I was raised with the idea that masculinity is inherently bad. This indoctrination has now taken over my sexuality. Below I have written down one sexual fantasy of mine. Please tell me how broken I am.
(Everyone except me is female in this fantasy)
The teacher tells me to go in front of class to take off my clothes and masturbate as usual. But this time she said that a special visitor was coming. My mother (not real one, of course) enters the room and looks at me with a belittleling smile. She sits down on a chair in front of class and my teacher puts me on her lap with my stomach pointing upwards. "Today, user is ready to lose his masculinity. You can capture it on your phone if you like," said the teacher. My mother puts her middle and index finger in my ass, which makes me feel really uncomfortable and I try to get away. But she has me in a tight grip and says "Sshhhh. Try to enjoy it, user." Then she puts the fingers of her other hands in my mouth repeatedly in and out until I start sucking on them. I feel raped and violated, but I submit. The teacher and the other students are amused by this scene. Some start to giggle as they notice my errection. "Go ahead," said my mom. I start to masturbate. "Didn't we teach you to masturbate like a girl, user?" So I started to rub my flat hands against my penis instead of using my hand's grip.
Maybe I should stop here. If you want I can share other scenarios with you (only if you wish to examinate it psychologically). Stuff like this is pretty bad, I know. But I have even read about people that phantasized about being murdered in occult rituals. I am sharing this with you becuase I can't share it with anyone else. So let me know your thoughts.
AND YOU CAN'T KEEP MY BROTHER AND YOU CAN'T FUCK MY FRIENDS
Carson Perez
Masculinity is bad when it is too exaggerated through physical aggression and the concept of honor. "Masculine" behavior is fine to a moderate extent, user
Carter Lee
Didn't read. Why do germans have such fucked up sexualities? Just fucking stop, have sex in the missionary position for the sole purpose of procreation and stop man.
Cooper Howard
No one gives a shit about your faggot fan-fiction.
I mean, for a German this is totally normal, you guys had to either live under communist (authoritarian Kike) rule in West Germany or the hypersexualized aftermath of the Kikes replacing Germans in their own homes in East Germany. Your culture never stood a chance and this is just an echo of how that society influenced your upbringing and sexuality. It's obviously straight, but also super kiked.
I was at a bar years ago,and wasn't drinking alcohol because I work nights and had very little sleep. A Chad heard me order another plain cola and laughed at me. "Real men DRINK!",he declared. I sat quietly and said,"would a Real Man allow his actions to be swayed by the opinions of others?" This pissed him off. He gets in my face and growls,"Are you challenging me?!?".
I just looked at him askance and said,"No,I would like an interpretation of the Rules. You claim to be an expert on Manliness,so would a real man let others goad him into something that he doesn't want to do?"
I explained my reasons for not drinking booze and wondered why he had an opinion about what I was doing at all. I certainly don't offer mine for free other than in needful circumstances. Manhood is about fulfilling obligations and keeping faith,not who you screwed and who you can beat up.
He and his friends walked off in deep thought and I was left alone. Sometimes words are all you need.
You prob won't believe but I am a legitimate Christian, not just out of tradition. I don't know why God doesn't deliver me from this. But I believe it's a chellenge I have to go through to grow spiritually and as a person
Thomas Hughes
honestly, I don't believe the whole sexuality thing you are describing here is even possible. Just stop being a fag, ok? Just when you think you are about to fag, just don't. Okay? simple as.
Angel Green
>not possible
Listen, you know nothing if you think this is not possible. People even eat literal shit to fulfill their sexual needs. Some even molest children.
I promise that I will overcome this. But it's not that easy.
Chase Jenkins
This is normal for continental Europeans.
Brayden Watson
>People even eat literal shit to fulfill their sexual needs. Silly user, Germans aren't human. They're weird flesh automatons made by God to produce chocolate and volkswagons and they occasionally malfunction.
Julian Murphy
it makes no sense to me that you do some thing you don't wanna do like how does that make sense?
also it's wants, not needs ofc
Ryder Richardson
Go back
Zachary Ross
Have you ever read apostle Paul's letter to the Romans? He said himself that he did the things he didn't want to do, and didn't do the things he wanted to do. It's battle between sprit and flesh
Austin Bell
Have a testosterone blood test to see if you're low. They are around £60 After that start praying for God to fix your problems and go tell your mother what her bad mating decisions have done to you
Grayson Wilson
you make a lot of sense for a degenerate
Ryder Gutierrez
stop masturbating and it will go away. also stop idealizing women. develop relationships with other men and stop being gay
Owen Gray
Cool, how do I unsubscribe from your faggot blog.
Jaxon Bennett
I think your mind has been twisted by the small hats.
Lucas Fisher
You sound like a fucking faggot too. You and OP should go have gay buttsex together.
Joseph Allen
Porn addiction Hans?
Eli Thomas
Thanks.
If you met me in church, you would never suspect me of having this issue. I'm actual pretty social and have a decent carrier and I'm interested in living a godly live. I didn't choose to be that way, honestly.
Parker Sanchez
you are realy broken mate. well maby try aquiring saddistic or domeniering sexuality. i have no clue if people can just adjust what they think is hot but i have some serious sadism in me(well not completely insane but enough). Maby it comes with time masturbating to the right thing.
Isaiah Phillips
Its a weakness and the father of lies is using it to separate you from God and from living up to your potential.
Asher Kelly
Du christlich westdeutsche Missgeburt.
Connor Hughes
i know these feels, find Christ the rest will sort it self. Oh and stop jerking off.
Jacob Young
Yes. I even watch something called Ballbusting. Don't look it up.
Joshua Russell
Baka. That's not how a real girl would do it. Put your own fingers up your ass and stretch wide enough so the whole class can see what's inside.
