Tell me the story of your life anons!

>invite her to play some games with friends after school
>she says yes
>she comes over and have a good time, just me and her are left towards the end waiting for her mom to pick her up
>realize that she likes me finally
>ask her out
>she calls me a retard and says yes
>feelsgoodman
>after talking turns out she's a bisexual rape victim with an ex who did a bunch of degrading shit, left her father's house, basically a walking red flag
>continue bc I convince myself she's the only one i'll ever get
>start having sex for a bit
>about 5 months in she starts having pain while fucking, to the point of literally crying and we have to stop
>came to the point where we didn't do anything sexual at all anymore
>all the while I'm taking harder and harder classes, still doing well but stressimg myself out to all hell
>ffw about a year
>my girlfriend wants me to rub her back until she sleeps again
>decide to make a move, she if she's ready at all again
>start fingering her
>"hey is this okay?" After about 10 minutes
>realize that she's asleep
>decide to tell her when she wakes up
>mfw she says I raped her
>she decides to stay with me just never talks about it
>friends start to ignore me, bec she had told them all about this behind my back
>stay with her until she moves out to her college, breaking up with me the next week after we wanted to do an ldr
>lose all my friends from that and them going to different colleges
>now at home doing community college and working at mcwagies, haven't talked to a person outside of my family seriously for about a year now
And so that's about as close of a synopsis as I could give that I think ppl on r9k would care about. If you want me to greentext some dofferent stories, like me asking out the one girl in 7th grade, ask and you shall recieve.
It's tough bros, but we'll all make it I swear

>born to Russian born but ethnic German parents in 96
>start becoming concious of myself at age 4, first memories start there
>move the primary school after I turn 6, do decently well
>move to the other side of the city in 3rd grade, meet my now still best friend there
>move on to "Gymnasium", best friend moves away 100s of Kilometers due to family reasons
>really lonely in Secondary school, find no friends
>only friend is a 3 years older dude who's into playing vidya and rc cars
>although physically fit from all the sport I was doing still really small and also very clumsy for some reason
>couldn't move aswell as others
>couldn't speak as well as others
>always sucked at ball games, always pIcked last even behind the fat kid
>grades aren't even good, just decent
>always stick out due to poor posture or just looking weird
>get bullied a lot as a result
>grades go from decent to mediocre
>end up moving to a different school after 7th grade
>still stick out but Atleast don't get bullied anymore
>friend moves back to my city
>get really interested in vidya, buy myself a gaming pc with money I saved up from multiple birthdays and Christmas
>only playing vidya now
>already mediocre grades go to below average
>keep going like this, playing BF3 with my online friends
>High school part of secondary school starts
>couple girls had crushes on me, never went anywhere because of autism
>figure out that I have bad hygiene, start showering more often
>find friends one year younger then me
>always go to LAN parties with them , playing COD4 and WC3
>meanwhile friengroup from my best friend starts expanding
>a-Levels approaching
>more and more friends enter my life
>start going out with them, drinking and general partying
>finish a-Levels, move on to college
>2014

>melodrama patheticism the thread
wait till your in your thirties you ungrateful, "oh I;'m in my early 20's and have so many problems;( , shits

>be me
>have autism
such is life

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Maybe you were just fooling yourself. I know the type, friendly with everyone, but no one's true friend

>Start at primary school and do so well on grades but can't get along with anyone
>Had friends but I would not have to go to school because my undiagnosed autism made it almost impossible for me to get along with teachers
>Go to gymnasium in high school
>All is well until I'm 16 and my friendgroup starts smoking weed
>I do too and develop psychotic symptoms
>At the culmination at 17 I go fully schizo from an xtc pill and drop out of high school
>Work a delivery job living at home until 21 until I go to college
>Drop out of school because of schizo again
>Try hard to recover and land a private school gig in cybersecurity
>5 years of not studying meant I'm completely out of my league. Get super anxious about school work and start abusing drugs again when I didn't touch drugs since 17
>Get kicked out of my house
>Live in various psych wards and homeless shelters for 2.5 years since now I'm 25.
>Kicked the drugs. Looking for an online cybersecurity school. But it feels like I fucked up too much to recover
25. No place to live (in a psych ward) recently diagnosed autism with schizo and not a single degree. :')
Did have 4-5 or so GFs during all that though if anyone wants to know about my romance life

>doing scientific programming, half math half programming
>not really interested in anything, passing most of my programming exams but flunking out of all math exams
>more interested in CS GO, wasting a lot of money there
>2016
>end up dropping out from too many failed math exams
>instead start doing an apprenticeship as a Software dev, get paid 900 EUR a month to learn programming
>still heavily addicted to CS
>not really caring about the work part, always slacking off, coming in late and taking one hour naps in the work bathroom
>my employer can't legally fire me but really isn't happy
>lose my v card to a hooker
>early 2018
>finish my apprenticeship, actually get good grades in my final exam and the programming project I had to do
>still don't get taken over for obvious reasons
>lie to my parents that the company I work at go bought by another company so they had a hiring stop
>technically only the half truth
>take a month break while looking for new jobs
>find an eCommerce firm, they don't want me to develope, just need someone with technical Know-how to integrate them into new marketplaces
>bullshit my way through, somehow don't spill my spaghetti all over the place
>get hired on the spot, offer me my asking Salary
>doing my job, they seem happy with me, just criticize my poor social skills
>start working on my social skills, get much better grades on that side on the review one year later
>been working at company for 2 years now with no pay raise
>feeling completely underpaid at this point, my integrations alone have made my company 7 digits in revenue
>ask for more, really reluctant but they finally agree
>still not that happy with pay eat it up for now
>do even more integrations, company makes even more money with that
>stellar performance reviews both on technical as well as the social side
>start course for project Management certificate, sponsored by the state due to high grades during apprenticeship
>Corona Happens

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>move to home office full time
>starting to feel financially stable enough, paid off all outstanding debt
>start actually saving a good 1k EUR a month
>still grinding at work
>doing good progress on my projects, leadership still happy
>year passes, Corona still not over
>again ask for a raise, tell them I want to make x within the next 5 years
>instead of giving me my minimum, they give me slightly below that
>more and more colleagues getting upset with pay compared to the rising revenue
>so upset that they didn't give me what I want, start looking for a new job
>finish up my project
>buy myself a new MX5 with all my savings, been my dream car since I first saw it
>may 2021
>really big company, well known eCommerce firm want me to come over
>after 4 rounds of interviews they offer me a position, I'll be moving into project management + integration from the other side
>they offer me more then I requested
>take the job
>tell old workplace that I'll be handing in my notice within a couple days
>catches them completely off guard
>tell them I was upset I didn't get what I want and that they laughed when I mentioned my actual goal
>tell them I won't be the last one to quit, for the same reasons
>outcry actually so bad I get called into a hour long meeting with all three CEOs to discuss why I'm leaving
>they match my current offer from new company, decline
>officially quit my job at the end of July, still have a lot of overtime and untaken vacation time, so almost have entire august off
>start new job in September
>kinda happy with it, already passed probationary period with flying colors
>looking to get assigned bigger projects to increase my salary even further

>25 yo, driving a decent car, well off financially, still no gf

We have similar life stories

>Be institutionalized
>Worst mental ward of the country
>Spend 3 months there and come out as a vegetable
>One year later, my mind comes back I'm homeless and have severe memory loss
>Get appartment and start taking acting class
>Become a top student while memory of friends and family betraying me comes back
>Got many movies lined up about to shoot the final scene of a short I written and directed by myself
>Some drugged up hobo breaks my jaw with a brass knuckle on my way to the set
>Now deformed, can't be an actor anymore
>All that work and nothing to show for it
>Nuclear warfare incoming and still a fucking friendless virgin

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I was a pretty smart kid. But also...pretty dumb.
By the time I started to wise up, it was too late.
The meds I was put on were making things worse. If they gave me anything, it should really have been ADHD meds. Not antidepressants.

Anyway, it's hard to really think through it all and kind of boring. I don't really value my life or myself as a person. It's the story I know best but it's also like going over the plot of a movie that was shit and you always knew was shit and that you can reasonably expect others to think is shit.

I've been thinking about just roping. The more I think about it and break away from old modes of thinking that were instilled, the more I see it is not innately tragic or negative or undesirable.