/feels/ Bar - Sunday Edition

>What can I get you?

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>drinking alone on father's day

Listen man, however appealing that idea may be my retard kid (autism unironically) wakes up with the sun and stays at a 9/10 on the "angry for no reason" scale until 8pm when he goes to sleep. I can't "relax" or have "fun".

I’ll have something laced with fentanyl or ricin please.

My gf who is also my boss in work is turning out to be a walking red flag. I’m not attracted to her and do not think she is a very nice person. Yet I’m stuck with a gun to my head playing the perfect bf role. I have to take her out to dinner tomorrow and she will likely stay over at mine before we head to work together the next day. Fucking kill me.

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brah.....how old and when did they get diagnosed? what happens on a day to day (and I'm pretty sure it's not the Any Forums 'autism' that gets thrown around
>t. unaware

how did you get into this situation? I'm currently considering dating a co-worker, but the old adage "don't shit where you eat" is keeping me away.

mental fitness is as important as physical fitness user

Fucking cope.
What "mental fitness"? This thread is just losers dumping their issues with no one responding to each other. It's woman tier

Diagnosed at 3 years old. He's now 7. Still nonverbal, still a little prick, still a 24/7 buzzkill with all his OCD routines and soul sucking nonsense. The only reason I lift is to stay in shape and be strong enough to keep him in check when he's a teenager and adult. Have you ever seen the strength of a autist in full sperg-mode? Shits terrifying.

I blew my chance with a girl who saw me as the greatest man in the world, all because of my anger.

I have to live with the fact that someone I was about 3 months from proposing to - who was also about a month from proposing to me is now nothing but another person in my life.

It's bad enough that I lost 4 years to someone I still love, it's even worse to hear "I don't love you anymore, and I promise that I did" while being shown a quote for a custom engagement ring she was going to buy for me.

As time goes on, things she said reply through my head - and I'm fixating on all the bad stuff.

I want to kill myself.

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I don’t know bro, this is the third coworker I’ve been with. She just liked me straight away and I made a little bit of effort with her because I was bored and I like female attention then I felt obligated to progress things. I blinked and I was in a relationship with a coworker once again. Then she got a promotion and is now my fucking boss.

>cope
Everyone needs to vent, sometimes they just need to post something anonymously on the internet knowing someone else read it.

I hope you're living a blessed life user.

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Been able to control my emotions more easily. I can stop an anxiety attack before it happens by watching my thoughts and kinda "distance" myself from them, as if I can physically move away from them and watch from a vantage point. I'm still suicidal, I think about it at least once a day, but I'm improving. I'm scared I'll kill myself out of impulse though.

I'm sorry man...I want to be a dad, but I would probably crack under the pressure if I had a child with special needs. For what it's worth, you're a bigger man than I.
Yeah I've heard it gets pretty full on especially during puberty and all the horny / hormone shit goes on.
How is the relationship with your partner / wife? How did you deal with it / cope / feel after you found out the diagnosis? How did it change your expectations / hopes that you had as a father?

same brah
gets better with time, promise. hang in there, don't do anything stupid.
in my case, the anger came from not being able to communicate that my needs weren't being met.
What is it for you?

>Everyone needs to vent
Do it to your friends, retard.

fuck...how badly do you need the job / money? sounds pretty dicey brah, keep your head on a swivel.
I'm not sure whether she values you / her future with you or her career more - what's your take on it?
oh and did the lack of attraction / redflags come after she was your boss or before it?

Who you got helping you cuzzo?

Faggot general

>How is the relationship with your partner / wife? How did you deal with it / cope / feel after you found out the diagnosis? How did it change your expectations / hopes that you had as a father?

Estrogen heavy language. My relationship is stronger than ever we are a team. I cope by lifting and treating my body like the temple it is, I cried after he was diagnosed...one of my sons whose sole purpose is to carry on then pass on my legacy is incapable. I'm lucky to have other NT sons to do this. I don't have expectations for him, I just want him to be happy and prepared for life without me when I'm gone.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this. Have you taken him to an OT (Occupational Therapist) or seen any learning difficulty specialists?

my anger was more of an overflowing sadness cup. if it built up too much without me being able to express it - I got angry. The cup filled up when she got to express her frustrations and anger and took it out on me or chose to argue something menial.

I never damaged anything, I never laid my hands on her. I got angry in the car once and whacked the dash when we were parked - she says that's the moment she stopped loving me.

Now all I want to do is be held while I cry by someone who loves me, and I don't even have that in my family.

I'm glad you've found a way to cope - I'm not sure this is the best long-term method but I believe in you man

>Who you got helping you cuzzo?
I do have a small support network, thankfully. I don't want to burden them too much. I taught myself the mental stuff after a really rough patch and during covid, but I'm so behind in life at 26. Feels insurmountable.

He does speech, OT and PT 3 days a week. Insurance covers one visit a week, I pay out of pocket for the others. He uses a Dynavox to speak. It's summer so there is no school to ship him off to 5 days a week. Every summer since he's been born has been a nightmare.

I'm glad you're at least trying - I've known a few PT, OT & Speechies and they frequently explain how difficult it is for the parents.

In AU we don't have a big "summer break". They get 2 weeks every like 12 weeks, and then 4 weeks over Christmas.

I cannot begin to understand how difficult it must be for you, and I truly hope it gets better.

Everyone has a burden to carry in life. I'll be fine.

don't worry - she wasn't the one, you'll find yourself in a relationship soon again.
I learned a couple of things from the breakup of my engagement
>humility
>no human will give me the love I need
take all the time you need to laze around, grieve whatever. you'll eventually come around man. but yeah - relationship didn't sound like it would've been a good marriage anyway.

as a 35yo boomer, let me tell you that you will be fine. what makes you feel so behind? what feels insurmountable?

I don't want to patronise you, so I'll just wish you all the best man, thanks for sharing. it's humbling to hear of the everyday crosses that people bear.
I will also say, move to Aus brah, all that shit is free here lol. He will also get care / housing when you can no longer take care of him, serz.