I have a son and wife, but no self love. Working out, playing games, doing yard work, it's all just to pass the time. They say you're supposed to love yourself before you can appreciate the love others give you. I guess that's fundamentally my problem. I derive love from others because I was never taught to love who I was. No friends to lean on, just the abyss to stare at. Doesn't help I battle cancer as well.
INB4 some fed tries to recruit me for a mass school shooting.
Shooting niggers and jews always makes me feel better
You unironically need Jesus
Unfortunately I was raised in a Christian cult. Religion and thus Jesus has been completely obliterated in my eyes. There may be a space alien, god or some other cosmic entity that is guiding or using our existence as they intend, but it doesn't have the same impact it did when I was in the cult. I also hated myself then too. Parents were zealots of the religion so they pushed it on me as my path through life as well.
Post wife’s boba and vagene
She is a TRAD type so no photos. At least I know when I am gone she wont fuck niggers. She hates them more than I do.
You have a very based wife user. No reason to be depressed. Be aware of all the things you have. Wife, children, home. Not everybody has that. That alone is reason enough to be happy isn't it?
Logically yes, but I can't get the logic side to actually change how I feel day to day. It's like it's someone else's life and I'm just playing pretend.
There there user. Validation from others is a woman thing. Don't do that. It just leaves you craving other people's approval like on obedient dog. That is no what man the thinker was meant to be. Do you or do you not have a brain, and can or can your brain not manifest ideas within itself that will change your destiny?
You are lucky, you live on a large continent and have the opportunity to still gain freedom. Stop acting like a woman and take charge of being independent now.
I guess this is how people that seemingly have it all but still commit suicide must feel. Always reminds me of the lesd singer from Linkin Park for example.
It's funny I've taken charge and made myself successful in business. The one area that I've really been able to change my destiny so to speak.
I've tried applying that same proactive attitude towards making friends or enjoying life, but I still end up with nothing. I can't seem to find the same spark of success with friends. Not in school, hobby life or work.
I think I'm better off trying to just be a loner, but I'm in a sort of purgatory where neither being a loner nor being someone trying to make friends leads to happiness.
Fuck your heretical evangelical cults. Look into the Orthodox Church and Jay Dyer on youtube.
I'm also having doubts about the meaning of life sometimes, but I push them away. Don't give in to these thoughts, for as soon as you do, they will start to consume you.
Yep bad things. But I'd imagine you are still your sons hero whether you want to admit it or not. Go enjoy time with him before the cancer gets you so he can have happy memories
My dad's a piece of shit who fucked our lives up but doesn't care because God forgives him or whatever.
I'll consider it but remember my religion touted itself as the end all be all. It had debunk answers to all other religions. It really tried hard to obliterate any sense of religious freedom through indoctrination.
Sounds like my mother.
My gf stole my 5 week old daughter and lied to the cops and said I threatened her. Haven’t seen my baby for over a week. Quit my job that I hate and I’m about to start my life over moving in with my mom and declaring bankruptcy at 33 so I can focus on paying off my student loans.
Don’t be down user. It could always be worse.
Father's day is a time to spend with your family. Make it a good day with your kid. Play some games with them, especially outside, ball or frisbee or on a bike. Whatever it takes to make a memory. Your kid WILL remember it. Believe me. Go outside.
How do you push something away that's been a part of your personality since elementary? I look so fucking depressed even as a third grader. It never let up.
I have a Chad body but the mind of a fat hermit.
My kid is two, nearing three. Wife is at work. I tried taking him outside today but he was so resistant. Just thrashed and wanted to play with his toys.
People are selfish and self interested beings. Also, intelligence is rarer than you think. What makes you think a friend will solve your problems? I thought the same a long time ago and they never did and never have. Friendship is transient and temporary. People are friends for convenience.
If you want to enjoy life but aren't it's a problem with your perspective. I hate life, I always have, however I have been able to adjust perspective to the point where I accept it will never be what I want it to be, and also that I don't care that it is or not, but I can still enjoy the experience of life for what it is, good and bad. Also, I know it will only be for a short time before death. It is all in the perception
You have a mom who loves you?
Yeah thank god. She expresses her love in fucked up ways. I’m the same as everyone else on Any Forums, shitty childhood. Others had it worse. My daughter having it worse than me is the only thing keeping me from committing suicide. She’s all I’ve wanted for 7 years and I only had her for five weeks before my gf stole her.
I guess I've shifted my perspective to one of being a battery. I am there for my wife and son to help them succeed and enjoy life. I am the battery that juices and enables them to enjoy their experiences. I will provide juice as long as I can, until I am no more or I am useless.
One thing I would recommend, which I have been doing since I lost my daughter, is fasting. I haven’t eaten anything for 24 hours. It helps with the emotional pain by allowing physical pain to manifest through hunger.
Take the toys outside idiot. Say we're going to play out here today. You are the father. You are in charge.
That's really terrible user. I'm sorry to hear that. It's one of the reasons I haven't finished myself off even if I would find relief. It would be something my parents didn't do to me despite how fucked up they are. I am not sure I could do something perceivably worse than the physical and mental torture they put me through.
THIS. Listen you all to this fucker.
How I miss my father...
If he's more content playing side what does it matter? Why must I rain on his parade because dad isn't feeling great?
Do everything you can to get a good lawyer. You can't keep the child from you. Period. You have legal rights.
Oh I do this naturally. I just don't get hungry when I'm like this.
You aren't raining on his parade. You are moving locations. The child needs to understand sunshine and grass and dirt is just as fun as carpet, maybe even more fun. The kid needs vitamin d and probably you do too. That's why you are depressed. You have a bundle of joy right there, but you are still sad. That's vitamin deficiency. The kid will end up the same if you two don't get sunlight. Touch grass.
Yeah I do it somewhat naturally as well, but it really makes a difference eating nothing compared to eating very little. The hunger pains ratchet up a lot from little to nothing.
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Good. Never give up your fight. Your child is worth it. There are some male rights organizations out there. Look for them. Sometimes they can help hook you up with a lawyer.