I don't really know why am i even typing it here but whatever... if it makes me and other men in a similar situation feel better even for a bit, i have done my part.
>Im user
>Binge drinking for the last 4.5 years
>Average day around 0.5L vodka
>Health runs out
>Only 25 but drinking since 15
>Had good stats in the gym(170 bench, 280 dl, 240 sq, all kg)
>Most of the stats went to shit
>Gave up on more than 10 jobs because i cant wake up the day after drinking.
>money is running out
>To make it worse, traded crypto while being 99.9% of times drunk
>Lost around 15k, to me thats a shit load of money
>Fast forward to now
>4 days without
>First 3 days felt like fucking hell
>Slept in total maybe 6 hours
>Shortness of breath
>0 motivation
>Random body ache
>Feel weak
>Day 4
>0 withdrawal
>None of the first 3 day symptoms exists anymore.
>I feel amazing for the first time in years, i almost started crying like a little fucking faggot.
>Went to the gym
>Discover that im not that far from my pr stats
>Feels good
>Dropped trading crypto, instead DCA is the way.
>Even tho little investments, they are mentally keeping me from going x125 on a random shitcoin just because i felt like it.
>Sound gay af, try to pray, not through a random religion, just trying to talk directly to god
>maybe he hears me, maybe not, but it feels good anyway.
>Trying to improve relationship with gf
>Try to talk more
>Try to listen more
>Do some activities together
>Feels good
It doesn't mean i have won the war and conquered myself yet, but every battle i win starts to compensate for the loses that i had, and i guess thats the best that i can do.
>You can ama brothers