Do you like stimulating your tiny white boy clitty imagining yourself as a woman? Do you get off while wearing girly clothes? Do you wish to be a little and weak BBC-worshipping girl? Do you ride a black rubber cock while listening to the hypnosis and sissy trainers, dressed as a woman? Then, welcome!
You guarantee? Man im gay as fuck but I dont know if I really am. I have been into this sissy thing since I was 12 and even before that I very strongly reacted to wanting to be a girl, clothes and men. Its tough. I repressed it all because I had no real outlet. At times I would take womens clothes and put them on but im 26 now and its obviously too late for all that. Its genuinely made me suicidally depressed because this is the one thing ive always always wanted but I knew it was bad. Im 6'4" so I never really had a chance with it. But I cant get excited by girls. Even trans girls are too feminine for me. But I dont think im exactly gay. I look at gay porn but im not attracted to a lot of the stuff gays are. Its very very confusing.
Is no fap real? Like please dont fuck with me whats the truth? The majority of people say its a joke and masturbation is healthy. I coom like twice a day on average. Can I really reset my brain? Will I find women attractive again? Are women not all two faced witches who id be better without? Can I find peace outside of sexuality and love? I want to be like a monk with a pure focused tranquility but im the furthest thing from that and im not sure its real. Most people say I should just try and fuck a guy and I would if I could. But I dont know how I would feel getting old and I worry that being with a guy would make me hate my lanky body even more. I want something more than shamefully satisfying fetishes but I might kill myself over not even being able to.
Ayden Morgan
How is your relationship with your father and family in general. What was your childhood like.
Kevin Morales
Yea nofap works, within 2 months you'll find women attractive again
Nathaniel Parker
I don't know what your sexuality is or how it will effect you in that way, but I can tell you that you're being pathetic and wasting a lot of time by masturbating twice daily. You're clearly fucked up and need to change your lifestyle, so consider trying it, it won't hurt you.
Blake Sullivan
My father used to scare me and call me a little shit. Id run to my mom to hide and they would fight making me feel responsible. Hes outrageously successful. He worked at the pentagon and all sorts of shit. I could never be anything like him. Hes into guns and im into artsy stuff like music and poetry. We chat but he interupts me when I speak. It always feels like small talk. Ill say some random lame thing and hell tell some amazing story about a funny and cool experience he had. If I wasnt his son I would be less than dirt to him. My mom is a child who had to raise me while dad was off doing more important things in other countries. I never brushed my teeth or did homework. I stayed up all night drinking soda and my mom bought pizza instead of cooking. She was addicted to opiates and would scream at me all the time. She knew I never loved her growing up. Now that they are old and my dad is retired its a lot calmer but the damage is done. I get high with my mom and talk to my dad about the weather. I also have a ftm trans brother who is more autistic but sociable than me. I am uncomfortable with their gayness because it makes me frustrated they can do all that and I cant. Everyone still treats him like a girl so I still have to do all the lifting and gross or exhausting labor.
My childhood was pretty fucked up in a neglected way. I was on all sorts of meds because I was failing in school and I had bad smelly clothes and no social skills so I was ignored. All my friends were just people who kept me around to laugh at. I had therapists but my mom said if I told them anything they would take me and my sister away and id never see my family again. She told the doc the pills were working and my grades were up even though I still wasnt doing any schoolwork. She said that to make them increase my adderal dosage so she could get high off of it im pretty sure.
Christian Gonzalez
Kino life
Jack Fisher
But it seems like a ton of effort for something academics say is not real. I joke about it being the Jews trying to destroy masculinity or because academia cant say anything that people dont want to hear. But are there any real studies that show no fap can help anxiety or depression? Or that someone as far gone as me can feel love for a girl again and accept it? I worry because that seems like fighting what I am but im obviously really confused and trooning would be a huge mistake so I cant really accept my desires. I feel very repressed and everyone can see it, I had this one guy talk to me for like 5 minutes when I used to work and he walked out of the room loudly saying "this man is sexually repressed!" Kek. I want to do no fap but I worry thats just more repression and if I cant be mostly sure its good for me I know my addict brain will say im wasting effort and just coom for comfort.
Mason Gomez
If only. I get jealous of people who had more general abuse because it sounds like im complaining about staying up all night gaming, drinking soda and eating pizza my whole childhood. Which like sure thats what I wanted to do but I never grew up or improved at anything except for guitar which is just a meme.
Cooper Miller
Number 11?! What the fuck? You need ANOTHER faggot general thread?
Leo Cooper
I'd trade to have had your life in a second. Imagine being given space during your childhood instead of having your primary caretaker physically attack you
Brody Sanchez
Where are you at in life now? I bet you became a b
Anthony Baker
Based thread. This shit is addictive as fuck. I want to spend hours rubbing my tiny caged dick to sissy audios from mistress Stella.
Gavin Clark
etter person than I did.
Jackson Williams
I'm a manlet incel that my university won't hire because I can't keep a 2gpa in an english major, after trying and failing to learn Japanese. I steal alcohol from my parents because I can't buy it yet. I still drag myself to catholic mass to keep up the pretense that I'm catholic so that my dad doesn't get pissy and cause headaches. I masturbate to internet porn about twice a day. My latest thing was to have a drawn out suicide of eating obnoxious amounts of fast food and not exercising but I can't keep it up and decided I don't want to die like that anyway so I'm in the process of losing weight
Jack Gomez
And its not like I didnt get screamed at daily or threatened to be beaten. I was a dirty malnourished child who everyone talked down to all day long. My escape was also what made it so I could never get out of that situation.
And no one gives a fuck about it because I didnt have bruises. Sure my teeth are all rotted away but I will never get acknowledged. I cant tell anyone about my childhood even though it fucked me up because its shameful and embarrassing. Atleast people will think youre tough cause you had to box with daddy.
Alexander Anderson
Dude. You dont want to trade with me. When I was your age I had a psychotic break from taking a bunch of adderal and a thousand milligrams of dxm. I was suffered insane depersonalization and derealization. I had a two second memory and nasty stutter from brain damage. The psychotic break made me so afraid of psychosis that I developed ocd.
I dropped out of highschool and you are going to university. And you are young. I steal my dads liquor too but Im 26. I havent talked to a human outside of my family and cashiers in months. I have an opiate, nicotine, and alcohol addiction that takes constant disgusting maintenance. I always, always feel like vomiting. And I cant even smile because that brain damage destroyed the muscles on the right side of my face. My right eye sags like I had a stroke. Im 26 and its mostly over. Do you really want to trade with me? I would do it just to feel like a human again.
Robert Sullivan
I was talking about the childhood bit. I absolutely would have traded with you. Then I could have just done my own thing, which wouldn't involve any drugs because I don't care or want them.
Mentally, I didn't even finish gradeschool. I've been completely zoned out and depersonalized since I was like 3 because of the beatings
Michael Anderson
>I want to spend hours rubbing my tiny caged dick to sissy audios from mistress Stella. How do you rub it if it is in a cage?
Carter Price
You do not know what depersonalization is kek. Im sure you had some of it. I acknowledge that you experienced bad shit. But my face literally disappeared if I looked in the mirror. I could not read because letters were not a symbol for meaning anymore. I was so terrified the world would disappear that I would lay on the floor trying to hold on the the ground. I would grab objects and repeat to myself that it was real because I felt so separate from reality.
You dont get my childhood without the drugs kek. Can I get your life but with 10million dollars and a beautiful wife? My childhood was awful but you are right its not physical abuse and torture. The reason its so bad is because of how it ruins your future. Read up on trauma and childhood abuse and you will see Im a statistic. I was berated everyday by teachers and parents and other kids all day long telling me how worthless I was while everyone approved. You dont get that and the other shit like getting your brain fucked on psychotropics for adults and then go "time to live a bright successful life" you go on knowing you are dirt and hating yourself. You do anything for recognition and comfort. I took drugs then because I finally was around people who felt like group. I had people to smoke weed with. I had guys to black out with. People to take all sorts of pills. When I tripped on a bunch of acid I was cool. I was literally losing my mind though. Thats all predictable text book behavioral conditioning man. Its inevitable.
