As soon as I discovered what it was like to jerk off while on amphetamine, I didn't want to do anything else. Could decide that I absolutely would not do it "this time" but it was impossible. When I was at a party, I snuck straight away with my mobile phone to the first best toilet to get a dose of porn, then straight home. My record is probably almost 3 days of more or less constant viewing of porn. Interspersed betwen regular free porn sites with a porn blog of my own (example bdsmlr or tumblr a few years ago) and posting sex ads on different forums.
It was on amphetamine that I developed my sissy persona. Bought lots of underwear, wig, high heels. Could photograph and film myself for hours and then edit everything for at least as long and then post on various forums and follow all the reactions. Or create user accounts on various CAM sites and do various morally questionable things in front of strangers. Finally took the step to meet the guys I got in touch with via sex ads. Even though I had a girlfriend. Jerk off for 12 hours, then ride my bike with stayups under my pants. Jump into a stranger's car, strip off everything but my underwear, and suck off his dick until it squirted. Ride my bike home, then continue jerking off for another 24 hours.
It's an unstoppable horny freak that wakes up as soon as the amphetamine takes effect. I don't really understand why it happened. (I know what happens purely chemically in the body). Some don't seem to be affected. I lost my mind completly. This is probably at least 8 years ago. Thinking back and getting confused. Hell how sick you can be
>I don't really understand why it happened. Dopamine gives you a sense of reward and motivation, so when you do amphetamines you get an artificially high level of dopamine in your brain so it makes you feel like whatever pops into your head is a great idea and would be really exiting to do. So basically you're watching porn you see a girl sucking a dick and because that's now what you're thinking about your mind will say "wow being a girl and sucking a dick would be so awesome, I want to do that, I'm need to go be a girl and suck a dick!" Drugs distort you're sense of reality. They make you feel good, and because people generally go by what makes them feel good since for the most part your instincts will be calibrated to guide you towards healthy behaviors, when everything feels good because you're on drugs you'll just do anything. This is also why drug addicts always live in extremely messy apartments and their lives are a mess, because the drugs are always telling them that everything is just fine.
Hunter Jenkins
>Jerk off for 12 hours >Ride my bike home, then continue jerking off for another 24 hours. > I lost my mind completly. and that, fren, is called gooning nowadays. you are not alone in your degeneracy actually
David Green
Sounds like you're in that mouse utopia experiment
Joshua White
Nah your just a fag Yeah I get super horny for women
Usually just ends up me stripping my gf and forcing my cock into her various holes
I did meth in my early 20s I can relate, I would have 24+ hrs fappatons, it was great
Ryder James
Based
Gabriel Lewis
Larp
Austin Sanders
Not really the amphetamine class of drugs hits the same pathways as lust and arousal at the same time as making your genetitals feel 100x better
You can get pretty weird if you don't have a solid sexual identity
Jack Thomas
>1 post by this ID
Jace Morris
damn you gay
Brayden Jackson
So OP is a literal faggot with other words? He liked having gay hardcore buttsex with men and sucking them so hard that he swallowed their dickmilk
Isaac Lee
can relate... adderall was doing that to me constantly horny... fapping 3 to 4 times a day when fuckin my wife id cum instantly got addicted to junk food social media etc. fuck drugs lord jesus is true salvation
>Drugs are fine if you have rules and standards Sure... But it's hard to have rules and standards when you're on drugs.
Owen Price
He did that while dressed up as a woman. He's a tranny faggot and that's even worse
Hudson Ramirez
It's like 65% gay.
Xavier Morris
cancers befall
Sebastian Cruz
It's just AGP bruh
Nolan Cruz
Based I'm a sissy faggot myself.
Wyatt Perry
What a horrible thread
A nigger death thread died for this
Justin Murphy
I got to the point where I couldn't fap anymore because my arms hurt so much with real bad nerve pain or carpal tunnel. That's when I started sticking things up my ass. Never took regular amphetamine, just methamphetamine. The first time I snorted meth i didnt know how much I was supposed to do so I ripped a fat line like I would with coke and I was shaking and twitching for 24 hours stuck in a porn watching trance. I think the fact that these drugs make your dick soft leads to a lot of sissy tendencies. Plus, you're always adding new novelty. OP sounds like a pretty extreme case.
Gabriel Jenkins
hah youre a faggot
Aiden Lopez
Stimulantes are for ugly people. They inevitably lead to crypt keeper body types and prison. Weed, mdma, and alcohol are my preferred drugs. Maybe psychedellics if im not around lame people. Fuck stimulants like crack and meth. I like looking young.
Ryan Gray
This happens to me with weed only
Matthew Campbell
>could have accepted Jesus Christ as his savior >decides to do a bunch of gay shit instead Many such cases.
Mason Parker
Sometimes I put on a miniskirt and makeup then I cum from dildos hitting my prostate while looking at BLACKED porn.
Zachary Taylor
>youre a faggot Yeap. One of the best. Dude doesnt know who i am. What a fucking loser.
Caleb Gray
Nah, it's cross-dressing. That's different, Madison Cawthorn did it and he is basically like a chad. A lot of straight guys cross-dress all the time, it is a good way of letting off steam.
Christian Ramirez
>Sometimes I put on a miniskirt and makeup then I cum from dildos hitting my prostate while looking at BLACKED porn.
>dildos Try a real loving penis. I once came without touching my dick. I didnt know i could do that. Its was quite an experience. The orgasm was intense enough but then learning this about myself in the middle of an orgasm was ...wow.
Cooper Baker
Lol
Wyatt Sullivan
taking a fist full of addy XRs always had me watching gore videos til 4 am
Ryan Williams
Theres some guy on youtube that literally broke his back and almost became paralyzed and couldn't walk and has to live in a wheelchair because he did so much meth he couldn't tell he was getting fucked so hard and for so long by another dude that he literally broke his back and the dude felt nothing because the meth was flooding his brain with only dopamine.
Charles Morris
You sound gay. Real men rub their dicks on their friends' faces for giggles and letting off steam, not this gay shit about hitting prostate, disgusting.
John Ward
This is a copy pasta
Nathan Gomez
I've always felt as if i'm being watched even when i'm alone, i have never used drugs I probably have a condition but oh well it's too late to do anything about it now