>just been on Any Forums >while i've learned a lot it's been in the form of infographs or screencaps >spend majority of my time nostalgia'ing for a past i never experienced and dreading the future > > >decide to read a book tonight, cant fucking focus, brain is all over the place daydreaming, etc
Did i make myself retarded?
I can get hyper-focused while daydreaming ridiculous scenarios and intensive detail within them. But apparently trying to focus on a book my brain chimps out after like 5 minutes
You're probably listening to music, have your phone on the side, and doing some other stupid shit while "reading a book". Quit doing that. No music. No phones. No TV or internet in the background. Nothing. You. Book. Nothing else.
Blake Fisher
Except for technical information that requires a lot of detail books are shit. The most interesting data is dynamic, a book is by definition static. Live feeds, statistics, panels and lectures are better and more adaptable ways to getting information
Josiah Cook
>Did i make myself retarded? Yes, you dopamine receptors are fried. You need to reset them or you're fucked.
Do a dopamine fast. No internet, no music, no entertainment of any sort. Just reading and exercising for a week. Read picrel during this time.
Probably adhd. People who say adhd isnt real are morons.
James Phillips
You're literally making yourself retarded. You can't recall shit from all those hours of jewtube lectures and podcasts. What you read in books sticks much better and it trains your attention span and willpower.
Christian Harris
I actually have that book on my shelf but havent read it yet :(
The wrekt dopamine might be it, i've been taking adderall for like a year and weed at nights
I should probably just cold turkey that shit as i dont need it and i fear i am making myself retarded
>You can't recall shit from all those hours of jewtube lectures and podcasts This is painfully true
I listen to some based podcasts and while listening i am mentally engaged and loving it, but retention is limited to general broad ideas and very little actual detail
Blake Sanders
I had the exact same as you describe. Give me a sec and I'll write my experience in the hope that it helps you
Kayden Rodriguez
Yeah, but you can regain the ability to sit down and read and focus. Took me a little to do it after recovering from a nasty case of meth addiction, but I persevered. Even if you just read 5 pages at a time - it will get easier, if you just keep going. Even if it takes you 10 minutes or more to read a single page. Just keep trying.
Levi Morgan
Guess it depends on the person; I prefer to listen to hours or panels than to read the same peoples books, the essence sticks and if its something I want to recall, it gets bookmarked and I make notes.
Brayden Bailey
too much internet syndrome you're used to getting big dopamine for literally no effort only way to restore your ability to have an attention span is to do the difficult stuff more often e.g. reading books, meditating, etc.
Jayden Edwards
Look man, I can relate. Our whole world is made to pacify us with social media feeds, hyperpalatable food and entertainment that is literally designed to give us as massive dopamine hits as possible. The effect is that we can't motivate ourselves to do anything productive, just consoom. You need, and I mean absolutely need to disconnect from all that shit. You need to rewire your brain to enjoy running, reading, lifting, cooking and all the things in life that actually make you feel good. I'm rooting for you, user. As do your ancestors.
Oliver Brown
Had this experience in both 2018 and 2021. The two worst years of my life so far. I felt exactly like you do now. I felt like reading was boring and something losers did.
That was subconsciously. It's something I would have never admitted, and that I don't think it's true, but the thought was lying in my mind.
2018 and 2021 were because of unrequited love, and the memories I never experienced. I was also cast aside by my acquaintances who went out partying and getting drunk/meeting girls while I was at home browsing Any Forums and /wsg/. I had to beg one of them to take me with them, yet they ignored me. They took me for a fool "Yeah man we'll keep you in mind!" never to call me or send me a text. In the last moments they never even replied.
I spent all day long daydreaming to the point where I had created entire universes with minimal details and characters. Everyone had their unique trait. Everything was thought to the last detail.
Well, it's not my intention to bore you with my history, just to make sure we felt the same way. How did I get out of it? Simply suffered for one year (one year in 2018 and another in 2021) and suddenly It started to go away. Yes, I know what you think: >just wait bro But that is realy what happened. I suffered a lot, had depression and tried to overdose on meds, which didn't work. Plus other mental conditions so you can imagine. I wanted to die.
Then I started watching films and found myself being interested in books and learning a bit more. The movie that did it for me was Christiane F (1981) and the same book (masterpiece IMHO).
Then I started worrying less about normies and going out, and started enjoying myself browsing Any Forums , /wsg/ and reading books. I have also watched a lot of movies (not hollywood crap) that I can recommend, maybe you'l find them entertaining.
Justin Watson
You gotta build back up to it with exercise. Read fun engaging stuff like fast paced fiction to get back in the habit, then nonfiction stuff designed for chunks, build up to heavy. Screens are terrible, I try to read from a book for an hour before sleep. Exercise helps. During daylight hours so does taking notes with a pen or pencil. Writing is incredibly good for your brain.
Lucas Ward
I told my family 2 years ago that I think they turned on some sort of frequency that induces daydreaming/increases seratonin uptake somehow and they they literally thought I was schizo, they all have individually come to me and said it happens to them too now
it could just be effect of isolation from covid though
Ian Young
If you had asked me in 2021 I'd start feeling better for no reason then I would have never believed you. When I was at my worst I did all the stupid retarded shit /sig/ advises: do a sport, noporn, go to church, etc. NONE OF THAT HELPED ME. If anything I was more depressed because I was doing something I didn't enjoy.
It simply goes away, yes, after suffering a lot. But I think you get used to it subconsciouly or something. You have to be strong and know that there's a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how illogical and surreal that must feel to you know. I've been there. I know exactly what you mean.
I wish you the best fren. From a person who felt exactly as you do now. I can feel the deepest sympathy and I hope my message helps you in some way, or at the very least keeps you going until shit gets better.
It's society that is fucked. We have no purpose in this sick world, and people have become shallow pieces of shit. The only solution is to withdraw and start enjoying yourself on your own. People come and go. You don't have to depend on someone to be happy. Things will come to you when the gods (or God if you are a Christian) will it. Be strong
Leo Hernandez
this makes a lot of sense
the more i think about it i'm definitely way overboard on dopamine
>tfw take half an adderall on an empty stomach and spend 8 hours straight shitposting with laser intensity but 10 minutes in Culture of Critique and my brain feels like oatmeal
It's a stage. Unironically, read my posts. Yes I know they are walls of text, but It may help you brother. I was in the same situation
Matthew Lewis
thanks for the tips, i remeber reading the Shanara(sp?) series as a kid and it was comfy fantasy i might warm up with that
Kayden James
>Trusting infographs and screencaps Might as well lobotomize yourself
Isaiah Bennett
>turned on some sort of frequency that induces daydreaming I literally daydream 90% of the day so i would believe your theory
Its probably because i have no friends IRL so my mind just does it own thing since its just me and myself most the time. I'm not a "loser" in the traditional sense, i just cant relate to NPC nigger cattle any longer and its easier to just be solitary
Brayden Foster
>Did i make myself retarded? Yes retard. now leave, and never come back.
