Unapologetic racist and Nazi

Moving to Germany for work for half a year or so. I have zero experience in self censurship and not revealing power level. My entire family is nazi lovers and they raised me like that. All my friend and neighbors share similar sentiment.
How bad will it be if I be myself in Germany? What can go wrong? Someone said you cant even say deutchland deutchland uber alles or say that jews are scum.

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>My entire family is nazi lovers

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You can't even think about anything else. You bring this with you everywhere you go. You shit up every thread you enter. Imagine who you could have been if your mind wasn't raped. Now you're a nonperson. A servant of evil. The internet took your brain and replaced it with a big black cock. This sort of thing only happens to the weakest people. You didn't have a chance.

wake up every day and remind yourself that gul dukat did nothing wrong

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they will just smile at you, it is always funny to see foreigners living out what we are only allowed to think.
enjoy the time and behave yourself not like a nigger

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You are a Ausländer, you can say pretty much what you want as long as it's not again (((them))).
Just tell them they are racist if they criticize you.

If you look like a german, be silent in public and loud in private.
If you look like an immigrant, just be loud, they can't do shit.

My granpa was in ss and his parents were from somewhere in germany, think silesia or something like that, I dont feel like I have any german in me though, im a proud croat, but I like you guys, like war buddies on good team like, I dont wanna larp as you guys, not me. I just hate kikes and commies.

>Just tell them they are racist if they criticize you
Kek, noted, thiz will be hilarious.
Gas the kikes!
Nein, nein dont say that!
You are racist! Respect my tradition!
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Every time I see a fat woman in person, I'm tempted to rape her. The temptation correlates directly with how fat she is.
For example, yesterday I was on an evening light rail and an unfortunately ugly but massively fat woman boarded. She was at least 500 pounds, with stretch clothes that showed her massive bulk and fat seeping out of it everywhere. Her shirt was essentially a bra. Her massive belly hung out and she took up two seats, her bare belly skin touching the armrests at either side. Her ass was poking out of her pants. Her arms were grotesquely fat, easily the size of a thin woman's waist. Even her fat feet were bursting out of her flats. To make matters worse, She was the only one in that cart with me, and the temptation was flipped up to an 11.
I got up and approached her, hyperventilating and unable to swallow my saliva. I reached her and, with a trembling voice said hi. My whole body was shaking uncontrollably at this point. I was sweating, and my heartbeat was loud in my ears. I had a massive erection that was clearly obscene in my stretch shorts. She looked nervous.
I think she knew the evil deeds in my heart. Luckily, the lightrail slowed down to the next stop and a small crowd of people were waiting to get into my cart. I ran out as fast as I could, despite this not being my stop, hid behind a bush under the staircase and fapped twice in a row. I made a mess, too. I didn't care: at least I didn't rape.
So how do you deal with these urges? What psychological tricks do you use to stop yourself? I do NOT want to rape, but it's getting harder and harder every day as women just keep growing fatter and fatter. Once they reach a certain level of fatness, they can barely move. It seems like it'd be so easy to rape them, even if it's not oral, vaginal, or anal; instead just raping their rolls.
For the most part, I'm just trying to avoid temptation. I stay home, but this isn't living anymore. I need to be stronger, but I feel my will shrinking every day.
Help!