>depression has gotten worse in past year >what few people who care about me are left force me into therapy >fuck it, wan't to kill myself anyway might as well give it a shot >after a few sessions therapist suggests HappyPills >fuck no, I rather just do this naturally >more sessions pass, still want to kms >in the last session, finally opened up fully >talk with therapist about why there is genuinely no good reason for me to be alive, a long, long list of reasons >Therapist tries to counter everything or "look on the brighter side" type of bullshit >counter everything with my DepressionBrain train of thought >eventually the conversation goes away from more reasons why I personally should die and into why just existence is torture for most and we tend to suppress and ignore it >therapist tries to make counters, again keep countering back >therapist goes quite, clearly does not know what to say or do with me >"Lets just digest this for now, and we can come back to it next session user." along with giving me some dumb 'exercises' to help with Le Big Sad
>that session was two months ago >she cancelled the appointment following that a few days before for "personal" reasons >made next appointment, showed up but she was not in her office >try calling her office and emailing to set up another appointment >go to her office a week later and the space is vacant and for lease >call the leasing number and ask what was the reason for the last occupant to vacate >tell me the renter passed away unexpectedly
She fucking died bros. Did I do this to her? Was it a freak accident? Fuck well, Im probably overthinking it but hey, therapy couldnt fix me so what better cherry on the cake than my therapist dying to send me off to the gates of hell.
Thanks for the weird stories and porn faggots, the Ruger is calling my name.
Dang that is super intense look man I am probably not helping much but I think you should at least watch this series called "Awakening from the Meaning Crisis" by John Vervaeke first, before you make a final decision on anything. And I am sorry that you had to go through that, that is rough.
Brandon Bennett
You should figure out that if you can talk a therapist into taking their own life that they're a bunch of fucking hacks, right?
Logan Campbell
pretty sure user already ended it all
Lucas Cruz
if you won't to go i don't blame you.if there is an afterlife i hope you may find what you were looking for.goodbye
Jackson Brooks
When you rope, make the last thought about how much you wanted to be alive.
I just like watching people contradict themselves and experience the pain of having two conflicting thoughts coexisting, even better if they're currently executing one of the thoughts. The pain in realizing they might be wrong fills me with joy.
Jaxon Parker
Even better if they can't go back, after acting on the decision they're regretting. The shock and desperation is just so raw and real.
Colton Campbell
He could've at least streamed it ;w;
Robert Sullivan
Whoops meant for Disregard it, I suck cocks
Benjamin Williams
We got a regular Georges Bataille on our hands here folks
Levi Thompson
sounds like a freak accident.
if you're going to go through with it, why not just try the happy pills anyway? talking about doing it the "natural way" but humans are so far removed from our natural environment (if we even have on anymore) that it's natural for some people to become depressed.
I hope you don't go through with it OP and I hope you are able to find some happiness.
Hudson Evans
why don't you dress in drag and take her place in her family? it always works in sitcoms
Nolan Hernandez
This. Just try them, why the fuck not at this point right? You owe it to yourself and your family to exhaust every possible option before you end it all, it's a decision you only get to make once so don't rush it. I hope you are reading this and that you know that I'm rooting for you man.
Kayden Wood
Jesus fuckin' Christ, OP. That is fucking bad luck. Fuck it, ain't trying to know how you feel, but honestly wait up and retry with another therapist. If they suggest Happy Pills, take them. Depression is one hell of a beast, and sometimes you need backup for it. I don't even know if you'll see this message, but I hope that you'll find peace whatever you choose. Life can be brighter, but you need to turn on the lights.
Thomas Walker
Bruh, you have a gift. Go try every therapist in the country. Go forth, and cleanse this Earth.
Brayden Hughes
You still have shit to do user. Before giving up and tying the rope, make a list of things you wanna do while you're still alive. Try to reflect and see if the only option really is to rope. If you read this, best of luck, user.
Anthony Parker
Why are people so against suicide? Do suicidal people want to be talked out of it, is that even best for them?
Carson Hall
Bro dont make your parents miserable who made you miserable!
Bentley Brooks
Give yourself a mission, a reason to be alive, and be 100% devoted to it. For exemple me, i wanna be a mangaka. When you are devoted to something, you have a goal, you will have a reason to live other than consumming instant pleasures.
Instant pleasures are dependant of your mood, you can find something exciting but boring the next day. What you have to do is find something you truly love from the bottom of your soul, and do something with it, something very ambitious so you will live long until you achieve it. It may be anything, idk, being an esport player, being challenger on League, really anything even if it's not "noble" enough for society, as long as it doesn't hurt others. And just tell to yourself "i will do it, i have to do it, it is what it is" so it doesn't become dependant of your mood.
The fucked up shit that is a reason to off is when you have a very painful chronic disease. Other than that, if you are healthy and free, don't kys.
Charles Fisher
>>fuck no, I rather just do this naturally I will never understand that reluctance in mental patients. Like, can you imagine a diabetic patient refusing to take insulin because it's artificial? There's something wrong with your brain. There's a medicine for it. Don't be dumb.
Brody Campbell
Depression is a symptom of life 99% of the time, pills cant fix life you fucking retard,
Parker Long
he didnt ask to be born, he doesnt owe anyone anything
