im literally going insane as we speak
this world is too fucked up for someone who is not brain dead to survive, i barely feel anything its just empty
i thought about turning my life around and joining some shitty elite division in the army, can any army fag confirm if the combat abilities i learn will be useful in the urban life or would it be just better to watch a shit ton of chinese fighthing movies and read some old books about the stuff i want to learn?
is melee combat really a joke since the invention of guns which can kill you from a huge distance in a second? red pill me anons i want to kill and being around blood shit and puke is something im ready to do in order to get that mental satisfaction
>just become a serial killer user
too much work and no one pays me, plus i will lack the equipment i want to inflct as much pain on my victims as possible
also, is most of the army like me or are they moral faggots that will tell me im crazy, try to beat me up and then report me?