Day starts having another mental breakdown over not being a woman again

>day starts having another mental breakdown over not being a woman again
>transition isn't on the table because of age, genetics and personal incompetence
i guess i just failed as a person

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get your shit together you dumb faggot
buy a bike or something and use it

>>transition isn't on the table
Transition is always on the table. You don't have to pads to everyone so long as you're true to you and the people that matter to you

Start drawing hentai
The japanese lonely men in their 40s are all doing tthis

Just accept that you were born male and you can't change your genetics. Live as a feminine male, thats fine, just dont butcher yourself.

Imagine settling down on the lowest ugliest form of crossdressing fetishism

Play otome games. It allows you to express the fantasy of being a woman and desired.

>transition isn't on the table because
it isnt on the table because medical science isnt there yet.

Sorry about your mental illness user
Have you tried a psychiatrist?
Also suffering from gender dysphoria doesn't make you a failure.
It is just something to overcome.
Your challenges in life are more than some will face, and less than others.

>buy a bike or something and use it
already bought one. i exercised yesterday.
i would not pass and i don't think i could pull it off. it's difficult and i'm not someone who can accomplish difficult things
i have seriously considered that. my current coping mechanism is to try really hard at my career to suppress all my emotions and replace them with the stress of the rat race
>a feminine male
i don't feel very feminine
are there any good ones?
even if it were, i don't think i have what it takes to undergo it
>Also suffering from gender dysphoria doesn't make you a failure.
i don't think i have real gender dysphoria, it feels more like i want to get rid of my masculine aspect, not that i don't feel i have one.
you are right though, i should seek therapy but i haven't had the chance to

Idk user, I'm in the same pickle as you are. I decided to give myself a test of not masturbating for a month to see if these feelings are just fetishisation and porn addiction or I'm truly gender dysphoric.

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you need a lot more than a month to reverse the effects of bad parenting and pornography addiction.

>t feels more like i want to get rid of my masculine aspect, not that i don't feel i have one.
that isnt really that uncommon honestly, people can develop inferiority complexes about that all the time especially if they are shorter than average. its nothing you should be ashamed of, but you are i get it cant help thinking that way i have similar thoughts regarding my own mental illness.
>you are right though, i should seek therapy but i haven't had the chance to
normally i'd say you should but most therapists just default recommend transitioning without reading actual studies about it, the pros and cons, discussing radical acceptance which is what you should be looking into.

being trans is suffering right now as long as we dont have ways of letting people actually change their gender. whats done now is no different from lobotomies carried out 70+ years ago. but you just have to accept who you are and live with that vs living a forced lie and doing irreparable damage to your own body.

Fuck off and stop assuming things you know nothing about. I have wonderful parents, I can tell you that much :)

>not masturbating for a month to see if these feelings are just fetishisation and porn addiction or I'm truly gender dysphoric.
i often do that as well since i don't really have that high of a sex drive. it really just leaves me more confused about everything.
masturbating in general makes me feel like complete shit so i don't like doing it
maybe i'll find one that resonates with me
>especially if they are shorter than average
i'm pretty comfortable with my height and i've never had a problem with mine. but i have noticed that a lot of guys around me make a huge deal about height

You are actually somehow perfect.
Become a narcissist and live in the conflict.
lies become real, that's how feels work

i don't think i follow, user

just transition even if you cant pass just boymode or manmode at least mentally youll feel better

>at least mentally youll feel better
i'm not 100% sure that i would

you most likely wont, thats terrible advice.

look up for yourself side effects of hormones, of surgery if you go that route, of people who have positive experiences with it and people who have negative experiences with it. try to look up medical studies on it as well. if you go to a therapist, they will do none of the above, they'll just say 'ok' and fast track you to transitioning. if you want to after all of that, your body your choice i hope it makes you happy. but just dont blindly rush into it.