I'm unironically the pay pig for a WMAF couple. I'm subscribed to their onlyfan and sometimes they text me and ask me to cashapp them money for snacks or whaetever. They call me a good asian boy and sometimes they send me exclusive short vids of teasing stuff (like her grabbing his bulge through the boxers etc etc) that they dont post on onlyfans.
Everytime I nut I feel overwhelming shame but even then I keep paying and being their little servant because I don't want to lose them. It took me ages to find them, a good-looking hot couple who are into raceplay and willing to humiliate me.
Notable side effect is that I'm starting to genuinely hate white people in general. I fucking hate these retarded vapid 6'2 gymbros and "yoo dude haha nice one kyle". Yet at home I fucking fap till my knees are shaking to this huge white chad fucking his asian gf's brains out and I send them money...
This isn't fetish posting. I know I'm an incel and will never find love as a 5'6 twink. I need to break my porn addiction because its seriously fucking me up and my self worth. I just can't do it. I tried no fap but I have no discipline or will. I tried focusing on another fetish but I inevitably come back to the wmaf shit. Nothing makes me diamond like it. I read it has to do with the amygdala and disgust and whatever.
Anybody managed to break a fetish? How do you get rid of one?
It's not actually a fetish in your case, asian men have a predisposition to enjoying asian women getting fucked by white dicks. It came about centuries ago when colonial powers landed on your shores, the asian men that didn't enjoy sharing their wives with these bigger exotic white men were executed by their shoguns and emperors who made their own concubines get inseminated by white settlers to raise their status. tl;dr asian men and bwc go together like bread and butter
My brother you are better than this. Are you in school? Is there anything else going on in your life? Do you have other sources of confidence?
Anthony Cox
once you find real friends who care about you, maybe even people who are robots n shiet, you will want to shoot those fuckers because no matter how many asian snack you get that bitch it is absolutely no match to finding that Latina booty who wants to ride you
find people who want to be sad with you and you will most definitely stop being a stupid paypig for retarded couples you should have never met.
Dylan Garcia
I mean I have friends irl, we just dont see each other much because busy life. Any advice for meeting new people? I can't really approach randoms in public without being a creep and I'm way too socially anxious anyway. I very much have a crisis of confidence, have had for many years. I feel like I'm the weakest of any group I find myself in. Would probably lost a fight to even a woman See this is the kind of stuff that makes me extremely horny yet extremely angry at the same time and the kind of talk I'm trying to avoid
Chase Smith
you literally fucking disgust me. if i stood right in front of you and you had a loaded gun, i'd spit in your fucking face as my last proud defiant act in life.
Cameron Russell
>Notable side effect is that I'm starting to genuinely hate white people in general. Damn, I didn't do anything to you. Fuck off, racist. It's okay to be white.
Dominic Myers
Its nothing against you personally, user. In fact I mostly just hate the white chads. If you're on this board you are probably a robot incel like me so I have nothing against you
Wyatt Cox
I have a wife but she's also white so I didn't steal any Asian women.
Nathan Morales
I'm sorry for saying I hate white people. Truth is I probably just hate myself and project it. I wish you and your wife the best and hope you grow old together and love each other
Thanks. I hope you break your addiction to this stuff. If you stop paying this couple, you should send them a really nasty message to them. Really show them that they no longer hold power over your mind.
Levi Reed
>Oh no >Not my Asian girls At least it's not the cock carousel of the world fucking your women. I don't even use water fountains anymore because white women do. Absolutely filthy creatures. Couldn't risk some STI super hybrid from the fountains. >The bonus Black dudes happily fuck white bitches, get AIDS and die.
If I ever have the balls to do that I will. Realistically I probably will just politely tell them I'm no longer interested in the kink
Jacob Richardson
Have you thought about picking up martial arts? Kind of the blind leading the blind here as I've only marginally picked up martial arts because frankly I'm embarrassed to be seen practicing it but it's a huge confidence booster knowing you can beat the shit out of any foid. Pretty sure you can beat most women too, you'd be surprised at how large the difference in strength is if you haven't tested it. Probably any woman that doesn't work out would lose to you.
Owen Evans
Thats a good idea. Which martial art have you started and how are you learning? Do you take lessons? Or are you learning from the internet?
Parker Martinez
Break it through sheer force of will or hatred. Think of it this way: "I hate life so much that I am not willing to be part of it" This includes shit like your brain wiring being fucked up and having fetishes like this. Its part of life, trying to fuck you up. Spit on it, hate it, tear it down. Beat yourself up over it. Ignore it.
This doesn't work with everything obviously, but I'm surprised that you aren't apathetic in the first place after being this far down the hole - how do you care about anything, like even fetishes?
So basically apathy or rage. You should be able to go to one of these extremes.
Oliver Kelly
lmao, why are you larping as a Asian dude? This shit is sad and I don't mean your made up little story.
Lucas Price
I met my instructor randomly in the gym one day. He specializes in TKD but has experience boxing and Muay Thai as well and teaches me that too. TKD is kind of a meme because kicks are generally way too committal in a street fight (balance is extremely important and kicks inherently take you from two points of contact with the ground to one) but you can still learn the principles of combat. Things like space control, reacting to the opponent, trapping the opponent in the corner, stuff like that. My instructor has beaten a lot of people who think TKD is a meme but you obviously need to have a real understanding of combat to understand that.
If you want to learn from the internet apparently punches are easy to learn. One of my boxer friends said he first learned how to punch from a book written in a language he didn't understand and he just copied the diagrams. The hard part of boxing is more from spacing and footwork as far as I understand. Regardless I think the important thing is just practicing and punching a bag and that can release a lot of tension you have. Men nowadays don't have a lot of release to beat the shit out of something and find out their limits so it's a good experience.
Us asians have a long history with combat sports and martial arts. It's only right you inherit it as well. You should have pride.
Also if you want to practice remember that the force from a hit comes from both muscle and mass. F=ma and all that. Strong kicks and punches will usually include some kind of rotational movement from your entire body to include more of your body mass into F=ma to generate more force. You don't always want to put everything you have into a punch or kick but you should be aware of the peak F you can generate. Also keep in mind conservation of momentum. In picrel do you see how far he pulls his body back to do a front kick? To keep your center of mass in the middle but execute a strong kick you need to pull mass back as well. Same for angular momentum as well.
I'm a complete amateur though so don't take my word for all this. Martial arts can be dangerous too. Important thing is to find a source of confidence. Confidence isn't really a meme from my experience. If you've ever talked to a group of people where you were the most knowledgeable/skillful or least autistic then you can observe how you become undisturbed by any social mishaps and comfortable voicing your mind. This is what I imagine Chad is like 24/7. I'm not a psychologist but my idea is that if you find something that gives you self-esteem you can more easily dismiss this kind of degrading and harmful porn because you will find an attack on your esteem insulting rather than arousing.
Eli Rogers
Just fap to BMAF instead, ez fix.
Anthony Moore
Among all the types and classes of pigs you can be, this is the worst. Change your habits young user, if non for the best then at minimalismically for the better.
