My apologies, this is a blogpost for most of you. In 2013 I had a scholarship for Mexico’s most expensive university, Tecnologico de Monterrey, sadly I found /gif/ and my stupid brown brain with 0 control wanted porn, I watched lots of porn back then, I was watching hentai, I did during classes, I did it during break, it fried my brain, eventually I failed out of uni and tried to kill myself.
I was a good kid, I had good grades, and I had a potential, but after that? I had to go to the psychiatrist, I wasted 2013, I spent most time home after failing out of uni, doing what? Watching porn.
2014 comes, my brain is even more fucked, I thought I was trans I wanted to transition because of so much stupid porn, I just thought I’d be happier if I was fucking around with guys, sadly during this period I offered myself to a dude, the only 3 times I’ve ever had sex with someone was because I was trying to get used by someone and feel like a woman. I did hurt my mom, I did hurt my dad when I told them the stupid idea of wanting to be transition.
2014 another chance to get into uni, right?
Well I did, but my fried brain can’t take anything but stimulation so I quit because ‘I don’t feel good’ so another wasted year, another year of porn.
2015 comes, guess what? The same thing, I go into another university, same thing happens, year wasted in porn and quitting uni.
2016 finally comes, my brain is still fucked, this time I don’t quit, I get expelled, because my stupid coomer brain can’t take the rejection from a girl and I harass her, eventually I do something stupid enough against a teacher and they kick me out in 2017.
Now I didn’t try to get a job during 2017, I didn’t try anything, well I tried to get jobs but was always rejected. I just play league of legends and guess what? More porn, it was so stupid, my father did catch me from time to time but I didn’t care, I didn’t do anything with my life but gym, porn and waste my life.
I hate pornography. I hate Jews. I hate that Any Forums was right again
2018 and it’s the same, now I finally get a job in a call center, but it’s the same, it’s just me looking for the next porn video whenever I get home. I quit those call center jobs within a month or so because my cooomer brain can’t take more than a few hours without porn.
2019 comes and it’s no different, now I don’t even want to look for call center jobs anymore, I think I need to get out, and so I do, I get a shitty job at some retail store, guess what? I did masturbate during work but I was not caught, I simply quitted because my brain can’t work without porn, I thought leaving home, not watching a screen for a long time would help, it didn’t.
2020 it’s here and I think I can do something about it, sadly pandemic comes and I don’t do anything, I couldn’t get a job at all, my dad is disappointed at me but he knows that’s the deal with me. I know we have some economic problems but I can’t do anything, I really tried to get a job this time but nothing. It’s my fault since I have no other skills than English and watch porn.
2021 it’s about the same, at the end of it I finally got my first “long term” job, 3 months only, longer than I’ve lasted in any other job.
2022 it’s here, It took me 5 months to get another job, It’s been barely 4 days, but for god’s sake I won’t quit this time. I know my family needs me to be better, they want me to be happier. I know I need it. I wasted 9 years of my life with this addiction, lost my scholarship, lost my touch of sense with reality, pushed away too many old friends, new ones that I made during this horrible period of addiction.
And today I’ve lost another friend, and it was all my fault, my stupid brain can’t take that not everything has to be my way, my stupid brain can’t take a no, can’t take a little stop on this whole stimulation. I just need pleasure pleasure pleasure, and it did hurt. It ruined this friendship I had. The only one I had probably since mid-2019, I’ve hurt myself, I’ve ruined my career, I’ve hurt my father, my mom, my brothers, everybody around me. Do I even get laid? NO, of course not. I’ve not even kissed a girl or anything. All I’ve ever done is watch through a screen.
No more, Any Forums, no more. I’ve seen many things here in Any Forums, and you are right, this is not okay, not one bit of this crap is okay. And from what I’ve experienced, yes, porn is not an industry to make money but to control, to keep people stupid, unhappy, addicted, and docile. Made to break families, made to break people. It broke me. I guess I’m 26 now and I don’t want more. I don’t want one fucking pornographic image, I need to be better.
I wrote this here because you helped me understand all of this. All the problems it caused me.
>dirty nigger spic can't control his ape mind
>it's muh porn's fault
Fuck yourself wetback trash
I literally said it's my fault a bunch of times.
Not reading your non-white shit, faggot.
thanks for the bump
I stopped reading after the first post ‘cause I ain’t reading all that but I know the feel. Porn nearly ruined my life. Wasn’t gay before, started watching sissy hypno, turned gay. Did the same gay shit, not even attracted to men but did it. Pure lizard brain. Absolute coomer. Been working on nofap, took me three years but I’m down to once every two weeks.
Nofap changed my life, it can change yours, but it will be very very hard to do if you are as big a coomer as I was. I had sex with over 100 men and over 100 women and about 50 trannies. In the back of a taxi, in a baptismal bathtub, a moving elevator, behind a tree in a park. Sex is such an all powerful force for people like us, but if I can tame it, it can be tamed. Once I saw Kengoku Senkan or Taimanin Asagi while on speed my mind just broke, and it’s still broke. It was a bit harder for me because I am a trap. But I have mostly beaten it nao.
Ima go watch Ringu nao. If this thread still up when I’m back I’ll read the whole thing. Good luck mexanon. You can change. It will take effort and time though. Being on pol certainly doesn’t help with all the porn and hentai posted here.
Fuck you paco
kek not sure if troll, larping or real
anyway, sounds pretty based
>I love Porn nothing hotter then gooning for hours loosing your mind constantly on the edge and drooling for your Porn mommy.
Please kill yourself spic
It’s true and not even the half of it. I went ahead and read your whole post and you seem to have it as bad as I did, just in a different way. I would watch it once or twice a day at most, but it was really just sexuality overall that got me. If you really can’t tear yourself from the screen, you need to put yourself into a self imposed rehab with no screens for a week.
What you really need is to go out into the wild with a dose of shrooms and a good friend. Let him know about the porn - or if you don’t, the shrooms will let him know by the end of it. Don’t do it like a party. Do it like a ceremony.
Anyway I know how much it sucks to have your brain totally took over by sex. I got caught masturbating at work once, even though I hid in a back room. Absolutely stupidest shit I ever did. But I did a looooot of other stupid shit too. Porn is evil. Do nofap and your whole life will begin to feel different once you hit the two week Mark or so. 2 weeks of no porn and no fap, and I feel like a changed man. TRULY. It’s hard to do but it’s worth it. I mean it Mexican user. I love da Mexican ppl. I worked with a lot of them and they good. Lot of the racists on pol live in all white areas, they don’t really know how the game is played.
But anyway, you can do it. But like I said, it will take time. Took years for me. You will eventually lose the anhedonia and begin to feel happy from basic things like taking shitz. Good luck user
if it's real, congratulations on being actually honest with yourself. Stories like this honestly break my heart, cause this shit is happening to kids at age 7 now so expect to see a lot more of this over the next century.
Honestly the experience i just had 3 hours ago, losing the best friend i've ever had it's pretty traumatic, hopefully i can go from this one and never again watch porn.
sadly, it's real. thank you for that, yes, we need to do something, porn destroys lives.
Every morning spend 5-10 minutes reminding yourself, saying it in as many ways as you can to yourself and just remember, no young boys ever had to face this level of hypersexual content. Seeing hardcore 1080p porn is a fuckin trip to be honest. So you should feel a little bad about it, but it’s understandable too. I’m go watch ringu nao. Have good life and I send you good luck
(Establecido doubles noted and acknowledged
Irrevocably desensitized, helpless fried-brained coomers and gooners - welcome.
Ponder on the fact that everyone pursues self-destructive activities until they cannot tolerate it any more, the only difference being that for some it comes so early they don't even start, others dabble in and quit, and some all they way, wasting away years and even their entire lives.
What makes such vast difference in men?
>establecido
kek
no, no more, no more being a coomer.
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No pues la neta si estás bien pero bien pendejo mi compa, al menos te das cuenta pero no mames, tardaste 9 años ya ni pedo, ponte a hacer algo y neta consejo de compas ya vete de donde sea que estés, ya te quemaste feo ahí, vete a otro lado y empieza otra vez, ya deja a tu familia en paz y sirve que tu también buscas nuevos aires, no quedarte donde la neta ya cagaste demasiado feo las cosas.
Your problem isn't porn. Its the fact you don't have anything going on in your life. You have no purpose. Get a hobby.
shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up.
it's a cycle, i ruin shit because of my porn addiction, both statements are true.
im a cumbrain and 22 rn.
we will make it bro
please, stop as soon as possible. i beg you, dont waste your life like me.
SHUT UP SHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UPSHUT UP
You need to raise your baseline dopamine. Grinded Flaxseed and/or Walnuts for the omega 3 check online for your measurements. You have to exercise everyday only for the dopamine stabilization if everything else. You need to do introspective meditation at least once in your life. Andrew Huberman, a neurological professor and opthalogy professor at Stanford has a lot of videos online you should check out. He is like Joe Rogan if Joe Rogan was a genius.
Don't listen to this spastic Porn loves you and will be alway with you if you end your relationship with Porn you just will be sad and gloomy all the time.
Go to BDSMLR make an account and add Gooning blogs you will not regret it.
I'll exercise, that's for sure. I'll do anything i need but honestly, man?
this experience i just had few hours ago was so traumatic that i can probably go off from this. i'll check your recommendations, thank you my gringo.