Got my T levels checked, way above average

Of course I do. I'll never be a woman, the nonstop need to be one is just torture, night and day.

Then stop referring to it as a need.

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it's over, you're ngmi

whats the gayest thing you have done

It is okay to be a feminine woman. You can wear dresses or whatever even. Why must you actually be a woman?

My best friend in middle school was a tomboy from a shitty home. She used to sit by me every day at lunch outside the school. She's the only person I ever told I wanted to be a girl. One day I went to her house after school and, despite being a complete non-girly tomboy, she gave me a makeover. She put a clip in my hair, did my makeup, and I wore a dress and she put makeup on herself and put on a dress too. We walked around outside and went to the skateboard shop nearby. It was easily the happiest day of my life, every second was happy. Only time I've crossdressed, never done any kind of gay sex.

You can't be a woman though. It's literally impossible

>a core memory and deep connection during developing year came from indulging a psychosis

Ah, all makes sense now. Repeat after me user, "I am not my desire to be a girl"

Stop demoralized people, do that in discord

Iktf user. Part of me wants to believe it's just mental illness that will go away if I keep it bottled up long enough. The other part is screaming at me to act on them, and I end up doing neither.

just repress. if you wanted to troon out you should have done at 11 or 12 like all the zoomers did. then you could be a cute 5'2 trans slut fag. one life and you fucked it all up

>My best friend in middle school was a tomboy from a shitty home. She used to sit by me every day at lunch outside the school. She's the only person I ever told I wanted to be a girl. One day I went to her house after school and, despite being a complete non-girly tomboy, she gave me a makeover. She put a clip in my hair, did my makeup, and I wore a dress and she put makeup on herself and put on a dress too. We walked around outside and went to the skateboard shop nearby. It was easily the happiest day of my life, every second was happy. Only time I've crossdressed, never done any kind of gay sex.
Why do some people get to have good memories. You got to be with a girl you loved and walk around and have fun and go to her house. Then you did some gay shit too which is cool. I want a memory like that.

user, those of us that do like OP have horrible things to counteract that, like a desire to lop off our cock
Transvestitism isn't the same as having body dysmorphia. Perhaps you get your kicks from crossdressing. I once visited a dominatrix who wanted to make me dress as a woman and take me out in public. We didn't cause that's a hard limit for me, but evidently it is a thing straight men do.
If it's any consolation, I am jealous of your tomboy friendship too

Take a hero dose of shrooms. Have a trustworthy tripsitter, and remember your goal is to lose the desire to be a woman.

i just detransed after 12 years, it's literally a giant meme bro lmao like just fix your life and you'll be happy, you don't need this shit
whatever you do keep the dick though, you'll need it later when you come to your senses (thank god i had the foresight for this)