Empty even suicidal thoughts since taking the redpill

My life was ok before, but after taking the redpill at 20(24 now) , it really went downhill. Not all of that is due to the redpill however.
>still addicted to porn and fapping since I was 14
>very shy and low self esteem
>not disciplined. Quit the gym after 7 years(only did 2 years consistently)
>Virgin who still lives at home
>job sucks( I dont want to work at all, I feel like Im wasting my life)
>overweight
I don't know what to do anymore. I know that stuff like that might not belong on Any Forums but I hope that some good fren might help me out.

Thanks for reading, frens

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That's a phase we've all been through after taking the redpill, user. It'll wear out after a while.

cry somewhere else

>very shy and low self esteem
Why should you give a fuck about what other people think of you?

That being said stop being a fat faggot. All you need to do is literally nothing. Literally stop shoveling food into your fat disgusting mouth. It's that easy.

>I realized I was living the life of a lazy degenerate
>I continued to live this way
>Life feels empty now
WOW, WHAT A HEADSCRATCHER, user! A WONDER WHAT ON EARTH COULD POSSIBLY BE CAUSING THIS?

How long did it take?
already asked /adv/ for help but didn't get a response, Mr. Memeflag

>How long did it take?
For me it's kinda special because it coincided with depression, so I couldn't give you a good number. I'm only coming out of depression nowadays, been like that for 5 to 6 years.

You're right. I tried bettering myself, but the "I start tomorrow" mentality is always catching up to me.

not my problem

Keep in mind too, that the brain isn't even fully formed until 25. I was in a similar situation when I was your age, I had existential dread for about 6 months, suffering serious depression. I'd think about killing myself, but also of the implications of doing that.

The one bit of solace I can give you though, is if you manage to overcome these thoughts, and deal with the nature of reality, life actually becomes significantly more enjoyable. You may want to pick up some books on Stoicism and Cynicism. I'm 35 now, and while my conditions still aren't optimal, I'd say my general happiness has never been higher.

stop coming to this shithole, its only demoralization propaganda, no redpills here anymore

In all seriousness, here's what you do:

Fuck tomorrow. Tomorrow isn't guaranteed. For all you know, this is the last day you get to spend alive. Maybe you die from getting hit by a car or a from a gas leak while you sleep. What do you want people's last thoughts of you to be, if such a thing happens?

Treat every day like its your last day, and you want people to think well of you, and the game changes.

>Virgin who still lives at home
Sex is way overrated. I've fucked dozens of women and to be honest I wish I had waited and gotten married first. Still not married myself at almost twice your age.
>not disciplined.
There are many forms of discipline. Find what you like best. That could take a while so be patient with yourself.
>job sucks( I dont want to work at all, I feel like Im wasting my life)
Most jobs do suck. I thought I made it working at a to 50 dotcom in a high rise. Then they made the job suck. I bailed because anyone out to do that to someone who's happy can never be happy themselves. Don't surround yourself with these kinds of people, even if it means going it alone.
>overweight
So? Goes back to sex and SMV. Think about something else. Find something else besides sex which holds an equivalent amount of fascination.
>very shy and low self esteem
Get the above sorted out and shyness won't matter. Your self esteem will improve by leaps and bounds.
Hope you're not a 1pbtid, OP.

Keep going buddy, you got this. Do you have any books that you can recommend? And should I include praying as well?
maybe. I think it also contributes a bit to being blackpilled
Thanks user, that hit home

>Stoicism
Love Stoicism. Starship Troopers is also highly recommended.

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It's your age. You're at a transition point. Time to make some changes.

boo hoo you absolute faggot. go back to being a porno addcited loser then goy

>Do you have any books that you can recommend?
Start with Starship Troopers. It's essentially Stoicism packaged for young boys. Short and easy to digest. From there, you should be in a mindset to where you're primed and ready to wrap your head around books like Meditations (Marcus Aurelius) or Letters from a Stoic (Seneca).

Appreciate it, user
I want to make changes, yet I fail going to the gym consistently, NoFap and NoPorn and other stuff. I think I need discipline

you should only be posting on Any Forums until you are a healthy weight or muscular. until they shut the fuck up and read and work out

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Have a second for the inconvenience.

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Thanks, fren

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