>remember that I havent eaten anything besides that chickenburger yesterday and that being hungry can lead me to be like this
>put a frozzen pizza into the oven
>eat one smol slice
>feel even more disgusted with myself and throw it into the trash
I wanna die
dad will be mad about the wasted money even while its just a few yuros
>tfw cant make him angry enough to beat me to death
please
Remember that I havent eaten anything besides that chickenburger yesterday and that being hungry can lead me to be like...
Parker Parker
Hunter Russell
You aren't ceb stop pretending to be my wife you giga faggot
Dylan Gray
That's why you cook good food instead of frozen dinner shit
Connor Brooks
I am feeling like shit and cant stop thinking about kiling myself
I need to vent so I guess I try to be more sneaky n in disguse because of certain people who do it for free
some user told me to kill myself in a indirect way yesterday night and my brain is telling me that it was my exgf I adore more than anything
I wish I was strong enough to fulfil her wish desu
losing it big times over it
why cant be bpd just be a meme holy shit
my mom invited me to a neat restaurant for later
but I dont deserve food
I deserve cyanide
Ryan Perez
>some user told me to kill myself
Why are you being baka, stop doing that. You should know by now not to let things on here get to you, you are being illogical and you should snap out of it. Just go drink some alcohol until you pass out or something and hope it's gone in the morning
Logan Ortiz
okay but why did you throw it out when your dad could have eaten the rest?
Easton Richardson
>You should know by now not to let things on here get to you, you are being illogical
IDK my mind is telling me its her whenever a post has potential to hurt me
its been very bad lately and at best I can cope by thinking about being cute together with aiste but that isnt a mutual feeling so that is also not very helpful bleh and rahter hurtful bleh
>. Just go drink some alcohol until you pass out or something and hope it's gone in the morning
desu I smoked a big amount of weed cause of that
woke up
smoked the rest cause it continued
still bleh
went to the grocery store for some wine
had to go back home because I forgot my ID at home and they asked for it
finished the bootle
and now rip
I still have plenty of money for new bottles
but bleh shouldnt
I guess if I smoke a pure tobacco bowl
a nicotine flash + lots of alcohol in ur body = certain sleep (+ vomit)
>INB$ what about the bar at hom,e
parents realised I was using it a lot so they are hiding it again like they should
I begged them plenty of times to hide any alcohlic drinks but then I started to be better and they thought the issue was out this world desu
ROFL
sounds like him
but he isnt at home
by that time its too cold and he would rather heat up something else
Jonathan Brown
My dad died last Wednesday
Jack Smith
>my mind is telling me its her
Tell your brain to shut the fuck up and that it's being stupid whenever you start thinking like that. It's hard to change how you feel about things, but try not to ruminate. Just try and focus on it not being true rather than the possibility that it is true.
>aiste
I don't really think you should be trying to replace that feeling you have with someone else, that's just not sustainable. You shouldn't keep trying to get with someone that won't have you either.
>I smoked a big amount of weed cause of that
You should try and get some medication instead if you getting like this is common. Have you tried any before? Might help more than just weed and alcohol
Dominic Torres
>has good parents
>could easily live a good life
>is a failure because of attention he gets online
you dont even deserve death
Aaron Sanders
bleh thats sounds to be harsh depending on your relationship towards him
sorry to hear and stay strong
>Tell your brain to shut the fuck up and that it's being stupid whenever you start thinking like that. It's hard to change how you feel about things, but try not to ruminate. Just try and focus on it not being true rather than the possibility that it is true.
I try and would be nice but this is going on for a few years
>I don't really think you should be trying to replace that feeling you have with someone else, that's just not sustainable.
I mean I am not trying to replicate the excat same thing
its just in my nature to get obsessed over the person I have romantic feeling towards to
so I really need someone new to overwrite the old memorys it seems bleh
but then also I dont deserve anyone or could afford anyone
>inb4 le improve
there is n0 escape
>You shouldn't keep trying to get with someone that won't have you either.
I wish
Aiste only enables me once in a while to have a steady flow of new (You)'s, only to regret it once I obsesse too much and get all annoying about it
>You should try and get some medication instead if you getting like this is common. Have you tried any before?
yes I tried
I had like around 6 different meds in my life so far
at best they made me to be much worse and that point my parents asked me to stop to take them
>mental ward
considered that too lately
but my last experience with it was horrible
and any other mental ward I could reach has even worse reviews than my old place
it feels hopeless
not my fault my parents traumatised me while the rest of society bullied the crap out of me when I was growing up,
so I turned all fragile, weak and needy desu
Kayden Hughes
You ok, man? I am there, not a nice feeling I know
Jayden Kelly
>not my fault
actually
being too spergy triggered too many people at school and my parents were desperate to get me to motivate to study harder and imrpove my grades
Ja it all goes back to me being a dumb sperg desu
I dont want to be okay desu, I want this to end already
Luke Hernandez
serves you right for betraying me
Noah Nelson
what are you talking about bleh
Aaron Hill
>my brain is telling me that it was my exgf
Maybe liz still likes you?
Carter Ortiz
glad to see you haven't changed
Justin Hall
what brand of pizza?
Elijah Ward
cheer up, chebbie! at least the russians are winning!
Aaron Price
even if we are in that rare timeline
I am still the same if not worse so its no use desu
if I knew what this was about I could say more to it
this is just too vague and seems like schizofuel
Dr: Oetker
Alexander Hall
>I dont want to be okay desu, I want this to end already
n0, you'll only die at age 77
Gavin Butler
Good news! Putin will soon put you out of your misery!