'm definitely not psychotic.
Yeah when I looked it up I thought it was weird someone prescribed you such a strong medication but if it helps, I am not going to tell you to stop it.
I do think antidepressants are bullshit but that might just be me.
Im only right 9 times out of 10
I see you dropped the cringy personality name tag at least, baby steps I guess
Well I can tell you that you should definetly not get your life in order and live well, you should however start using mind altering drugs that will be illegal in a few decades.
No I was just posting on another board and forgot my tag lol
Do what this guy said a the start, when you're a bit stronger and more athletic, hit the gym, it's scary at first and you'll be paranoid that everyone is judging you but after a month you'll stop caring, if you're really anxious about going you can find a 24/7 gym and go at NEET hours when it's empty and just block everything with music, it also helps to have some kind of workout plan to follow so there's less uncertainty.
Why are menhera posters always literally me
Listen to me brother i'm just gonna tell you what worked for me, if you're anxious about your future it's because you are lacking a clear path forwards in life.
Determine where you want to go, whether it's a having specific career, studying at specific university or whatever it is for you, and then you have to autistically break down that overarching goal into many many many tiny manageable steps, make a big long checklist out of these steps, and then gradually start moving along small step by small step, it's much easier than trying to make a big leap. Then you at least feel like you're moving in the right direction instead of being this floating piece of driftwood at the mercy of the current.
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no wonder your so miserable you fucking tranny