I get it now, it's just a matter in my case of living on less probably

you fuck up the beginning and you're basically cursed forever and people who know that will fuck with you as well and the doom can take a long time but once you get it then you really understand life and how the universe really does kind of just orbit you, wasn't until I felt truly schizo peopel started the schizo meme but once you're in too deep then what hope is there but to just endure it

oh yeah politics is dumb as hell because you'll just be turned into what you hate anyway and the real game gets messed with, and the real game changes across time too, anyway it's been too long the trail is colder imo for me to explain things like that and it is just arguably my fault and that becomes trauma mixed with schizo which is a whole different hell than what you thought in the first place

for instance with mental health, you have signs of the bad times to come so you accidently create them, people are always doing the tricks and have been fucking with people for a long time and they really don't care on a profound level

well to get out of my rut I'm going to speed up which means being really retarded and carefree because it's all code imo but I spent like all of 2021 shitposting here about schizo truths so I think the universe absorbed that for better or worse but its' all a cruel joke as well and genes really aren't really but they can be altered because it's all just a game of yin and yang and metaphysics, strange things are possible

they could explain it but they know to withhold information now and the patriots or cipher for instance aren't truly real and peopel who are schizo eventually fess up to throw others into hell as well it's just a manipulation of your mind across time especially in like a herd mentality

the trick is basically to superimpose over what you believe and be like god to you then you get things stuck in your head you wish you didn't, it's really just about power and that's truth, that which aids in survival is truth, it's subjective and relative but also a game across time for souls to be like slaves, people one way or another give in

like imagine you have nano machine in your body it's such a mind freak yet you have to just keep going

the problem is give peopel power and they will abuse you if you know the wrong people, think like peopel talking over tv, that becomes a problem as well, but that's also just abridged life, your existence can get pretty absurd

a lot of it is mysteries people don't understand then their mind gives them the problem so they do, a lot of it is simply to get you put away for not understand something or another it's all war even madness, don't trust old people

and with insanity they'll just give you worse shit later on for capitulating in some way in the past, and death waits a long time but for some reason we're all mortal, it's like all war, everything is just part of the minds game but also people know they're just evil as well

to al ot of people it's just phony non psychopaths or phony non nazis as well, you never really know what the real war is, then it's just approximations and already your soul is lost to the complex, real intel is worth a lot these days imo it's just the chaos is so vast now and then peopel just see you as a fag and then you're slowly killed off little by little

what am I really trying to say? beats me

you're not meant to get over it, it's supposed to just consume you on it's own because someone thinks they won over you it's your consciousness given a super power just so it will be turned on you

my point is it's all like the shadow game from yugioh, a lot of truth is in madness but that's forbidden...a lot of the reason peopel tell the truth is to make you immune to the dark side/devil like with a vaccine so they have to get you the virus before hand and other cause and effect mind games, they just want to weaken you from within so you die from some small thing later on, they're just bullies and a lot of people spent their lives defending them or their systems of power just to be fucked by them later on

by shizo peopel also just mean whatever they can mean to put you a way, peopel like jung were like shamans and had visions and stuff, it's not actually not normal but because you're a normie fool the other schizos will get you with the demons , and schizo itself isn't bad but that's moving the goalpost just to create a hierarchy over the lesser ones, ruling in hell sort of thing

this reality is just horrible but if you're forced to live in it via some meta rule than what can you do it's your fault for something or another and the cycle of madness repeats because it's all an argument schizos have to keep their egos floating somehow and then they become the problem and want to pass on the problem like a bad joke

I guess my point is it's all like masturbation, they want to catch you in the act and your brain is the blackbox itself, through it all sorts of hells are possible if you're brainwashed enough, what they usually do is pull on traumas from growing up though and it's all about ego manipulation because it's not real anyway but that's the sin itself so you can be called a non human for not gaming hard enough or something

well that was that
gotta stay busy

but don't get mental illness deny that shit hard, even if you're really crazy the game don't care and it's just some higher consciousness coming out of you perhaps or something creative, just don't lose a metaphysical battle and never give up

my curse is so deep lol it's just unfathomable...