I no longer care

I used to be scared at first but now i look in the mirror and i realize i don't care anymore
If Putin were to finally press the little red button i'd welcome the end, because what would i have to come back to once the danger is averted anyway?
I'm a NEET in my late 20s and i'm a kissless virgin, i've never loved or been loved, i have no future and my only life plan is basically waiting to die and trying not to think about it
I can't even find refuge in my imagination anymore, because i'm almost 30 and fantasizing about being a young man who discovers love for the first time feels pathetic
I'm tired, i don't want to wake up in the morning anymore

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Same brother, just waiting until there's a decent time to finally end it.

The final blackpill, giving up on your life once you realize that there is no hope left for you anymore.

I want to die so bad ngl

I'm legitimately trying to take steps to sort my life out but there's always something that happens that takes a shit on what I'm trying to do. I'm always getting shafted or getting curveballs in my face. I'm not confident that this war will be anything but a nothingburger.

many such cases
30 is on average when we grow up, more or less
>only life plan is basically waiting to die and trying not to think about it
well you need a better plan

OP have you seen the movie I'm Thinking of Ending Things?

Make something

Same, but why is it so hard for me to just kill myself?

>I can't even find refuge in my imagination anymore, because i'm almost 30 and fantasizing about being a young man who discovers love for the first time feels pathetic
Jesus Chirst that's way too relatable. Wish I had something to say, but I've got nothing user. Best of luck, I know it's a cruel world