What keeps you going?

I'm currently 22 years old.
I unironically can't sympathize with any human experience and don't get the point of life.

What motivates you to keep going through the motions despite hedonism or the void at the end?

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>What motivates you to keep going through the motions despite hedonism or the void at the end?
Aspirations to do cool stuff and taking care of my pets.

Fear. I'm scared of death but quickly my desire to die is becoming greater than my will to live

Aspirations to do cool stuff

I plan on coping with prostitutes and drugs until they find a way to fix depression. There has been no advancement since the fucking 90's.
All we have are shitty SSRI's with a 30% chance of placebo tier improvement.
And ketamine which is hardly stronger than placebo.

>cool stuff
Doesn't it eventually boil down to hedonism?
Cool means you think you'll enjoy it

Isolating myself and deluding myself that I am liked by the people around me

Not really. Hedonism is about undelayed, unearned gratification but working towards gaining happiness is delayed and earned happiness. Further the benefits of something cool are rarely just a dopamine hit like with food. It can be something useful for improving your day-to-day life, something you can look on at to feel better about your day, etc. (and also with the added notion that it doesn't have to be for just you or for you at all.).

Are you the same Angels Egg poster from year(s) back? If so, nice to see you again, the conversations we had were nice.
I'm 22 as well and can relate to what you said. What keeps me going? Nothing in particular, I just take what enjoyment I can out of life. I've already accepted the fact that the things I desire most aren't possible for me to ever experience/do so I just am. I've a bottle of pentobarbital in the drawer for when I get tired of this life filled with nothing but escapism or if I'm forced to face the world. But right now, I just am.

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distaste of change which has kept me in the same state for 20 years now

I don't have a problem with hedonism.

I want a robot arm.
Maybe a pair of legs too.
Put my brain in the internet while I'm at it.

Are you missing limbs already, user?

No, none, originally.

I'm totally fine with life being meaningless. I'm here to experience whatever happens. When the moments are heavy, I'll be sad and question, when the moments are light, I'll be content. It's all just part of the ride.

Art
I want to draw and paint as well as my heroes.

Issue is, whenever I can't draw (at my job) or fail (because I'm too tired, sick perhaps) I take it as a huge blow to my ego and it can send me down a shitty spiral of self-pity and defeat

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What's your job If I may ask

Engineer
I kinda hate it, but I'm afraid of changing it. The pay is good, the office is close-by...

Honestly I think I'd hate any non-art job

sex and making bitches cheat on their boyfriends/husbands. nothing fills the void like making someone experience pure bliss only to see the glint of guilt in their expression as they come down off that orgasm high. pretty much i get by making people more miserable then me and having peaks of pleasure in between.

Interesting, which degree did you get for the job

Playing videogames that i enjoy and watching/reading series that i care about thats the thing that motivates me the most desu.

Aerospace Engineering

I don't know if I'll ever change my job, maybe I'll try negotiating lower hours or something for less pay.
I'm afraid of being eaten up by my city, everything is money, money, money here and everything costs so much more than it ised to it's just utterly depressing.