I'm 21 and am currently at the peak of my loneliness.
In my late teens I used to be somewhat proud of the fact that I had no interest in friendships or relationships of any kind. I had no qualms about continuing my solitary life. I thought I had accepted my "destiny" as a hermit with no interest in normalfag behaviour.
Turns out, all it took to take down my grandeur delusion was to fall for a girl. I haven't desired a girlfriend since first year of highschool, yet here I am, years later, back to square one. Nothing has changed in my life expect my perspective on it. Being alone suddenly hurts again. It feels embarrassing that my entire philosophy of prideful abstinence from normalfag society was so thoroughly demolished just because a cute girl was nice to me once. I still don't desire friendships, and imagining myself in an intimate relationship requires an immense suspension of disbelief.
How about you, anons? When did your feeling of loneliness peak?
At what age did you feel the most lonely?
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>fall for a girl
you fucked up
get ahold of yourself retard
28, that was it, now it's just a meme
Puberty from 11 to 18 in highshool
After that i was still a loner but in high school i saw what i was missing all those kids having fun having their first relationships going to party traveling having loving families (i was in rich schools) meanwhile i was a ugly bastard with a disfunctional family that made enough to pay for the school
Now i can just work and go home ignoring the world but those years were absolute torture.
I wasnt bullied tho i was the funny one whi could hang out with almost any group but at the same time i had not a single friend
The first thing you ought to do is settle down. You're still a kid and you have your entire 20's ahead of you. Stop chasing girls, focus on your priorities, take a shower and for the love of god get out of this place.
Used to be easy, especially during the pandemic when I got to spend all my time cooped up inside. Being abstinent is easy when there is no temptation. Starting uni made me be around (new) people again, which gives you ample opportunity to falter.
>for the love of god get out of this place.
Funnily enough I haven't been actively browsing this board in years. Only recently have I come back.
>Stop chasing girls
Maybe once I get rejected enough times. So far in my life I've had only one date, and it's debatable if it could even be called that. This was back in first year of high school as you can guess from OP, and you can imagine how it turned out.
26. lived alone, no friends, no family, no pets. started developing an alternate personality to talk me through the rough spots. then i started feeling like this alien
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i distinctly remember a quote from another dub. he said "after you feel something for long enough, it becomes a state of being"
You're the kind of asshole who enjoys listening to himself and refuses any advice people give him. This place is a shithole. It's not doing you any favors. Leave and do something before you waste your life. We both know you're bullshitting yourself
26, felt a huge personality shift that year, probably on account of my 100lb weight loss making me think I suddenly deserved to meet people. I was more desperate for companionship than I'd ever been, was throwing myself at people online with the intention of meeting locals, it never worked out, I'm too retarded. Now I'm 27 and just kind of gone back to my old bitter self again. I can't even talk to people anymore, I've regressed completely and I was never socially adept growing up. I'm dying alone, I just hope it's relatively young.
Work has been slow, and I haven't been called in since last Friday. Nine whole days I've spent at home, and two weekends, not a single invitation from anyone. Not working for so long has forced me to confront how empty and devoid my life is, I just work, come home and repeat it endlessly, I don't think I can take another 40 years off this.
go back to r*ddit you stupid nigger
I returned here because I feel like shit. When I stop feeling like shit, I'll leave. You're giving me platitudes for advice and acting all high and mighty about it.
bro your work sounds nice
31 now. This girl I was talking to for month turned out to be catfish. I feel numb and lobotomized, unable to think properly. Like I got rugpulled on life itself
I think you need truly excellent parents to not end up as an incel these days. It's not too late, but it will be a tremendous amount of work and pain.
>Nine whole days I've spent at home, and two weekends, not a single invitation from anyone.
Wow fuck, this guy has surpassed all of us on this board in regards to loneliness. 9 days? fuck me dead how have you not blown your brains out?
>When did your feeling of loneliness peak?
19-20 roughly, was when I came to the realization I could die alone and without having purpose. At that stage of my life I was heavily abusing alcohol and in and out of wards, had not one friend in the world back then and I got so isolated I forgot how to converse with people. Thank God the meds brought me back to sanity, I'm 24 now and have improved a lot since then but truly I hated every soul alive back in those days
22-24, moved to a new city, didnt know anyone besides a drug dealer, and my 2 roommates, spent all my time smoking weed and doing lsd (mostly alone). Literally the most fucked up time period of my life.
Im arguably more lonely now at 29, but I give way less of a shit.
i dunno honestly, i've kind of felt lonely since i was 14 or even earlier, i've always had to try harder than others to fit in, natural acceptance never happens for me but i really became more of a socially anxious mute around 14 and that has stuck with me for the last 18 years (32 now), i guess i'm just used to it now for the most part, lately i've been feeling it a lot though, i can't even enjoy my weekends now cause i just reflect on how my life is not going so well and my parents are getting much older and they are all i have, i really worry about my future being even lonelier
Currently as I'm an inch from wizard level and seeing all my former school mates getting married and having children left and right while I'm stuck in my shithole parents house scaping every last buck trying to prevent it from falling apart
21 as well. I still feel lonely but I mostly just feel disconnected from it all. Don't really care most of the time. Still trying to improve myself for some reason, guess it's something to do. Jerking off and playing wow got boring a decade ago.
>lonely
>unhappy
I fucking hate people so much. You'd be suprise how much I hate this fucks around me with every interaction I engage with them. I've come to learn that you cant suffer being alone, it just makes you more independent.
I used to be just like what you described OP, minus the girlfriend, but you still have a chance to fix your shit.
Feeling peak loneliness in your early 20's is normal if you're one of these more cerebral, introverted type people.
You basically have 3 paths set out for you at this point. You can either succumb to your loneliness and kill yourself, become apathetic and stop caring about relationships, or reflect inwards and focus on improving yourself.
All paths have downsides but the latter is obviously the best choice.
Things get better in some ways and worse in others. I'm 28 and have not had any friends in over a decade and spend 99% of my time alone. People adapt to their surroundings and being permanently lonely becomes more and more bearable as time goes on. Being alone becomes a comfort and a preference as the years roll by.
At the same time, even if you don't realize it, you slowly lose the soft skills required to be around other people. The way you act and talk when you do socialize never feels right. You might make a good first impression with someone, but the more time they spend around you, the more they'll realize something is "off" about you. If you didn't before, you'll feel more anxious, self conscious and unresponsive to others. You'll feel like you want to be around others and crave socializing, validation and touch, but when you actually leave your place of comfort, you'll only want to be alone. Being alone becomes less of a choice and more of who you are.