university sucks so fuckin bad its unreal, how are you guys holding up?
lost all will after i failed 1 class in the first semester of the first year now im sitting here out of courtesy and since i dont know where else i should go
and in terms of finding a girlfriend i had no luck either, its a lot easier if you drink and party but i dont do that. atleast i got some life expierience?
>how are you guys holding up?
terrible, just fuckin terrible.
>lost all will after i failed 1 class
same
>im sitting here out of courtesy
same
>atleast i got some life expierience?
don't kid yourself.
my college nights are just loud music, suicidal thoughts, and self-harm.
Develop social skills. Consciously.
You can go in your university and ask random students about a course. Ask about the time or a classroom location if that's too hard.
If you don't want to speak to people from you uni yet go to a shop or something and ask the employees questions.
Interact with people. I bet that's what you're lacking.
Also if you get a chance to go to party or whatever please say yes. Even if "you don't drink" it's still fun to see others have a good time, knowing that you're not missing anything because you're there.
Also don't care about love partners right now. Just care about making friends and having a good time.
When my uni first started I was also pretty depressed etc. Thankfully I met some dudes and hanged around so I didn't feel lonely. I'm still an unsociable faggot but I'm improving a lot and the idea that I constantly get better is really keeping me occupied from the stupid thoughts you guys go through.
>lost all will after i failed 1 class in the first semester
I went to a top university and got a 4.0. How in the fuck do you fail a class in your *first* semester? That's the easiest semester. You must be unbelievably retarded. It sounds like you're not cut out for higher education.
my problem isn't the social aspect, i've been socially gifted since childhood, i'm the guy that starts the conversation. my problem is the meaninglessness of life as a whole and college in particular. depression really fucked me up, even the meds don't help.
god, you must be fun to be around. go back to sucking the dean's dick fag
>meaninglessness of life
That's exactly why you shouldn't be fucking depressed.
Nothing matters so just have a good time bro. There are a lot of things that keep you occupied and they mainly have to do with your interests. But if you're really sad you get go hang around with some friends and have a good time. Do not overthink it and just have a good time. That usually helps.
>You did well so u must have sucked up
No, retard. Undergraduate studies are not that hard. Just do a bare minimum of studying and finish your assignments. If you can't handle that level of responsibility I don't know how you hope to ever hold down a job or accomplish anything.
based smart-user.
The meds didn't help because you're not depressed, you're just lazy. The meaninglessness of life is just how you justify your own inability to discipline yourself.
You may change your mind as you progress, but frankly, dropping out was the only thing that put my mind at rest. You may need time before you're ready to start anew.
Apathy, user. Disillusionment will cause that.
that's the thing, i don't have intrests. not music, not games, not relationships, not politics. everything is boring as fuck. even people fucking bore me, i can't stand talking to anyone for more than 15 mins. my mood doesn't change, terrible 24/7. all i do is daydream killing myself.
Not a single interest? You're here on Any Forums, so I'm guessing browsing the website gives you something.
Quit porn and maybe your brain will start producing dopamine again
i'm at the top of my major, comp engineering. kys fag. depression =/= just lazy.
boomer mentality
haven't fapped in 2 years
i have nothing else to do, and most of this board is just depressed fag so i feel at home.
>i'm at the top of my major, comp engineering.
After failing a class? I doubt it
>depression =/= just lazy
That's implied by what I said, or else my statement wouldn't make sense. I would think to be at the top of your major you'd have to have some reading comprehension.
not great
I work full time/go to school full time
Got a pretty fucking nasty rash and started scratching the shit out of myself for about a week, went to the doctor and he said it was probably stress related. He gave me some meds and it cleared, but now I have a swollen lymph node the size of an acorn, it hurts so bad that i cant even rest my arm at my side, and im terrified I have cancer causing me even more stress, meaning i have to go back to the doctor at some point. I fucking hate this shit bro.
What kind of humour do you have?
>After failing a class? I doubt it
it was my freshman year. i was undiagnosed at the time, so i didn't do anything but stay and bed. got diagnosed, got some meds, now i can go to class and study, but still want to kms. you win some you lose some.
idk, my own? i don't laugh much, but when i do, it's mostly just my internal dialogue.
But you do laugh, right? So it's not like your dopamine receptive are defective, wouldn't you think?
it's like an instinct. my mouth laughs, but my brain's not a fan. so even if i'm dying laughing, i can stop it instantly, because it's not genuine. i haven't genuinely laughed since highschool. i think it's just my brain coping.
Sounds like depression then, you should go to a doctor.
went, got meds, didn't help. changed meds like three times. i think i'm just doomed to barely survive. it is what it is
This may sound like a meme, but it has some truth. Have you tried getting into exercise? Going for a run in the morning?
i know it will improve my life because it did in the past, but i don't feel like it. depression is like having the world's weight on my shoulders 24/7. i don't remember the last time i breathed a sigh of relief. i used to go to the gym 6 days a week back in highschool.