30 years old

same here too but in between you two

>wagies could have it hard but at the end of the day it's people like us that off themselves..
So just off them first. See how quick the narrative will switch when self preservation is on the line and their anti-escalation tactics do nothing but make it worse.

i hate that obsession that everyone has (me included) over changing oneself. what does that even mean?
is taking cold showers, lifting and sleeping well really going to solve your problems? it's going to help improve your general well being for sure but that's just it; a layer of well being over a hollow life + in the long run improvement/huslte lifestyle is going to fuck you over as you'll stress over respecting strict schedules and fall deeper into despair when you'll miss a day cuz in your head you'll see it as if you "broke your chain".
that right here is food for suicidal ideations and depression as your traumatizing your body and mind even more.

what people like us need is MEANING that's the only thing that matters.
change comes naturally with meaning.

I hear you, I don't know how someone like me could even go about attaining meaning. In the meanwhile I've been trying to replace meaning with stimulant meds, works pretty well desu until I build up tolerance.

meaning is about finding something that makes you wake up every morning, can be ANYTHING but of course it wouldn't be funny if it was easy to find, that's only up to us brother.
>stimulant meds
what stimulants do you take and how to aquire any meds for mental illness?

That book sounds interesting. Do you have any other books about that topic that you could recommend?

Currently taking Focalin I think I need a higher dose though. I have experience with a lot of these drugs and if you're curious about the nuanced differences I could give you my thoughts.
>how to aquire any meds for mental illness?
I have connections to family members who are psychiatrists, helped a lot. I was also originally prescribed these drugs around the age of 6 by a pediatrician, having history with these drugs makes them much easier to acquire, I was retarded though and went off them and then my life fell apart for approximately 8 years now. From what I understand for those who weren't on these drugs as children they're much harder to get, maybe even a year long process depending on how easily you can access a psychiatrist, sorry user. It starts with trying to get an ADHD/ADD diagnosis of course.

Shit doesnt change if you fill up your schedule, you just temporarily don't think about the loneliness. I used to simultaneously go to church, choir, orchestra, the gym, language classes, book club, jiu jitsu for multiple years, with not a single friend from all those activities (also, big surprise, since women don't have hobbies the only females i've met were retired grannies). God's lonely men we all are.

>Hikikomori: Adolescence Without End
haven't read it but apparently it's a hikikomori classic, it digs more in how society could help reintegrate hikis rather than talk about the psychological factors and how the phenomenon came into place.
on the other hand Shutting out the sun digs more deeply into the phenomenon by explaining it through an economic/cultural an historical lense.

here are other books about jp society that even if not directly about hikis are heavely related to it

>Otaku: database animals
philosophical/enthropological essay about the otaku phenomenon through the lense of postmodernity,
this book was released in 2001 and it's crazy how ahead of it's time it was.
>the Moe manifesto
it's the most "light" book out of the three but shouldn't be underestimated as digging into the Moe aspect of japanese visual culture is vital into the understadning of otaku culture wich is itself related to the hikikomori phenomenon.

there is also the anime/light novel Welcome to the NHK wich is about the tribulations of a 23 year old hikikomori

This would be correct if it wasnt for the fact that our looksmatch (short, mentally ill, ugly, etc) can reproduce means that our suffering was for naught because those woman-producing incels reproduce and the cycle of inceldom starts again

Every morning when I wake up I roll over and open my laptop screen. I visit a site called Any Forums.org and for some reason get stuck for at least an hour or two just scrolling through and occasionally calling people retards. This is the life I chose. I deserve this.

Jokes on you, my mom is dead.

yeah shouldn't come as a surprise.
if only it was more easy to get access to meds since usually when you're depressed you don't have the will to go through all the procedures to get some.. vicious cycle.
> if you're curious about the nuanced differences I could give you my thoughts
i'm all ears

pretty based if you asked me

>Look like loser
>Never take an effort to look good and nice
Something tell me that you people deserve everything that happen to you.

>muh effort
don't have to try when you have decent genes, you can't polish a turd

Waiting for my reprieve to arrive. Currently stuck in a giant open air mental asylum where the patients make the most inhumane and arbitrary mandates.

Maybe modernity was a mistake. Maybe we should just have continued living in little villages and continued living off of the land. The problem with the modern world is that it becomes more and more complex and more and more people are thus left behind as a result, simply because they can't keep up. We were happier when we lived simpler lives, maybe we should create the political conditions necessary so that the people who want to, can go back and live like people lived in the past. That would probably be the better option for a lot of people, these days.

>Imagine being limbless and manage to get a pussy while user complain being ugly
youtube.com/watch?v=be-kDpKkuic

people in the past knew why they lived.
it all comes down to meaning again.
i watched a documentary were a reporter asked an african tribe member what his biggest fear was, he replied "lions". just shows how in a complete different realm of reality these people live, it's not that they are happier but they LIVE and they know exactly why they are waking up every morning, everything they do has a sense.