Be me

Then force yourself to pay attention. Nobody wants to pay attention at work, but we do it anyway.

Then you deserve to starve.

do you have a window? then anything you want, user

I don't even know anymore.

I take so many different pills and sometimes I just crash out for 10 hours randomly when working from home

I always say pills work okay to my therapist because I don't know how to say it does have side effects and I don't want to go through withdrawal again if they stop giving prescriptions to me

I can focus to analyze and solve, but my memory is shit and that's the ultimate denier to learn more than a basic programming. And without that it's impossible to even get into junior positions in this shit country full of it guys

go get a job nigger

There's "autists" and then there's full blown bash your head against the wall autismo. One needs a good kick in the ass daily, the other needs to be handcuffed to furniture lest he drink the drainex bottle when you look away.

>I can focus to analyze and solve
That's 90% of what a programmer does, you learn programming logic and how to apply it. The language itself doesn't matter all that much.

grow your own

You can be a poorfag and still have nice sandwiches. Do you have SPAM in your country? Fried SPAM and egg sandwiches aren't shabby at all.
BTW, your country seems to be overrun with beavers. I have been watching this Lithuanian dude bust up beaver dams every day for a while now. His jewtube channel is growing quickly. That might be an idea for some sandwich money?
youtube.com/watch?v=Ah1xAAxxzlI&t=4s

Stop using the internet all day, read books, your brain has been destroyed by jews

I have a job with above minimum salary.

It's around 750e a month while minimum is 550e in my country.

I pay 250e for my rent. I pay 180e for my debt. I send 170e to my old parents. And I have 150e left for myself and my cat which I should probably put to sleep.

I buy a bunch of rice, frozen vegetables, pack of coffee, medication, different grains and a pack of cheap buns to enjoy something sweet once in a while. Hygiene, cleaning supplies, toilet paper etc., cat food, cat litter and I have a bit left to put into my "savings".

I have sleeping pills which I can always take in case I can't continue anymore. So far 2 times have been stopped by my cat, that's why I'm hesitant to putting her to sleep.

christ, that's grim

move back in with your old parents since you take care of them anyways. cant get ahead wasting 70% of your income on debt and rent

i moved back in with my mom after my life went to shit and it only took me a year to get debt free/unfuck my life

Tastelet here
You could probably take a can of dog food put some hot sauce and garlic powder and lay it on a bed of rice and I would be ok with it.
I would be like
Its not too bad.

I think I must have a similar strain of autism, because my issue with programming has always been the parts that should be easy, i.e. using libraries to do things. But I get so obsessive over wanting to do everything myself that I burn out immediately.

Documentation is always so confusing to me. I can slap together a simple infinite platformer or shmup in javascript but show me a feature rich library and I'll stare at the documentation for an hour before feeling too lost and giving up.

Bottom up thinking is a bitch.

Post 10kg Hackfleisch

Sucks to hear that.

Obsession too. If I somehow find that one thing to enjoy doing, I worn myself out so quickly and can never force touching it again.

>christ, that's grim
Why? Thats how eastern europeans livem 95% of us
I make
600 euros a month

200 rent
150 on utilities
150 or so on food on food
Rest is goes to food for my cat and bus tickets and such

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he can focus on his shitty youtube videos hes watching all day long of course, just why do work when you can post on Any Forums and watch youtube videos instead

Bro command yourself wtf.
>two minutes passed, must look at new content!
>NO, I will continue to read

Simple as

I'm a neet for life and food is rapidly getting more and more expensive...I might have to choose between food and drugs

That's not how mind wandering works.

Would be bold to assume I listen to the need to do other things immediately. But after years of trying, what's the point when your brain doesn't process information that you try to read.

Similar as to why can't schizos just ignore voices and live a regular life.

lol looks like a tranny penis.

>200sq feet

This nigga living in a closet ayoo Mike Wazowski!