I am suicidal. I would rather die than continue living this life

I am suicidal. I would rather die than continue living this life.
However, I am concerned about how my suicide would affect my family.
Is there anything I could say to them before I kill myself that might ease the burden of my death?

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Not giving you advice on that, sorry.
But in regards to committing suicide...

Just so you know, there is no empirical way to tell where you're going to go when you die.
Your body may die and ever memory you've ever had throughout your life storied in the chemicals in your brain with rot.
And then everyone you've ever known will die and it will be as if you have never existed.
Although, the metaphysical thing that anchors you to your body in time and space cannot be explained by science.
Has never, and will never.
Your consciousness and sense of self-aware is not a physical thing.
If you think about it, we cannot even begin to comprehend not existing.
And the way I see it, the nihilistic assumption that death is a final end to things is just as irrational as assuming it isn't.
There is no guarantee of eternal sleep for you once you die.
So saying.
>I would rather die than continue living this life.
The way the universe and reality works is a mystery, and you cannot even begin to comprehend what that's like.

do a front flip and shoot yourself in the head in front of them. just kidding.

Whatever is going on right now, but a way that I didn't end up killing myself was that I learnt to find peace in loneliness. I learnt that people are always going to be pieces of shits and that I didn't need anyone in my life to make me happy. no one is ever going to understand me anyways, plus people always cause drama.

(Unless I was lucky enough to find someone who could understand and could stick around)

you can work super hard whether that's how you look, making money, etc to "feel better".
I understand the motivation isn't there, but as much as it sucks for things to get better, you really have to work on it if you want to move out and do your own things.

If you do just want friends, then you can't just expect people to come up to you, (and yes more things i'm about to say that you might find cheesy but is true) you have to fake it to make it maybe then you can find someone who might be able to make you happy for a bit. Go party or create a hang out spot and try inviting random people that are at your school or job.

another way that helped me stay alive was that I wanted to prove those who hurt me wrong.
so if they see that I'm a lot more successful, or maybe my life is going a little better, it does help me boost my ego and motivation.

>I am concerned about how my suicide will affect my family
No you're not. Every pussy who can't bring themselves to pull the trigger has told themselves this lie at one point or another.

you are wrong and gay

I'm still going to take my chances. No matter what, if anything, happens after I die I just want my current life to end.

>you can work super hard whether that's how you look, making money, etc to "feel better".
I did this. I worked my ass off on a career and it didn't make me feel any better. I ended up dropping everything and moving back in with my parents.
>another way that helped me stay alive was that I wanted to prove those who hurt me wrong.
I have hurt myself far more than anyone else could hurt me.

No. For the next six months, just start being a happier person. Do nice things for your mom and dad and your friends. Then start going on 'walks'. Then start going on walks around town. Then start taking pictures as you go on walks that you constantly send to friends and family, sometimes getting daringly close to the edge.

Then one day you eat half a sandwich in one hand, take some pictures with the other hand, and you just fall from a little too high.

Take the drug diphehydramine, bout 500mgs.
It's OTC and can be found in pharmacies.
It will give your brain a feeling of existential horror and a fear of death.
Not being afraid of death is one of the most irrational state of minds you can be in, and sometime you just need something to set you straight.
At least that before attempting to kill yourself.

As far as I'm concerned, what I said was correct in every way.

Either accept that your family will forever blame themselves for not noticing your depression or not forcing you to get help, or fuckin cope and seek help. I bet my life has been far worse than your privy life but you dont see me crying to random faggots on Any Forums. Cope harder or fuckin accept you're going to hurt around 100 people by the time you are buried or thrown in the trash cause mom doesn't want the fuckin urn as it hurts too much to stare at.